Finally.

I'm better :) I finally feel better. I was able to eat some soup last night, and that really helped. I haven't attempted anything yet today, food still doesn't sound good. My doc called in some medicine for me for the strep, and I can already tell that its working. Lets just hope the antibiotic doesn't give me a yeast infection. Gross. Sorry, too much info?? The kids are doing great too! Other than they are fighting w/ each other a lot. All the time home they had this week must be affecting them. Or is effecting? I can never remember which.
I don't have any big plans for the weekend. I'd like some though. I'm not one to be cooped up. I need to be out and about. I know hubs is having his poker game tonight, but I'm so NOT playing. One of my girlfriend invited the kids and I over to play disney scene it. I think I might do that. That might be fun. Saturday, hubs is going to another poker game (grr), so I don't have anything for tomorrow either. It seems like I haven't been out in a while. I need a good-let-loose girls night. Some drinks, and some dancing maybe?? I haven't been out dancing in a few years. All the clubs we have around here are full of just-turned-21 hoodrats. The girls walk around 1/2 naked, and the guys try to creep up on you. Eww. That kind of atmosphere isn't very appealing to someone such as myself, but I really would like to go bust a move w/ some girlfriends. Maybe I should open a new club. You have to be fully dressed, not get tanked, and if you're a boy, you need to dance in your own space :) That sounds like fun. Am I turning into a prude in my old age?? I just might be.
I have nothing interesting to talk about. My lack of getting out has left me no entertaining stories to tell. I should make one up. Or, maybe a past story? I'll save that for this weekend. I'll come up w/ a good one! Have a good weekend all, and stay healthy!

Oh- and go check out Chicken's blog today, her post is fantastic :)

PUKE

I have to make this quick. Jade had a stomach bug on Sunday, she threw up twice before noon, and was back to normal again by dinner time. Last night, hubs started puking. I must say that having a sick husband, is worse than sick kids! He doesn't handle being sick well, so the whole time its 'ugh. moan. i feel so terrible. moan. ugh' I have a hard time being sympathetic, because I can never tell how bad it is, whatever he has is always the worst ever. Then this morning, Max woke up and puked in his bed. Bunk bed. Do you know how fucking hard it is to change bedding on a bunk bed? Terrible. Not to mention wiping the damn thing down w/ bleach water. Shortly after Ave got up its 'mommy, my tummy hurts' Fuck. I suppose she will have it this afternoon. This is the worst part about being a mom. Taking care of puking kids/hubs. Wiping ass', cleaning up puke, meeting demands of all sorts from ' more sprite please' 'please lay w/ me' to 'MOM I just shit my pants' or 'MOOOMM I just puked on the carpet'. And then ofcourse, Hubs too. I'm going to lose my damn mind today! I see my plans for slipping away crashed and burning. I need to make it through today w/o getting sick myself. Can you imagine if I did get sick today? THAT would be awful. Moms can't get sick. Ever. But even if we do, we still manage to hold on and take care of everyone else. I need an attitude adjustment today. I need to be considerate of my family. I'm being kind and patient w/ them, but I'm not feeln' it. At all. I want to piss and moan and run away for the day. GEEZ. When it rains, so they say. Strep throat last week... What's next?? I hope this is the last bout of sickness for us. I HATE this time of year. All sorts of nasty floating around, and for some reason, my kids are getting it all. Sonofabitch. This sucks.

EDIT- it only took Avery a 1/2 hour after I posted this to start puking. Fabulous. Fucking Fabulous.

The strep throat has cleared up, or at least he's feeling better. He was feeling better by Friday afternoon. Our weekend wasn't very exciting. Poker on Friday night. Which was fun, but I think I'm sick of it. I've had enough. We've been having poker games every friday for almost a year now. Hubs works all week long, and when he gets home on Friday, he's busy getting ready for the game, setting up the garage and what not. Hubs is usually up late, playing side games, cleaning up, waiting for everyone to leave. So on Saturday mornings, he sleeps in. Saturday is really the only day of the week where we don't have to do anything. The day where we can spend family time together, or get things done around the house. We have some 1/2 projects they need to be finished, and few more waiting to start. But now his saturdays, are spent sleeping in, and by the time he's up and ready to go, more than 1/2 the day is gone. Its getting to be too much work to have them. Too much for him, and too much for me. I don't have as much to do w/ the game, but thats more time I spend taking care of kids w/o his help. As this last game was the last straw for me. There has been a disturbing trend recently. Play cards all flippn' night. 3 times now, I've gotten up in the morning, and they are still playing in the garage! THEN my hubs has to sleep forever, and the whole day is gone. This weekend, hubs came to bed, and left guys out in the garage. He left our good buddy in charge, so that was alright, but damn. I got up at 8, and there they were. They didn't leave until 930am. I just can't have that. This is my home, not a casino. Yes, they play in the garage, but still. It bothers me, and its been bothering me for awhile, the constant friday night games, and now, i've just kind of had it. We have about 30 people a week that come to play. I don't want them here anymore. I know there is one on this Friday, but I HOPE that's it. And I'm not going to play anymore, at least not at my house. My hubs will never think I'm serious if I keep playing. Other than that.. Not a lot happened. The baby got a stomach bug yesterday, but it didn't last long. She threw up twice before noon, and that was it. She was back to normal, and eating just fine by 5. If we have to get the flu, I prefer it like that! I'm waiting to see who's next in line... And, not that anyone cares, but I had some absolutely FANTASTIC sex this weekend. So there. :) Have a good day!

Here we go again....

Max woke up in the middle of the night burning up! He was so hot. He was complaining of a sore throat. Jade's well baby check was this morning, so I decided to bring him along, just in case. Our ped. is great like that. He'll check out our other kids when it isn't there turn. Sure enough, Max has strep throat. Sonofabitch. I'm glad we caught it early, but shit. It's not going to take long for Ave to get it. Maybe we'll get lucky, and it will pass by w/o anyone else getting it.

Jade's appt went well. She is in the 50% for everything. She weighs 19.12 pds, and is 27 1/4 inches long. Growing girl! She's doing everything that she is suppose to be doing. I love the well baby check ups. Its fun to see how they change every few months :)

My friend that pissed me off called this morning to say sorry. She said that she felt bad, she was only trying to make a joke. I'm glad she called, it made me feel better.

I stopped at the store and stocked up on popsicles and sprite. I'm going to spend the afternoon snuggling w/ my kids, watching movies. I hope Max feels better soon, and that the other 2 don't get it! We're going to lay low for a few days. Have a good day!

Bah

I'm a bit blah tonight. It was just one of those nights that doesn't go so great. Hubs and I had a bit of something tonight. We just were not getting along. Made me feel sad. I called a girlfriend for moral support, as we women tend to do. And she so didn't help. Made me feel worse. I told her that we just didn't get along, but it wasn't an argument, although I did say something kind of bitchy. And she says, in this very sickly-sweet-sarcastic voice "noooot yoouuuuu". What the hell? Was she insinuating that I'm a bitch? That wasn't at all what I needed at the moment. She knew she pissed me off. I told her that it wasn't nice (can you tell I hang out w/ kids all day?). She kind of giggled and said she didn't mean it like that at all. I'm probably overthinking this, and I am hormonal this week. Even still, it bothered me. I'm still bothered about it. It isn't often that I reach out to friends when I'm having a bad day. Most of the time, it seems silly to share them, or that I'm over reacting. So I don't say anything about it, just carry on like I'm fine, or I shrug it off. Like, yeah, its not a great day, but it isn't that bad, could be worse. Then I change subjects. But tonight, I needed some support. A friendly "aww. It will be better soon" or "That happens to me sometimes too." I'm always around for my friends, most certainly this one. Can't I just get a hug, a beer maybe? Makes me sad, and want a pity party. But, you can bet I won't be calling anyone else for a lift this week. Don't want to be burned again. Not to say that my other g.f's would do that, I'm sure they wouldn't, but it makes me want to close off.

My son is having a rough time as well. Last week, I was talking to another mom about night terrors. Max had a few of those when he was 2. They were scary! Max overheard it, and now he's terrified to go to sleep in his bed. I don't know what I can say to make him feel better. I've tried. He's so much like me in that way, w/ his fears. I had many of them when I was little, and I know what it felt like when my parents put me off, or thought that I was just trying to get out of bed. I don't want to do that to him! He starts thinking about it right before he brushes his teeth, and then by the time he gets to his bed, he's a mess of nerves, and shaking. Trying not to cry, but he can't help it. The last few nights, I let him sleep w/ us. Tonight I wanted him to go back to his bed, but he was so scared his knees were shaking. I said all the things moms are suppose to say "there is nothing to be afraid of! monsters are not real, but if they were, I'd chase them away from you. I'll leave the light on. I'm just in the next room, you are safe. I'm telling you the truth, honest to goodness, you have nothing to fear. Daddy is bigger than the boogie man!" I didn't know what else to say. I did my best to reassure him. I left him in his room for 1/2 hour or so. When I peeked in to check on him, he was still shaking, and crying quietly. I've been there! I can remember the fears that I had that were so very real to me. I took him out of bed, and laid down w/ him on the couch w/ the lights on. When my parents would ignore my fears, it made me feel alone, and all the more scared. I can't do that to my son, but I do want this matter to clear up. Suggestions???

The baby started saying "mama" this week! Melts me. I can't believe how big she is getting! Her top 2 teeth finally broke through as well. Her diaper rash has cleared up, and she is once again, sleeping all night. Yeah!

Ave's behavior has been much better too. I've started using some different methods with her, and they are really paying off. The day goes by better now. She still has her occasional tantrums, but even those have gotten better. She no longer slams doors, or screams till my ears bleed :)

I talked to R.A. friend last night, and she isn't coming tomorrow. Her icky hubs sentencing has been moved to Feb, so I will not see her till then. She went to see a lawyer today to find out what the laws are, and what her options would be. She has been leaning towards divorce, but she kept going back and forth. After talking to the lawyer, she made a definite decision to go thru w/ a divorce. I'm relieved! I think it is the best choice for her and her kids!

