I knew I was in a bad spot. I went to the doctor this week, hoping for some help. I've never been so lost. I've never been on any sort of medication. I see a grief counsoler, but that isn't enough to help me get through the day. My doctor prescribed xanix, and prozac. The prozac is for every day, an anti-depressent. The xanix is an as needed sorta thing. Like if I'm having a freak out, a panic attack, or I can't get to sleep. I'm hoping that it helps! I have a family to take care of, a house to clean, errands to run, a mama to love, a job to get to. I want the world to stop, but the truth is, it just doesn't. It goes on no matter how we feel about it. In order for me to get about my day, w/ all of the mundane, I need help. I know this isn't going to 'fix' me, or erase my sadness, but I'm sure hoping it'll make that first step out of bed in the morning, just a little easier.
I'm taking a nothing day tomorrow, and I can't wait! I'm staying in my pj's all day! My goal is to move as little as possible :) I'm turning off my phone, watching movies, and snuggling w/ my babes ALL DAY. AND I REFUSE, to feel guility about it. YES!!!!
About Me
- mistyblue3
- I'm a happily married mom of 3! I recently rejoined the work force after 8 years of being a SAHM. Now I'm REALLY trying to figure it out. Finding my balance w/ my family, my job, housework, school stuff, extra stuff, and maintain some sort of social life.. Nearly impossible.
3 comments:
while I can't relate to your loss, I can relate to the whole "life goes on" thing. kids don't care if ur sick, tired, or just not feeling it. They need u to be mom which is hard sometimes even on ur best day.
Hopefully you will find a med combo that will help you keep it together and still be mom. I had to get on something after 9/11 and still on it. Whatever it takes to keep from losing my shit. Sounds like a good plan for tomorrow. We all need a computer/phone free tv day of cuddles w/the kids every now and then. Enjoy!
thanks amy!
your welcome. I hope u don't mind my comments. I found your blog b/c I was going to start a mom blog with the name u have but it was taken- by you. Excellent choice in blog names :)))
I'm starting my own so I can vent my own ramblings. tThink it will help me. Hope u had a good day.
Amy
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