Tomorrow will be a better day. Tomorrow will be a better day. Tomorrow will be a better day. That's suppose to work, right?

Update on News Story

Here are a few of the emails that I've exchanged w/ the news lady.

> Hello Julie!

Thank you for sending the story. I also did some checking on my own, and I agree, it isn't a good thing. I would be willing to help you out. However,I don't understand why you want to interview me, when you could find just as many willing to interview, closer to you. I would like to know what youwill ask, how long it will take, and when it would happen, and where the interview would be shown. Thanks again. I'm looking foward to hearing back from you.

Misty



From :
Julie McCoy Sent : Tuesday, January 17, 2006 4:21 PM
To : "M blue"
Subject : Re: TV NEWS STORY






Hi Misty,
Thanks for getting back to me so quickly!
You are perfect for our story- that's why I want to interview you! Our
stories air all over the country and that's why we interview people all over
the country. If I interviewed everyone from Miami, it'd be way too boring.
Plus, I've already interviewed all my friends, family and friends of
friends- I'm all out of people! That's why I head online to find people
now.
Our stories run during the local news casts of stations all over the
country- so your 5pm or 6pm news. We will send a camera man to your home to
do the interview and then just to get some extra video of you too. The whole
thing will probably take about an hour. I haven't written the questions yet,
but I will ask you about how you protect your financial information, and
then what you think about banks employing people overseas who have access to
your personal information. I can send you more specific questions once I
actually write them!
Let me know if you're still interested, and we can set up a day and time!
Thanks,
Julie

So there it is. I still don't know what to think about it. We shall see what comes next!

I can spill it!!!

The secret I've been holding on to, is actually Chicken's :)

If you haven't been reading my blog long, Chicken is my best friend, for the last 13 years. A year and 1/2 ago, she started dating my brother. It was kind of odd that they got together, but I was thrilled to see 2 people that I love so dearly, find happiness together.

They just found out that they are expecting a BABY!!!!!!!!!!!! I was so happy when they told me, that I jumped up and down and cried. I am beyond thrilled!!!! A baby?! Not only do I get the honor of being an Aunt a second time, but my very best friend is giving birth to him/her. A part of me, from her. I am so excited. I cannot WAIT to see the beautiful baby that was created in the purest kind of love.

Not only are they bringing a baby into the world, but I think that they are going to get married as well. Holy shit. Who would have thought it? I'm telling you, I never imagined this 13 yrs ago. Chicken always had a crush on my older brother. She drooled over him all the time. We joked about it often. I never in a million years believed that they would get together. And NOW? WOOOOOOHHHHHOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!

She is going to be the mother of my niece/nephew. And my sister, for real. I cannot get over it. Yay! In the last year and a 1/2, I've loved our family get togethers. My partner in crime gets to be there w/ me. Its awesome. You know how family functions can be boring, or just plain suck? Mine so don't anymore.

She's going to be an awesome mama. She lights up when she's around my kids. And my brother is an awesome dad. He has a child already, and has made me proud in the dad department. I just can't wait. September cannot come soon enough!!!

hmmmm

Hi Guys!
I got an interesting email today. Check it out.
Hi,

My name is Julie McCoy, and I am a TV journalist working on a story about banking.

I read your recent post that discussed your paranoid nature- I'm the same way- when it comes too all things, especially banking information.

The story I'm working on is about how banks are sending more of their customers' personal data overseas- to call centers in India. I need to interview someone who is concerned about this practice. I thought maybe you would fit bill.

If you are interested in speaking with me, please give me a call at the number below or email me a number where I can reach you.

Thanks,
Julie McCoyProducer, NewsProNet


I did call her, after checking out NPN on the internet. Seems for real. I asked her to send me some more information, and I'd get back to her. She said that she could do an on camera interview w/ me, and that their news shows are shown on many different stations through out the US. Weird. She didn't seem the least bit concerned that I live in MI, and she in FL. I don't really know what I think of it yet. I'll have to wait for more info. What do you think? Go figure, that me being overly paranoid would get me on TV. I'll update you when I know more.

I have a secret... I'm DYING to tell you. But, I can't. Yet. Hopefully I'll be able to soon!

I'm having all these lovely day dreams about blowing off my responsibilities and sleeping ALL day. Today is the perfect day for staying in bed. Gray, kind of raining. I love sleeping when its raining. I always sleep so much more soundly, and deep. When I was in college, I remember the alarm going off one morning. I reached over to hit it, and I heard the rain. I hadn't even opened my eyes yet, I smiled, and rolled back over. I missed a big test that morning. Oops. Damn rain. Seems like I haven't gotten enough sleep this week, its been busy. I stay up late to clean up the day's damage, or read to unwind. I just read a huge book that took place in Ireland. I want to sleep listening to the rain, and dreaming of Ireland. Dreaming/sleeping was a favorite hobby of mine before the rugrats.
Speaking of rugrats, they have been very good! When I got home last night, all the kids were sleeping. I sat down w/ hubs to hang out, and Avery got up. She came over and crawled up in my lap. All she said was "mama" and quickly fell asleep on my shoulder. Aww. She can be hell on wheels most days, and then sweet angel girl on a rare few. I love those times. Makes being a mama all the more precious.
My run-away-friend is coming for a night next week w/o her kids. I'm looking fwd to seeing her. Its been a few months now. Her hubs is being sentenced then, so she's coming for that. She wants to know how long he's going away for. She keeps going back and fourth w/ divorce. For awhile, she was sure she was going to do that, now she doesn't know if she can/should/whatever. Everyone has an opinion on it, of course, which just confuses her all the more. I haven't given her mine, and I won't. She needs to make it by herself. But, I must say, if she doesn't decide to divorce him, and stay w/ him, I don't think I can stick around. I have very strong feelings about what he did. Being a child molester victim myself, I just can't get around that. I have little girls! I would never ever be able to welcome him into my home, EVER. It seems like a simple thing to me. But it's not my family, my husband, or situation. But if it was, I would get a divorce. Like right now. I don't think I'd need to think about it at all. Ok, so there wasn't any penetration, but he fondled an 11 yr old girl. SICK. Bastard. I don't want to ditch my friend, but man, I can't deal w/ that shit. I hope she makes a good decision.

Mark of the Beast?

I've discussed my paranoid nature on here before, so this post shouldn't really surprise you. I was listening to talk radio this morning, as I usually do. Its a local news radio station, where local stuff is discussed. I know they have it on the internet as well, so if you're ever interested in taking a listen, its woodradio.com. I'm not sure of the exact web address, but I think its that. Anyway, recently in Kent county, people have been having microchips in their dogs, incase their dogs are ever lost or whatever. Today, they were discussing microchips for people. The microchip is about the size of a grain of rice, and can be inserted into your hand. All of your personal information would be on this chip. Medical information, bank information, passwords, insurance, ssn, credit card info, criminal records.... You could also have it programmed to unlock your house, your car, and whatever else. Interesting. What do you guys think of this idea? All the local folks that called in today, at least the majority, said no way! They don't want the government tracking them. Or what if criminals were able to get some sort of receiver, so they could just walk next to you and get all your information. I think it would have many benefits, I'm not concerned about the government tracking me. They can already find out anything they want to about you. You can be found by your credit card transactions. Ofcourse, they don't have a gps system for us yet, so there is that. But whatever, I'm not concerned w/ that. Its a comforting thought to think that if your children were ever lost, hurt or kidnapped, it would be easy to find them w/ this chip. What I found creepy about this whole thing, is being marked. I imagine most people, religious or not, have heard about the mark of the beast. And how in the end times, if you do not have the mark, you will not be able to get food, water, or any other necessity to live. You will be an outlaw, or something similar. I don't have a lot of biblical knowledge on this subject, so pardon me if I'm screwing it up. Yikes! I know that it says that the mark will be 666. What on earth does that mean? Do you suppose that is literal, or a parable? I can't say. There are many parts of the bible that I don't grasp. I get lost easily. Even so, I believe that the bible is truth. No one brought up the mark of the beast on the radio. Just me, given my paranoid nature. One more thing for me to have nightmares about. No, I don't think that this microchip IS the mark, but I can see how it would be easy to make it that way. I can't imagine anyone in our society putting 666 on something and expecting it to fly. But the bible says it will happen, therefore, it must be. If not in a literal sense, then something else. What do you think? Y'all think I'm crazy now, huh? :) Have a great day, and beware of microchips! LOL.

A New Record

We finally saw the sun yesterday! We broke the record here in West Michigan for the most consecutive days in a row w/o any recorded sunshine. Not even a sliver. I think it was something like 17 days, but even before that, if we had any, it was only a slice for a few minutes. I was starting to worry that it would NEVER come back, and then all of these awful things would start to happen.... In 5th grade, we watched some video about how the sun was a star, and how eventually, all stars die. Then it went in to what would happen if we were left w/o sunlight. I had nightmares for months about the sun exploding, and then living in the dark. It was terrible! I was VERY happy to see the sun yesterday. I handled the gloom much better than I thought I would. Winter in W. Michigan is gross. Its pretty for the first little while, but then everything gets slushy, and gray. Kids are cooped up inside, and I get a bit depressed. But these last couple weeks, I did ok. I was starting to get bummed, but then it came back, in the nick of time. I need sunshine! Of course today, back to gray... I think I might need to go tanning. I imagine that would help.
I don't have anything else to gab about... Weekend was not very interesting. Hubs and I did go out to dinner w/o any kids, that was nice. We met another couple for dinner, and had a good time. I was hoping to be alone w/ my hubs, but it was ok anyhow. This week isn't looking bad, should not be too busy. Oh, and we caved. Back to cable we go. Its only been a few months, and we miss it. Rotten TV anyway! Enjoy your day!

Interesting...

I went out w/ my parents last night. I don't think I've talked much about them here. I'm very close to my mom, and my step-dad's cool too, but they live in a much different world than I do. Always makes for an interesting evening. We went to a polish hall last night. If you don't know what that is, its kind of like an American Legion, but instead of vets, its filled w/ polish people. Cheap beer, and good food. We are polish, but not that much, so I don't know how my parents got a membership or whatever you call it there. My parents both ride Harley's. They are not typical when it comes to parents, to say the least. lol. We met up w/ some of their biker gang friends. I sat next to a shady character by the name of 'gangster'. They are all nice people, but definitely your typical bikers when you think of stereotypes. Tattoos, leather and beer. Maybe a few other substances. My parents dog is named Cannabis. Weird. LOL. Anyway, it was fun. I would have liked to stay longer, but all the talk of chrome, and wheel size and light dropping was getting a bit blah for me. Oh, and my mom proudly displayed her nearly-front-row-seats for a kid rock show coming up. Yep, not typical grandma.
My hubs and I went out w/ them a while back to a very popular biker bar. When we first got there, it wasn't very full at all, so we were having a great time. Then the door opened, and 30-ish outlaws came in. Ever hear of the Outlaws? Yeah, they can be scary. My parents got all weird when they showed up, and made it known to us that we needed to be extra careful. Don't take pictures, stay out of their way, and everything should be fine. My step dad was going on about how he won't sit w/ his back towards an outlaw blah blah blah. Sounds silly, but it was enough to make us nervous. The men had on long sleeved tee-shirts w/ outlaw written on the the sleeves, and leather vests w/their nicknames on it. The women also had leather vests on, and instead of their name, it said "so and so's Bitch". Nice. Some of the younger guys had something along the lines of trainee on it, and when I asked about it, being the friendly girl I am, he just stared at me. YIKES. Ok, I guess they don't socialize. The bar was small, and narrow. To get to the bathroom, you had to squeeze next to the pool table, which was, covered w/ outlaws. I couldn't wait anymore to pee, so I very carefully made my way back. I'm trying to avoid eye contact, stepping lightly, w/ the polite excuse me's required. I start passing the HUGE MEAN looking guy, and when I get even w/ him, he stomped his food so hard on the floor, I nearly shit my pants! Scared the hell out of me. When I looked up at him w/ the fear clearly on my face, he started laughing, cracking up. Asshole. lol. He was nice, not a jack ass at all. He knew I was nervous and thought he'd shake things up a bit. So then we had a friend, kind of. The others were more apt to talk to us then. Later in the night, I went up to the bar to get a drink. Took forever. This really old outlaw was talking to me, keeping me company while I waited. He asked if I rode. "Do I look like a biker, in my conservative get up?" He laughed, said " I didn't think so." We went on talking about bikes and what not and introduced me to a younger outlaw. He was cute, for a scary biker. The old guy was going on about how "a cutie like yourself should be w/ a biker. They take care of you. This guy(talking about the young one) he's your age, single, you should go out w/ him." That made me giggle. The younger one said "yeah, how about it? Wanna get on my bike, go for ride, get out of here?" I said "Oh no, thank you, but I couldn't. I'm happily married. My husband is over there (I pointed to hubs)" Older and younger guy look over at Hubs, Hubs smiles wondering what in the hell I'm up to. Younger guy says "I don't give a shit about your HUSBAND. Wanna ride or what?" That freaked me out. lol. I repeated my earlier stance of "no, but thanks anyway" and hussled off to my hubs. I told him it was time for us to get going. I told him about the biker guys, and he was like "yeah, lets go" We said our goodbyes to my parents, and made our way to the door. The younger guy says "See you later blue" in a intimate sort of way- purposely done to try and irritate my hubs. We waved and got out to the car. We were laughing about it in the car, and hubs is like "I could take him." LOL. We both new that was bullshit. lol. It was funny. Then Hubs says "If he really wanted to fight w/ me, I'd have to let him take you." Nice :) It was a funny night, and I'm glad we made it out of there w/o any issues. We haven't been back since. I'm not sure that we will. But, oh, the fun we have w/ my parents.

HNT! My Sexy Hubs!

My sexy sexy hubs :) And beautiful baby, of course. Jade was having a rough night last night. Her top front teeth are coming in, and she has a raging, terrible diaper rash. She woke up crying, and wanted NOTHING to do w/ me. Only daddy could make her feel better. They fell asleep together in the chair. I fall in love all over again w/ my hubs when I see him like this. He's a great dad. Seeing my man be a wonderful daddy to our children, melts me and gives me butterflies. Still, after all of these years, and 3 kids. HHNT!

My year in review

Happy New Year! We had a great New Year. We rang it in w/ champange and all some of our greatest friends. We had a wonderful time. What a year its been! It's been good/awesome overall. Here are some of my highlights:

My mother in law beat breast cancer this year! We found out in 04', and the cancer was already a stage 3. It was scary! I kept thinking what if she doesn't make it? What if this baby I'm carrying never gets to know her, or love her like I do? I also thought a lot about the why's. Why her? She's a faithful believer, healthy in all other aspects, never has told a lie, never smoked a smoke, drank a beer, lived the cleanest/healthiest life style- why isn't it me? It was rough for me, and where I stood in my faith. She started chemo right away, and then on Apr. 1, 2005, she had a double masectomy. When the results came back, after surgery, she was C L E A R! I cried for days. I couldn't believe it. We were so thankful. 6 wks after her surgery, she did radiation, 5 days a week, for 15 minutes a day, for a total of 8 weeks. She's doing great still!

I had my 3rd child on April 14. We were thrilled! We had tried to conceive for 2 yrs, and then finally, gave up. We just didn't think it was meant to be. Hubs just had to wink at me to get preggos for the other 2. It was a very sad time for us, and just when I really forgot about it, TA DA!! I was pregnant. Jade was born via C-section on Apr. 14. She was a little peanut! 7 pds 91/2 oz, and 20 1/2 inches long. She was and is beautiful.













My son started kindergarten this year! That was a big deal for us as well. He loves it, and is doing very well. Its hard to watch your kids march off to school.

Avery started preschool and dance this year. I wasn't sure about sending her to preschool (she was only 3), but I thought that it would be good for her. She had a hard time when Jade was born. I wanted her to know, and to feel that there were things special about her, that only she could do. I thought school and dance would be helpful w/ that. School is going great, and dance is too, when she feels like it. She changes her mind from week to week on weather or not she likes it.

We didn't take any huge trips this past year, but we did go camping a lot, and short weekend trip. I think we went camping 6 times, Toledo once, and we spent 3 days at The Great Wolf Lodge, which our kids thought was the coolest ever. If you've never been, and you have small kids, look it up and see if one is near you. Its awesome!

Hubs and I started having regular poker games here at home after the kids go to bed. We play in the garage, and its been fun. We get a chance to be social w/ others, do something fun together, and we never have to pay a sitter. We joined a bowling league too!

I can't think of anything else. I hope I didn't forget anything. This year I want to try to be a better mom. I need to work on being patient.. I'm NOT so great at that. I'm a work in progress. I want to be more organized as well. Not good at that either. I have a feeling that 2006, is going to be a great year!

Broken Kitty :(

My poor sad kitty is broken. Mike is my cat, he's my baby. He's a huge black cat. He's kind of skittish, and doesn't really like anyone but me. He's more like a dog than a cat. He understands me, and comes when I call him. Now he's broken...
Avery was having a trantrum b/c she didn't want a nap. She has this awful habit of slamming her door when she angry. Poor Mike didn't see it coming. He didn't jump out of the way quite fast enough. She caught the tip of his tail in the door. I didn't realize at first that she got him. I thought he moved fast enough. A short while later, I was going thru the kitchen, and I saw blood on the floor. When I looked by Avery's door, I saw cat hair, and more blood. Mike was in hiding, I couldn't find him. I started to panic a bit. I finally found him hiding under Max's bed, pissed off and bleeding. Oh man, it was gross. I felt terrible for my cat, and really angry w/ my daughter. I called the vet, and they said to bring him in.
When Avery got up, I told her what had happened. She felt bad, she didn't know Mike was there. I tried to explain to her how serious it was, and could have been. I wanted her to get it. Hubs and I weren't sure what sort of consequence to give her, but we decided on her coming to the animal hospital w/ me and Mike, to talk to the Vet. The vet explained that they would have to cut his tail down a few inches, stich it up, and wrap it. She did a good job explaining it so Avery understood that Mike was going to have to be given shots, lose part of his tail, and wouldn't feel very good for a few weeks. He had to spend the night w/ the vet. Avery felt awful, and has been very careful about shutting doors. I hope it keeps up.
We picked Mike up this morning, and its very sad :( He still has a good length of tail, but even still. He's gone into hiding. When he decides to come out, I'll snap a picture for you. Sad kitty.
What a week! Can't it get much crazier around here?!? My kids are being good today, thank God! The past few days I could have thrown them off a roof w/o guilt! Tonight we are having our regular poker game, and tomorrow we are having a New Year's party. I think we'll have somewhere b/w 15-30... Not sure exactly how many, but I'm looking fwd to it. Everyone is bringing their own drinks and a munchie, and we are ordering pizza, so there is very little work for me to do. Woohoo! Happy New Year!!

Rough night!

I wasn't feeling very good last night. I have some sort of sinus issue that is causing awful headaches. Hubs was fantastic, and told me I should just go to bed, get some rest. Lovely. It was 7:30. I couldn't wait to get in bed. I climbed in my nice comfy, cushy, bed, in that one spot. You know the one. You generally can't find it till 5 minutes before you have to get up. Ahh, yes. So cozy, so quiet... peaceful. And then, 20 minutes later.... I was woken up by my daughter screaming, the baby crying, and things falling. I was SUPER pissed. Hubs was suppose to have this- What in the HELL is going on out here? I found the baby on the floor in the hallway, crying her poor sad baby eyes out, and Hubs was in the bathroom w/ Ave trying to get her in the tub. She was crying, yelling that she didn't want a bath, and pushing bottles of shampoo of the tub on to the floor. Hubs was very calm, and she was being a dick. I was in a sleep crazed haze- not quite awake yet, but totally pissed. I told hubs I'd handle this and take the baby, oh, and I hear Max crying about something as well. I went and got a wooden spoon, told Ave to be quiet or she was going to be in trouble (hence the spoon). I believe I also uttered an absolutely terrible phrase such as "knock it off, or I'm going to beat ya". Geez. I can't figure out where the mom of the year trophy is. My poor kids. I can't not believe some of the crap that flies out of my mouth when I've lost my mind. I don't think she heard it, I hope she didn't! Rotten mommy. After Ave's bath, it was Max's turn. He's usually good about it, but not last night. Cry cry cry, complain complain complain. Meanwhile, baby is crying, won't take a bottle from Hubs. I'm suppose to be sleeping right now, getting rid of this headache, which is only get worse, and I'm getting more and more short of temper. Get Max out of the tub, take the baby, give her the bottle. And of course, she takes it just fine from me. Okay, now older kids have brushed teeth, and hubs is getting them into bed. and once again, they are crying. They want MOMMY to tuck them in. Little bastards. I'll do it. Go into Avery's room first, and step on a hard plastic doll pacifier. It jammed ever NOT so pleasantly into the arch of my barefoot. I grunt to cover up my "sonofabitch", and promtly throw it. Still holding it together. BARELY. Avery has a tent on top of her bed, so to tuck her in, you have to lean into the tent. I lean in and WHAM! She HITS ME IN THE FUCKING HEAD W/ A PLASTIC DOLL!!!!! Holy shit motherfucker, I am suppose to be in my mothering fucking bed right now and what in the hell is wrong w/ these children?! K, I didn't say any of that, but it went through my head. OH MY GOSH, I can't handle this anymore, hubs please take over, I'm getting out of here. Hubs tried to give me a hug, I was close to tears, but I couldn't let him, b/c I was in rip off your fucking head mode. I just stepped out, and then Ave is crying again, b/c she hurt mommy. She didn't mean to, she just meant to throw it b/c she was mad about going to bed, but I leaned in just at the right moment. Good grief. What a night. After I cooled off, I went and kissed Avery, and told her I was ok, and please don't throw your dolls. I know it was an accident, it's ok. After all that nonsense, I finally climbed back into bed, an hour and 15 minutes later. Hubs felt bad. He didn't know why the kids were terrible, and was sorry that they woke me up, but thanks for helping me... Try to go to bed early, and the natives go wild.... That's what we mothers get.

Christmas Pictures!

These pictures are GREAT. I never know what order fucking blogger will put them in- so, as you can see, my beautiful baby was TERRIFIED of chicken dance elmo. I almost peed my pants when I saw the pics! And my daughter, beautiful girl. Her twisty buns had fallen out due to the vigorous present opening. I'd love to show you my son, but after the darth vader voice changer helmet, he just wouldn't take it off. Its a cool toy. You can change your own voice, or you can push a button to get Darth breathing, and some phrases. Fantastic present Chicken :)

Dammit!

I got 1/2 through this very descriptive post of my holidays and events, and then I fucking lost it. Damn you blogger! GEEZ. So now I'm just going to do the short version. I can't believe its been a week since I've posted. It has been crazy busy. Christmas Eve we spent w/ some friends roasting hot dogs in the fireplace, having a few drinks, and everybody brought a dish to pass. It was a really nice way to spend the evening. The weather has been super mild which is retarded. But then again, this is Michigan. Our weather is always bananas. We had ass loads of snow all the way up to Christmas, and then, it all melted! Gone. Christmas is the only acceptable day to have snow. I can deal w/ it then, and even enjoy it. The worst is that I know it will be back till at least March. All that, and no snow for Christmas. Unreal.
Christmas day was fantastic. We went light on gifts this year, but even still, couldn't have been better. I love watching my kids tear open presents, and seeing their eyes light up. We spent the day w/ family, and had an awesome time. Good food, and good company too. I love love love it that Chicken gets to be a part of that as well. Its lovely to have your partner in crime present at all family functions. She and my bro better get married soon. I want more nieces and nephews! My kids were spoiled, and I also got some fab things. I love Christmas, but next year, I'm going to do less! I want to be able to thoroughly enjoy the holidays, rather than lose my hair over what has to be made for which event, and stay up till all hours of the night wrapping gifts. One thing I'd like to do again- I made my brother a scrap book filled w/ pictures of us together when we were little. He loved it. I've never done anything like that before, but it was fun to make, and he really appreciated it. Made giving the gift that much nicer. I would like to spend more time thinking of thoughtful gifts, and MUCH less time cooking and cleaning.
The girls are finally better! No more coughing or sickness of any sort. My son must have the immune system of an Ox, b/c he never got it at all. He was sniffling and kind of coughing for a day, so I kept him home, but by the next day, he was much better!
Monday we tried to find places for all of our loot, and clean up. I'm continually amazed but how my house can go from shining to dump in a very little time frame. I still haven't gotten it all back to normal! Hope I can do more tomorrow. I would like a clean house again!
Today I had an extra kid all day. My good friends had a baby today! She's beautiful. She has more hair than I think I've EVER seen on an infant. Cutie. I had their son all day. He's a really good boy, so no problem there. It just made it kind of a crazy day w/ 4 small kids in the house.
I hope all your holidays were the best. I promise to post regularly now!!!

Madness!

I have been so busy! The weekend w/ hubs family at the hotel was fun. The kids had a ball, and so did most of the grown ups. I didn't really get to participate in any of the card games or board games, but I was content. I caught up on sleep for sure. Hubs took ave to the doc on Friday before we left. The doc gave her some steroids also, and since then, she's been much better. I thought that Jade was better, but she has a fever today. Her first fever ever, and its 102.4! Poor baby. My kids have been healthy all year, up till now. And of course, happens to be the week before Christmas. I hope everything is gone by this weekend. It would really suck to have to stay home w/ sick kids and miss out on all of our family/friend gatherings.
We got home from the hotel on Sunday afternoon, and went directly to bowling. I'm getting better!! I think we started a few months ago(we play every other Sunday, I think Sunday was my 5th game) and I'm now getting 20 - 30 pins more per game. That's pretty good, at least I think so. From bowling, I went shopping for Avery's birthday. We had her birthday party on Monday night. I can't believe she's 4! I cry every time my kids have a birthday. I'm so proud of them, its exciting to watch them grow and change. At the same time, it makes me sad that they are becoming big kids. These years go by so fast! Too fast. Avery had a great birthday. I'll try to post pics of it later this week.
Tuesday I went to school w/ Ave for her Christmas party. I coordinated it this year, and it went well. There are 8 little girls in her class, so cute! At recess time, we went down to the gym so they could run off some steam. All of them immediately started running in a big circle, screaming. It looked like fun, so I joined them. In the corner of the gym, there was a HUGE pile of those big squishy mats, and I belly flopped on them. The other parents that were there looked at me as if I had lost my damn mind. Haha! They must not run around w/ their kids acting like retards. I bet they don't play karate ninjas either. lol. Losers :) After school, a friend came home w/Ave, and I hung out w/ her mom. Good times. Last night I cleaned a house. Worked my ass off, and I'm paying for it today. The rest of this week was as busy as the first half. Bah! I will post more when I have more time!

HNT- Late

Hi all! Much to tell, but not nearly enough time. I got a hair cut today. My hair used to be just past the middle of my back and no bangs- check it out now.


















The top left is an AWFUL picture. I don't take good pictures! Bah! But I wanted you to see the front. You may not be able to see the side swiping bangs, but they are there- look closely. It's much shorter than it used to be. The bottom left is a nothing picture, but I thought my color looked good :) And the last one is a very short pony.

We are headed to Toledo tomarrow w/ 3 sick kids. Yep, all three of em. Shoot! Max isn't as bad as the girls, he's just starting to cough and sneeze, but I hear it coming. I'm seeing a pattern here. Ave came down w/ a fever tonight of 101... And the baby's ok, just coughing still.

I have to make 2 doz cupcakes, 4 doz cookies, a 7 layer dip, and white chili, all tonight. Piss. I'll be up forever. I need to clean my house too. Nothing is worse than coming home from a weekend trip or vacation to a messy house. Have a great weekend, and HNT!

oh NO

Crap. Ave came down w/ croup last night. My doc said that older kids don't usually get it. Of course MY kids would. Poor girl. She woke up in a coughing fit last night. As soon as she started coughing, I knew. I'm keeping her home from school today, but I hope she gets better faster than the baby did. Her birthday party is Thursday night, we could always reschedule, but that would devastate her. She's having a joint bday w/ one of the other girls from her preschool class. The party on Thursday is for all the kids in her class. Friday, we're leaving for Ohio for the weekend to celebrate Christmas w/ hubs family. It would SO suck to be stuck in a hotel room w/ a sick kid. I don't think I would go if she were still feeling bad. I hope that doesn't happen. I suppose its better she's sick this week, rather than the next. And at least both girls were not sick the same week. I got a brake in between. Nice.
I feel better today, not so stressed or cranky. Hubs made me feel better. I need to keep my attitude in check. I was being impatient and ornery w/ my family, for no other reason than my mood. That's terrible!
I have to work tonight! Woohoo. I haven't worked in a month at least, and I'm looking forward to it. I'm going to ask them about regular hours after the first of the year. I need to work now. Money is tight. If they could give me 2 nights during the week, and every other weekend, that'd be perfect. They are super flexible, so I could wait to go in after hubs got home. I love my job :) They are good to me there. I just hope they can fit regular hours in for me.

Busy Busy Funk Funk

The weekend was busy! I knew it would be, but geez, it kicked my ass. I was so tired last night. I couldn't keep my eyes open, nor could I be patient w/ my family. My fault for stacking up too much over the weekend.

Saturday was unreal. Kids had to be to church at 9am for practice. Right after that, we went to an extended family Christmas party. My hubs has a HUGE family. This party is w/ all of his Aunts, Uncles, and cousins. I don't know any of their names, and I don't like to go, but hubs parents would be upset if we didn't make it, so we go. I try to avoid awkward situations by never speaking to anyway w/ their name. Ha! Next up was the memorial service for Chicken's grandpa. That was rough. I didn't know him well, but it was hard to see my friend so tore up. Her family has a different religious background than mine, so the service was very different for me. All funerals are sad, but somehow, this one seemed worse. From the memorial service, I went to a birthday party. From the birthday party, I went to a poker game, and lost. Sucked.

Sunday we had to be at church at 9, for the kids Christmas pageant. My son was a shepard, and my daughter a sheep. lol. It was cute. We went to breakfast w/ my family afterward. And THEN, we went to see the Trans-Siberian Orchestra! That was an awesome show. I had never been, and I hadn't really heard of them either. They played for almost 3 hours, and were very high energy. The light show was like nothing I've ever seen, and they had some sweet fire stuff too. It was heavy metal-ish Christmas music. If you have a chance to see this group, you should! I think hubs and I will go again next year. It was very cool, and Blue approved. It was a good weekend.

That being said, I'm in a funk. Overwhelmed w/ Christmas stuff, my daughters fast approaching birthday, housework, bills, and hubs. I'm feeling bad. There is so much going on, and I can't figure out how to manage everything, pay for it all, or keep up with it. I want to cut myself out from the rest of the world for a few days, hide, and sleep. Nothing is all that bad, but I can't shake the emotional coaster I'm riding. I want to get off and level out. It will all come together soon, it always does. But just knowing that doesn't comfort me much... Looking bleak.

Snow Day!

When I was in school, I LIVED for snow days. There was nothing better than laying in bed, listening to the radio, waiting for your school to come up. And when it did... ahhhh.. Roll back over, and fall into the best sleep of your life. My kids have a snow day today! I don't have to bring anyone anywhere!! And, its Friday. Western Michigan had between 6 and 10 inches of snow last night. 277 schools are closed in West MI today. Check it out.

That's a whole lotta snow. My kids are going to have a blast going down the slide later. It gets super slippery when they have on snow pants.

Speaking of kids, my baby is doing a little bit better. She's been sleeping at night, most of the time, and seems to be in better spirits. She doesn't want to nurse though. She hasn't gotten her appitight (I don't know how to sp that) back yet.

I went out w/ my friend M last night. We had a great time. I've been needing to get away from my kids, and hubs. Sometimes you just need a break, you know. We went out for dinner, and had a super delicious coffee drink. mmmmm. Our usual routine when we go out is dinner, and a movie. The dinner is always good, the movie, always crap. We have a knack for picking bad movies. Last night, however, we finally saw a good one. We saw Pride and prejudice. It was cute. Its a chick flick, and some of the dialect is hard to catch, but it was good. After the movie, we had I c e c r e a M. Perfect night out. I feel so refreshed today. I told M last night, that I'd prly be spending most of today cleaning up the damage done to my house when we were out. When I go out, hubs and kids have a party, and trash the place. But I was so glad to be out, I didn't care. When I got home last night, the house was clean! Like cleaner than I left it. My hubs is the sexiest bitch alive. I love that man.

We have a lot going on this weekend! Poker tonight. A memorial service for Chicken's papa :(, a bday party, another poker game, my kids Christmas pageant at church, a Christmas party, and tickets to see the Trans Siberian Orchestra. I have NO idea how we are going to pull that off, but should make for some interesting blogging on Monday. Have a great weekend blogland :)

Holy Croup Batman!

Sure enough, tis croup. The doc gave her a shot of steroids to reduce the swelling in her vocal chords, or wind pipe, whatever it is that swells up w/ croup. I was somewhat surprised that she really does have it. After hearing her cough this morning, I was really starting to doubt that she had it. The doc said that croup really only bothers them when they are laying down. So after they get up from bed, they can seem fine, until they lay down again. I'm glad I went. She'll be really contagious for the next 3 days. Not for older kids, but mostly just to other babies. I hope it doesn't turn into a serious condition and passes quickly.

I was talking about the baby to my fried Talula, about maybe it being croup, and my guilt about weaning. Anyway, she kept telling me that I was overly paranoid. Which I am, but the way she said it sounded more like she was insulting me. Kind of like the same tone as "you're a bitch, a stupid one" but really flat- bothered me. And you can't exactly say to one of your girlfriends "don't use that TONE w/ me" lol. I love her to pieces, but sometimes I wonder what her motivation is when she says certain things to me. Like, is she trying to rile me up here, insult me, or support me. Hard to tell some days. Weird. Ever have that?

Now what?

The baby didn't sleep too good last night. She woke up a few different times during the night, and was up for the day at 530am. But now, her cough sounds less like a bark, and more like a just a wet cough. Do I still take her to the doc? I'm glad she's doing better, and I don't really want to take her in to hear the standard "She'll be fine. Nothing we can do. Just let it run its course." Bah. But if I don't take her, and it gets worse tonight.... Prly better just to go. Her appt is at 11:15 today. I'll update after her appt.

Poor baby

Its midnight. I was planning on being in bed and asleep 2 hours ago. My baby is sick! She's had a stuffy nose here and there, but now, I think she has kroop, or croop? The cough that sounds like a barking seal. Crap. Its so sad. She is so tired, but when she coughs, it must hurt or something, and she cries, wakes up. I called the after hours Dr. to see what I can do. I will NOT go to the ER, unless she's really bad, and thankfully, they didn't tell me to. Phew. They said to give her cough medicine, steam up the bathroom and sit there w/ her for 20 min, and put a vaporizor in her room. They said I could try warm apple juice too. I guess that's suppose to help loosen up the mucus in her chest. They gave me all the warning signs, and told me I should bunk w/ her for a few nights to keep an ear on her breathing. Her breathing isn't bad. You can hear a little something, but nothing terrible. I'm nervous! I don't think I'll be doing much sleeping tonight. Paranoid as I am and all. I should have the hang of this, 3 kids deep. But no, still terrified the instant one of my babies are sick :(

I'm feeling bad. I'm down to nursing only 3 times a day, and NOW my baby comes up sick. Coincidence? I don't think so. Makes me feel like crap. I let her down. I started slacking off on taking care of myself which led me to the conclusion it would be best if I started to wean her. Why didn't I just pick up the slack, and take better care of myself for her? Because I'm rotten. Bad mom. Makes me cry. So now I want to nurse more. I need to go pick up some fenugreek, and try to increase my milk supply, which is a total pain in the ass. Once it goes down, at least for me, its so HARD to get it back to full power. I'm going to bring her in to the doc tomorrow. Maybe he will have some suggestions for me. Pray for my baby, and my other kids, so they don't pick it up!

The weekend was nice. I didn't win in the main poker game, but I did win a side game. I stayed up WAY too late. I was so very tired Saturday. I did end up having to rush around, which sucked, but I pulled it off. The shower came together nicely. Hubs was pooped too. We put a movie in after the kids went to bed, and passed out on the couch. Last night was our bowling night. I'm still not a good bowler, but I feel like I've kind of figured something out. Now I just need to make it better.

I've discovered that if I get up an hour and a half early each morning, and don't sit all day long, I can almost stay on top of things around here. I'm going to try it for a few days. I'm so sick of having mess everywhere. I lost it Saturday night w/ my kids. My house was clean, I had been busting my ass all day to keep it that way. Ave was munching on some crackers, and managed to spread them all over the kitchen/dining room. No problem. Pick it up. Then she and Max did some craft project w/ Styrofoam. Again, all over. Still no problem, pick it up. Then my naughty girl shredded up paper EVERYWHERE. Damn! Starting to get irritated, but whatever, clean it up. Then my daughter laid some crayons on the table, and cut them up into tiny tiny pieces w/ a plastic knife. Then there were crayon shreds, and crayon ALL OVER my table and counters. CURSE AND SWEAR! I was pissed. All of this happened in less than an hour. 4-fucking times, in a row! Grr! I lost my temper, yelled, cried. It is so frustrating to try and keep on top of my 3 kids, housework, laundry, cooking, and hubs. Hubs was home Saturday night, but he doesn't pay attention to that sort of thing. If I ask him to take care of something, he will, but he's not the kind of guy to see a mess and think to pick it up. And I refuse to not let my kids be kids. I could follow them around w/ a trash can and a whip, but no. I'm not that kind of mom. They are told to pick up after themselves, but they're little still, so I don't expect perfection. They get the bigger pieces, and can put things back to where they belong. But they're cyclones. They pull out something, start to play with it, the other one gets bored pulls out something else, then they come w/ an idea to play something together, but a different game/item in a completely different room within minutes. Its exhausting. And on top of being exhausting. I don't flippn feel like it. Even when I don't feel like it, clutter drives me nuts. I will eventually find a happy medium, I hope :)

P.S. HELLO LURKER... WHO ARE YOU? YOU DO A GOOGLE SEARCH FOR MY BLOG TWICE A WEEK OR SO AND NEVER COMMENT. WHO ARE YOU AND WHY ARE YOU LOOKING FOR ME????????

Its Friday already! It's been a quick week. Went to hubs work Christmas party last night, it was nice. The food was awesome. Hubs got a bonus (cha-ching), and I got a 25$ gift card to the mall. Its so nice that his company does that for the wives, every year. He works for a good company.

I've got millions of things to do, and not much time to do them! Or I should say I don't want to make time for them. It would be nice if things would take care of themselves. A magic lamp would come handy :) I have a whole house to clean, laundry and grocery shopping to accomplish today. I have to bake a cake too. We play poker on Friday nights, so there's that. I'm having a baby shower at my house tomorrow for my friend. I want to make sure I get as much done for tomorrow as I can today. There's nothing I despise more than rushing around in the morning. Seems like I have something to do tomorrow night... but I can't remember. And Sunday is our bowling league.

It's begun. I love the holidays, but I start to get frazzled this time of year. Lots of things to do, gifts to buy, parties to go to. I need to put up the Christmas tree, and decorations, and get our the 50 or so Christmas cards we send out. I always think that the next holiday season will not be so busy. But indeed, it always is. I would rather be snuggling w/ hubs and the kids. Some year, I'm going to do it. I'm going disconnect the phone from Dec 1 thru Jan 2 :) Wouldn't that be great?? No million phone calls, no million errands, or 4 doz Christmas cookies... I can dream. I'd prly hate it after a week though. As much as the busy bothers me, I love seeing our friends and family. I love cooking. Christmas is my most favorite day of the year. But there really is a lot of hullabaloo. Maybe I can carve out a few days here and there to play w/ my family and ignore the world :) I think I will. Enjoy the weekend!

It's not as bad as I thought.

I had my daughter evaluated today by my friend, who is an OT. That's what she(OT) does all day. She works w/ kids w/ emotional/behavioral problem, add, adhd, downsyndrom, autism, and many other disabilities. B/C of my daughters temper issues as of late, I've been concerned. Not only concerned, but I've felt like I've been doing something wrong, or failing my little girl. I always thought that bad parenting = rotten kids. I've been finding out that isn't always true, at all. OT had some GREAT ideas for me. One of them is the 'first and then' thing. She said to start using it in play, like "first we are going to climb the ladder, so THEN we can jump into pillows!" so then next time I'm having Ave is having a fit about cleaning her room, or a time out I can say "I know you don't want to, what would you like to do" generally followed by an answer from Ave. When Ave gives me an answer I can say "that sounds great, lets do that, but FIRST finish this task so we can THEN do the other thing" She said that its sounds too simple and even silly, but it does great things to help little guys process things, and redirect negative emotions. I was telling OT about having a hard time getting ave to stay in time out. Her suggestion for that was to use Stop, Think, and Act. When Ave comes out of her time out too soon, to make her stop, ask her what she's suppose to be doing, and then redirect her. Ot said a big thing is getting them to come up w/ explanations for their emotions. Ave can tell me what she's feeling, but I've never thought to ask her why she feels that way. Ot also said that I should try to not let any of the things Ave says when she pissed to bother me, but to say instead "I don't think you really think mommy's ugly, I think that you're angry that you have to do this whatever" so she starts thinking about why she feels a certain way. OT doesn't believe anything is wrong w/ my daughter, other than she's a defiant child, and is not able to express why she's upset, and when we start working on those things, that it will start to get better. She gave me 2 books to read to help me out w/ this. One is called 'The challenging child' and I think the other is 'Emotional Milestones'. The are both by the same author. If anyone is interested in reading them, email me and I will send you all of the information. I feel better now, I've really been on edge about the whole thing. I just want to make sure that I'm doing the best job I possibly can for my kids, but doesn't everyone? You would think after 3 kids, I would have an idea of what to do, but they are all so different. This paragraph is so scattered, and all over the place. Sorry, hope its readable.

Have I mentioned that I like to read romance novels? Some are super cheese, but I like them. I've been on a kick this week. In these books, whenever there is a love scene, one of the lovers never fails to call out the the name of the other in the heat of passion. I don't do that. I don't believe I have ever done that. Seems to dramatic or something, or obvious. Do you do that? Something else irritating about these books.. I was reading about a prince, and whenever he was addressed in the book, he was addressed as "his Royal Highness". Doesn't that seem too feminine? But I suppose "His Royal Hinor" would sound too much like "his royal ass"...

About me

I was trying to come up w/ a list of 100 things about me, and I only got to 24.. I'm going to give you what I have, and maybe extend the list at another time. I'm lame :)

1. I'm married, happily, for the last 6 years
2. I have 3 kids. Max is 5 ½, Avery is almost 4, and Jade is 7 months.
3. I'm a stay home mom.
4. I'm loyal
5. I can't lie, which I must say, at times, sucks. I've always been a terrible liar. I just can't do it. Even in my teen years, I think I only lied to my mom twice, but then felt so guilty, I fessed up.
6. I LOVE music, of all kids. Some of my favorites- Patsy Cline, Janis Joplin, Ella Fitzgareld, Pearl Jam, The Doors, Hank Williams Jr, Aerosmith
7. I once met Aerosmith, I chased them all over town, until I finally met up with them. Steven Tyler kissed me, and even made up a song about me on the spot. One of my many highlights.
8. I met Tori Amos once too. But that wasn't planned. Me, Chicken and another friend were bored on a Friday night. We decided to get all dressed up, and drive to Chicago (3 hours from here), with no money I might add. We were having a great time on Michigan Avenue, watching street performers, and she was just standing there, right next to us. She invited us to her show the following week and U of M, which we went to, again without money, or tickets. She was kind enough to hook us up. It was a good show. Oh, and on the way home from Chicago, we didn't have money for the toll roads. Ha! They had to write us little tickets to mail in. Fun Fun.
9. I love to sing. I'm bad at it, but I love it. And not just sing, but LOUDLY sing.
10. I love to dance, again, I'm not good at it.
11. I can cook, that I'm pretty good at
12. I got my very first dirt bike at 8. Not a fan of street bikes, but I can tear it up on a dirt bike.
13. I love dogs, and desperately want one. My hubs however, doesn't share the same desire.
14. my very best friend, Chickenis dating my brother. Kind of weird at first, but I'm all about it now!
15. I'm close to my family. Mama's girl all the way.
16. I'm a Christian
17. I have 2 tattoos. A sun on my shoulder, and a dragonfly on my back.
18. I used to have questionable piercings, 3 of them.
19. I used to drink a lot. I think I was on the alcoholic edge.
20. I grew up in a broken home w/ alcoholic parents, and then a abusive, drug addicted step-dad.
21. I have 3 dads, and 4 siblings, that includes step of course.
22. I used to be a pot head. It was my favorite pass time.
23. Besides my hubs, I only really had a few real boyfriends. There were other guys, but not really any that I had a real relationship with. And by relationship, I mean that we were together for awhile, longer than a few months, and were involved w/ each others family and friends.
24. I love to read. Anything. I think I've read 50-60 books this year.

She ate soap

I've been blogging a lot recently about my troubles w/ my daughter. And they continue. I'm at a loss. I don't know what else to do about her. I threw all her toys away last week, so there is nothing left for me to take away. And she still doesn't care that they're gone. It didn't bother her that I packed up every toy she owned and threw them out. Time outs bother her a little, but not enough to change her behavior. Spanking don't work, they just make her more angry... Last night, she had to pick up her room. She changes her clothes 20 times a day, so they were everywhere. I don't expect much, just for her to put them in a pile. She was having a FIT. Yelling, crying, stomping her feet, spitting. She kept coming out of her room to holler. I kept my cool. I told her to stay in there till she picked up her things, and that's it, no more talking, bottom line. So she gets really angry, and yells "NOOOOOOOO, I DON'T WANT TO! YOU ARE AN UGLY MOM!" Where in the hell does she get this stuff? That put me over the edge. I scooped her up, plopped her on the counter, and made her swish dish soap. Man she was out of control. Screaming, spitting, crying. After her swish, I put her in her room, on her bed, forced her to look at me and told her that she may NOT talk to me like that. She said "that soap made my nose hurt funny!" and I said "Good, maybe you'll think about that before the next time you say something filthy!!!" So I left her in her room. She was really yelling in there. She was so worked up she peed her pants and her bed. She came out crying to tell me. I sent her back w/o caring, for another 5 minutes till her time out was over. When her time out was finished, I got her in the tub and threw her bedding and clothes in the wash. I just don't know.. I don't believe I'm too hard on her, but I don't let her get away w/ shit either. Where am I going wrong? I don't understand why she is the way she is. I cried last night. About her, about me, about feeling as though I'm failing as a mother. She's rotten. I love her, but I don't like her at all right now. That makes me feel terrible. I just don't know... Something has to give, and let's hope its not my sanity.
I was trying to explain to hubs last night how I've been feeling. Its somewhere along the lines of "small, inadequate, ineffective, and unimportant." I started thinking about my family. The responsibility is weighing heavy on me. On one hand its nice to be needed, but on the other, damn. Can I get a minute? I'm so involved w/ my kids, and my hubs, and spending every waking minute taking care of them, that I've lost myself. Separate from my family, who is Misty? I don't know anymore. I suppose that's the way it's suppose to be, but can't I be just a tiny bit selfish? I'm sure the answer to that is no.
When I was younger, I had all sorts of big dreams. I wanted to be in the FBI, and to be a journalist for the New York Times. lol. I wonder who I would be, if I were not mom and wife. I'm sure I wouldn't be doing either of those 2 things. I don't want to make it seem like I'm not thankful for my hubs, or my kids, b/c I am. I'm just feeling sorry for myself. Is it possible to be a mom, a wife, and keep some of yourself around? Doesn't seem like it. I generally don't mind the responsibility of my family, but when things get hard like this, really hard, I want to run away. I don't want the pressure of making good decisions so they'll turn out to be good decent citizens. I don't want to discipline them. I want to play with them and let them do what makes them happy. I don't want to think about the laundry, or what to make for supper. I thought about getting a job, a full time job. But that's no good either. I don't want someone else to raise them, but at the moment, I don't want to either.

Random

The weather here is crazy. It snowed non-stop for a few days. It was so cold on Thursday and Friday, that it hurt to inhale outside. Then yesterday, it warmed up again, and everything melted. It's in the 50's today, and raining. What? I don't get it. Pick a season. Flippn' Michigan.

I went shopping Friday morning. It was my first time for black Friday. I left my house w/ a friend at 4:30 am. The first stop wasn't bad, but the second, was madness! People were pushing, crowding, and cussing each other out. I stood in the check out line for an hour and 45 minutes. I didn't mind though. I made some new friends, sang some songs, and played a few games, all w/ the other strangers in line. Not too bad :) Did you hear about the Wal-Mart stampede, right here in MI at our local store? Crazy bitches. Glad I didn't go there. Sales make old hags go banana's. I don't know that I will be going next year. I'm going to finish up all my shopping online now. Oh, except for one trip to an outlet mall w/ friends.

Hubs took off Saturday to go deer hunting. I was bored out of my mind. I played UNO, Connect Four, and did umpteen million puzzles w/ the kids to try and pass the time. It didn't work. All of the friends that I would have liked to hung out w/ were gone, or ditched me. I was feeling a bit detached, and lonely. The house was so empty. Thankfully, my kids were well behaved, and they got a kick out of all the games we played that day. I was so excited when hubs finally got home- although he left me again shortly there after, and I spent another evening alone. I didn't mind as much though, because I knew hubs would be home to crawl into bed w/ me. I don't know why I was so needy on Saturday, I'm generally not. At all. The worst part of being needy that day was that none of my friends that I so adore, were there for me. It's not often where I feel like I need to lean on someone. I'm pretty self sufficient. But the one time I do feel like needing to lean, there was no one there for me. I'm still feeling a little detached. Like I don't want to call any of my friends today, kind of like- if they are interested in chatting, I'll let them call me. It's dumb I know. I'll get over it.

I get to clean another house this week! Its about time, I need the money. This house won't be near as gross as the last one, and I'll be getting paid better. Woohoo. Other good news for the week, hubs and I get to go out twice this week. Yep, twice! We are going out to dinner w/ my in laws tonight, and Thursday is his work Christmas party. I can't believe its already that time of year again. Every weekend from now till Christmas, we have something going on. The holidays are going to fly right by us. I love Christmas. Its my favorite time of the year. My little girl will turn 4 in a few weeks as well. 4?! Man. I better get on that shopping! Good day!

Let it Snow, Let it Snow, Let it snow...

Its coming. Snow up to our ears. They (the blasted weather men) are predicting 6-12 inches for parts of MI tomarrow, w/ gusts of wind up to 50 mph. It started snowing early this morning, and hasn't really quit- and won't. It's kind of not quite snow- more like rain at the moment, and that will make the roads fantastic for traveling tomarrow. Thankfully, we don't have far to go. We'll shall see if mr. weatherman gets it right.
The baby is still refusing a bottle. That's ok though. I can stick it out, i can hang :) I think my milk supply is coming back up now too. I was a little concerned, but seems alright now, or at least getting there.
My 2 older kids are both spending the night at different grandparents house's. WOOOOHOOOO! That's the best. Both of them haven't been gone over night at the same time in at least a year. I'm excited! I'm going to get some cooking done for tomarrow, some more never-ending-laundry, and some housework, play some cards, and spend some "quality time" w/ my hubs!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! It's going to be a great night!

My naughty girl has been getting better. She refused to dance at her dance class yesterday, which was a first, so I let it go. I had things to do anyway. But the rest of the day, she was good. And this morning went smoothly as well. Yay! I hope she keeps it up. I've been giving her lots of praise for being good, I hope it lasts for a while.
My baby's 2nd tooth broke through. In the last week, I've been giving her a few bottles a day, so my milk supply has gone done, which was my intention. From Sunday night through all night last night, she absolutely refused a bottle. Anytime I would try to give her one, she would fuss, and push it away w/ both hands. I nursed her every 2 hours all sunday night, and all day yesterday. I felt awful. Here she was so hungry, and I only had so much to give her. I think I started something... For some reason, on Sunday night, I was just feeling clingy to her, like I HAD to be close to her. I let her sleep w/ me, and that's something that I never do. She was cuddled up close to my chest, and she kept waking up, wanting to nurse. I think it was b/c she could smell me. I'm not sure where my clingy feeling came from. Guilt? Hormones? I don't know. But it was sweet. I woke up to her making her hungry noise, and her hands trying to get at my breast. So I fed her, whenever she wanted, all night long. Oops. I'm guessing that had something to do w/ her refusing a bottle all day long. Then last night, b/c she wasn't well fed, she kept waking up. I let her go for a while, hoping she would fall back asleep on her own, but she didn't. Finally at 4 am, while she was at the breast, I slipped a bottle to her, and she took it. Phew. I did that again this morning, knowing my milk was low, and it worked. Now I don't know what I should do again. I think I'm going to pick up some fenugreek and try to increase my supply, and perhaps just stick w/ breastfeeding. We'll see.
Today is laundry day. I'm letting the rest of my house go to hell, and I'm just going to concentrate on laundry. I can't remember when I was so behind. I always have a few loads waiting, but right now, I think I have like 15 or something. I'm going to keep track of how many I do.
I have to get some groceries for Thanksgiving today too. We are getting together w/ hubs side of the family- should be fun. This was the most boring post ever. But whaever- the burden has been lifted. Happy day all.

Naughty

Rough Weekend. My daughter is out to get to me. I'm sure of it. The last week, she's been awful! I don't like feeling nasty towards my kids. Life is much smoother when I enjoy them, or her rather. I don't know what it is. Season change maybe? She was in her room forever saturday morning, she was suppose to clean it. But she kept making up excuses, throwing fits, being a brat. So it came down to "Pick up these toys, or mommy's going to throw them away". Know what she said? "Good! I'll help you throw them away! I'm glad they are going!" Rotten rotten rotten. I'm true to my word though, so I packed them all in garabage bags, and put them out. For some reason, she thinks that its not a big deal, cause Santa is coming to bring her more in a few weeks. Hubs told her that Santa doesn't bring toys to bad listeners. So then it kind of dawned on her that perhaps, she might not get more. I must say, that if things keep up as they are, she ain't getting shit. I don't know what to do anymore. I'm fresh out. I was so emotionally drained, that I went to bed at 745p Saturday night. I can only handle so much, and recently, my lovely daughter is killing me. I hope this is only a phase, and not a preview of her teen years. Other stuff happened on Sat. as well, but I'm too tired to drag it all out, so I'll save it for later. Help me! I'm open to any ideas or suggestions to get my 4 yr old to behave! I can't believe she's driving me this mad, and she's only nearly 4. Mom of the Year....... ............

HNT First Snow

So on Tuesday night, the weather man predicted a "light dusting" that prly wouldn't stick. Does this look like a light dusting to you? Light dusting my ass. By last night, we were under a winter advisory for 3-6 inches of lake effect snow. The roads were terrible this morning. Main roads were good, but all the side roads were on big sheet of ice. And, being the ever prepared mom of the year that I am, I had to rush to the store this morning for snow boots and such. My windshield wipers were frozen this morning for an entire hour, which made driving on the treacherous roads a pure joy. My kids are so excited though! We've been listening to Christmas music all day in celebration of the snow. I'm hoping that the snow will melt still, again, being ever prepared, all the kids outdoor toys are still outside and need to be packed away. Have a happy HNT!

Damn kids. Or damn daughter rather.

I sometimes wonder if my beautiful almost-4-yr-old was given to me to try to destroy my sanity. She has been following me around all day, whining, messing up my stuff, complaining, clinging, ignoring me, or just flat out disobeying me. She has been doing crap all day that she KNOWS she isn't suppose to do. BRAT. And being the mom of the year that I am, I told her she was a rotten little girl, and to go to bed. I NEVER ever say stuff like that to my kids, even if I may be thinking it, I don't say stuff like that. Ooops. Strike one, mom. She has been demanding today " MOM! I WANT A COOKIE" All my kids get when they say that is a time out. No thank you mouth. Then she was climbing up the cupboards, and opening the fridge, other no no's. I was picking up after the little snots earlier, and I had stacked up all of their coloring pages. No sooner than I had turned around, she had scattered them all over the floor, purposely. Later in the day, I had folded laundry sitting on the floor, and she kicked it over. And I can't count how many times I said "Put that down, NO, shut the door, get back here, use your words, or STOP IT" today. My blood pressure rose at least 25 points today, I'm sure of it. I wonder if she's being naughty cause hubs is gone hunting... I'm glad he comes home tonight. Oh, and she has an overwhelming desire to change her clothes 28 times a day. I had asked her 12 fucking times today to leave her clothes on. And I still had to ask her to put them back on 6 different times. I don't care if we don't have company, or are on our way out, which we were both today. I cannot STAND that. I find her clothes sprawled out across the house all day l o n g. And she doesn't just change a shirt, or her pants, all the way down to her socks and panties. I'M FLIPPN SICK OF PICKING UP AFTER THESE LITTLE MONSTERS. I feel a strike coming on.

what to do...

Morning. Monday again. My hubs is leaving today for deer camp :( I'll be a hunting widow this week, and for every weekend for the next 3. I think I'm going to miss him more this year. I'm always sad when he goes, but its good for him. He needs that week away to sit in the woods, drink beer w/ the guys, and freeze his ass off. Besides, it gives him some time to miss me :)

The weekend was good. We went out for hubs bday on Saturday night, and that was fun. I didn't bowl very good(well right), but I had some great sing-a-longs w/ Chicken. It was a good time, and hubs had a blast. Yesterday was full of family time, and naps :) I love those days. It was cold, gross, and really really WINDY yesterday. A great day to stay inside and cuddle.

I think I'm ready to phase out nursing. My sweet baby has been giving me trouble. She hasn't really been interested in nursing in the last few weeks, I believe its called a "nursing strike", and from what I hear, is pretty common. But at this stage, when she doesn't nurse well, it effects my milk supply, and I can't pump hardly anything anymore, even if I try at a normal feeding time. So my milk supply is has gone down, and now at feeding time, instead of it being a relaxing joyful time w/ my baby, I get stressed wondering if its going to work- which effects my let down reflex. Its a hard decision for me. I'm over 1/2 done, my baby has been only breastfed up to this point. I could try to rough it out, if its that important to me. But I don't know if it is. Then I start to feel guility about it. We are now in the middle of cold/flu season, and nursing really helps babies stay healthy. Not to mention the benefits nursing has for me. Then I feel guility some more b/c I'm not really taking as good of care of myself for her- I've started drinking caffine, cut down on water, and some other things, so then I wonder, if I'm not taking the best possible care of myself, is breast still best? Then I feel bad for nursing- crap. My breasts have seen better days..... I wouldn't mind them springing back a tad bit. And my body has pretty much belonged to my baby for the last year and 1/2, it might be nice to have it back. I don't know. I don't want to just stop nursing right now. I don't want to upset her, and I'm also emotionally attached to it. I guess I could still nurse part of the time, and give her formula the other. But I know once I start w/ regular bottles, it will only be a matter of time until she will lose intrest completely in nursing. Bottles are easier and quicker for her too. I'm proud of myself for lasting this long, I didn't w/ my other 2 kids. Ideas, opinions, anyone? Not sure what to do...

I'm pooped.

Runaway friend and her kids left today. They've been here since Thursday afternoon. We had a good time. We took our kids to see 'Dragon Tales Live' on Thursday night. The kids loved it, but I must say, that was the lamest 2 hours of my life. It was horrible! At least for the grown ups. There was one scene that they went into the 'dandelion forrest', so the stage was dark, w/ black lights, and the backdrop had paintings of flowers on it. Well, there were these 'dandelion' singers that came out of the back drop. The costume they were wearing looked like GIANT pot leafs. Course, preschoolers aren't going to know what that was, but I sure got a chuckle out of it. Why do they put that stuff in kid shows/movies? Isn't there some type of penis displayed in every disney movie? Whaever..
I'm exhausted. I watched R.A.F. kids all day yesterday so she could take care of some stuff around town, and thankfully, her kids were GREAT for me. But when she's around, they're terrible! They scream blood-curdling screams, cry, fight, yell, disobey her- its awful. Why do you suppose that is? I'm sure it has something to do w/ all the changes in the last few months, but why are they only like that for her? It was good to see her, and the boys. But I'm so tired from the sheer volume of pick up crap! That was crazy! I have spent the last 48 hours doing nothing other than dishes, and picking up toys. I cannot BELIEVE the amount of effort it has taken JUST to keep it kinda clean. I need a nap now!
We played poker last night, as always. We had 32 come. I didn't do very well. I was out kind of early, but that was a good thing~ I needed to go to bed. Chasing 5 kids 5 and under, is just a bit much!
Tonight we are going out for Hubs b-day. We're going out for dinner, and then bowling w/ 8 other couples. Should be a great time, I'm really looking fwd to it. I prly should get him a gift or something... I am the most unprepared woman ever.

HNT!

I was trying to take cute nekkid baby pictures, but since my baby has become mobile, this is all I could get.. You can almost here her inner monologue "i'm goonnna get you.." Isn't she sweet??

It got better! Much Better :D

The weekend really did turn out to be wonderful, despite the pissy mood I was in. We decided not to go to a hotel for the night, I thought it'd be more work than enjoyment. Instead we put the kids to bed early, ordered in Chinese, and watched a lovely movie. We watched 'The Notebook', have you seen it? It was great! A perfect anniversary movie to watch. If you haven't seen it, you should. It was the best night ever. We turned off all the lights, and the phones, and snuggled up under a blanket. It felt sooooo good, just to be w/ hubs. It couldn't have been better! That was all on Saturday night.

Friday night, we played poker in the garage, as usual. We have 41 people show up! We were packed. We paid 9 places, so everyone at the final table got paid. I took 5th, for a whopping 50 bucks! Woohoooo. I won A HUGE hand. I've never been so excited during a game. If I wouldn't have won that hand, I would have been dead long before 5th. I went all in w/ pocket Q's. I had only 1300 in chips (which was an ok chip stack at that point), I had 2 callers. The guy next to me had pocket J's, and the other guy had AQ. On the flop was trash, A, 10. Shoot, I was beat then. On the turn Q! woooooooohhhhhhhhoooooooooo. Fantastic. I don't remember the river. But I won that hand, and it was HUGE. Tripled up. I've never gotten to rake in so many chips, that was the best. Good times!

Hubs took the kids out of the house for me for 3 1/2 hours on Saturday. He's such a hottie. So I was able to get my stuff done. That felt great. It is a lovely thing to clean house w/o interruptions. And you already know about Saturday night.

Sunday was our bowling night. My scores from the week before were something like 53,85, and 65? Anyway, on Sunday, I bowled, are you ready? 103, 56, and 125 bitches!!!!! WOOHOO I was so excited, I made a scene. We bowl at this little hole in the wall, w/ 8 lanes. Most of the people that bowl there are older, like 50's -60's, when I got a spare, followed by 2 strikes, I yelled "woohooo!!" jumped up and down followed by another holler of "holy shiiiiitttt!" You could have heard a pin drop after my little scene. LOL. Except for Chicken laughing hysterically and snorting. It was fun. Can't wait to see what score the bowling fairy blesses me with next week!

So far, this week has been ok. I've been kind of depressed for no particular reason. Must be a change of season or something. I haven't wanted too see anyone, or talk to anyone. I've been just wanting to hang w/ hubs, and ignore everything else. I HAVE to get it together though. I have a billion and one things to get done. Runaway friend is coming w/ her kids tomorrow for a few days. This will be the first time I've seen her, since I discovered all there was to know about her husband. I'm excited to see her, I've missed her, and I know she could use some relaxation, and a good time. Things are still really hard for her. I will try to update before the weekend, but you never know! Till later friends....

Pissed.

I'm pissed. First of all, I really have no right to be, but that doesn't change the fact that I am. I can't get a baby sitter for shit. I called my mom the other day to see if she could watch the kids either tonight for a few hours, or tomarrow morning for a few, just so I can accomplish some things. Hard to get shit done when you have 3 little kids under your feet. And even if hubs trys to keep them occupied, they STILL find me and get into stuff. I want to get them out of the house for just a little while. So, anyway, called mom back this morning to see if she talked to my step dad, and they have plans. Ok, what are you guys doing? I don't remember what she said for tonight, but she said that tomarrow MORNING, they have a pig roast to go to. A fucking pig roast? In the am? WHATEVER! Who goes to a pig roast in the morning? Anyone? Buttholes. I'm just frustrated. Its my fucking anniversery weekend, and NOBODY can help me out. Hubs parents NEVER babysit, but of course, my m-i-l is still recovering from breast cancer, so I'm not upset about that, although even when she was healthy, they don't like to baby sit. My grandma will usually watch my kids anytime, bless her heart, but she's out of town right now, and my parents have a FUCKING pig roast. All of my friends have busy families and kids of thier own, so that doesn't really work, and I could have a niece or high school girl over (the 2 we use on occasion), but that defeats the purpose. I want them out of the house for 2 fucking hours. I'm so pissed. MAN, that sucks. Really sucks. My kids aren't little demons, why can't I find a sitter? I give up. Fuck em'.

A little pumpkin for you.

Today is MUCH better than yesterday. Kids are better, and the baby seems to be more like herself today as well. I went to bed really early last night, and woke up refreshed. My girls and I went to lunch w/ a friend today. Ave made some friends w/ the old ladies at the table next to us. She was talking away to them, and she says " I moved out of my room into a tent!". You should have seen the old ladies faces! hahaha! A few weeks ago, hubs set up a tent in the basement so he and the kids could have a camp out. Avery decided that she likes to sleep in there more than her bed, and we don't care, long as she sleeps. She didn't mention to the old gals that it was in the basement. HA! I'm sure they thought that I was the mom of the year :)

Do you ever play w/ google earth? I was messing around w/ it today, its cool! Are the pictures you see being taken as we speak, or are they from another time? I can't tell my looking the top of my house. I can't tell if the pool is open or not. We have a dark green cover, and the pool looked dark, but not like alge. Does anyone know?

So we are going away for our anniversery. We decided to go spend a night in a hotel, w/ the kids. I know we'll have a good time, but I was looking foward to some alone (ahem) time. That won't work so well w/ the kids in our hotel room! That will be a little different for an anniversery night. It doesn't seem like we've been married this long. I'm proud of where we are. We have our normal couple issues, like anyone else, but I'm ecstatic that its true that you fall more in love each year. Its different now, b/c its not that 'new' love, but its better, b/c its constant, and we are still passionate about each other.

I don't think I'll get back around to posting over the weekend, but wish me some luck. Not only w/ hubs and making some magic :), but w/ poker too. I played awful last week. Have a good weekend!

Another Day

My morning started with:
Ave " MOOOOOOMMMMM! I axci-denwy dopped your ting in da potty!"
Blue " What? What did you say?" I was across the house
Max" SHE SAID SHE DROPPED YOUR THING IN THE POTTY!"
Blue" SHHHHHH Max! I can't hear your sister! What Ave?!" Meanwhile, baby cries.
Ave" Its your ting, I sowwy, I popped on it" Brilliant. I love days that start w/ a bang. And so my day began. Ave has been more than a little difficult to deal w/ the last few days. Max has been in a foul mood, and fighting w/ Avery, and Jade, well, she was perfect, till about 2 days ago. She's getting teeth, has a terrible runny nose, decided to give up sleeping, and has cried more in the last few days than she has since she was born. I'm a bit frazzeled. Hubs and I's anniversery is this weekend, and lo and behold, we have no babysitter. P E R F E C T. One of my girlfriends is pissed at me, and my other friends husband, thinks I suck. Can it get any more fab-u-lous? I just wanted to stay in bed today w/ the covers pulled up over my head, and cry. Fuckn A. Somedays are just not so great.
Have you caught this new show called The Office? I think that's what its called. Its funny in a really retarded kind of way. Like you want to turn it off, but you can't help it. You have to keep watching. Deer in headlights type of thing.
I need to get back to my laundry, and mopping. I hope something goes better this afternoon, or I might have to start smoking crack or something similar....

Halloween

Morning! Halloween was fun. All of us dressed up, including hubs. We had a good time. Max and Avery were firemen, Jade was a pumpkin, hubs was a cowboy, and i was a ragedy housewife complete w/ curlers. I couldn't believe how warm it was last night! But it wouldn't be a michigan halloween w/o some rain. We got pretty wet. The kids had a good time running from house to house. It was fun to watch. I was disappointed that we didn't get any trick or treaters at our house. Weird. We live in a residental area, we should have had some. That's one of my favorite things, passing out candy and checking out all the costumes. I'll post some halloween pics of our family when chicken mails them to me.
Poker was fun on Friday night. I didn't make any money, but I made a few new friends, that was cool. We did a whole lot of nothing the rest of the weekend, which makes it difficult to blog. Nothing interesting to talk about.. I'll come up w/something tomarrow, maybe :) Perhaps a story from back in the day. I'll think of something.