Another week gone by

The concert the other night was great! I've never seen so many older wasted people w/ mullets in all my life! We had a blast. Journey didn't do as well as I thought they would, but at least they sounded good. They seemed to be lacking enthusiasm. Def Leppard on the other hand, kicked some serious ass! They were terrific live, and I would see them again. They still look good in leather pants even. :) Before the concert, we went to dinner at the Black Rose. It's an irish pub next to the arena. Awesome fooooood. So good. If you are any where near Grand Rapids, go check that place out. Super delicious, and I love the atmosphere.

The rest of this week has been uneventful. I kept both of my kids home from school today. Jade doesn't seem quite right yet either. Max has had a cold all week, nothing terrible, but he's been dragging, and complaining about being tired. My kids go to bed at 7:45! Should be getting more than enough sleep. I don't get them up till 6:45. Anyway, I figured that his cold was getting to him, and that he should hang out at home today and get to sleep in. Avery is pretty much fine, but being as Max was hanging out here today, thought she could too. Basically, I'm letting her play hookey. I thought we could laze the morning away together, watch a few movies, and if they are feeling better later, possibley getting out for awhile this afternoon. Jade's weird mystery illness is still hanging on. She came down w/ another fever on Tuesday. No other symptoms, again. She is messing w/ her mouth alot, so I think its another tooth, maybe a 2 yr molar? She's constantly playing in her mouth, either w/ her tounge, or her whole hand. She hasn't eaten much at all, all week. I just wish everyone would get better.

I myself haven't been feeling all that well either. Mine is girly stuff though. I really need to get back into see my doctor about straighting my cycle out. If you're a boy, you can just tune out here. My cycle has been running every 21 days lately. For like the last 5? or more months. It doesn't last a normal length of time either. 3 days or so, then disappears, only to reapper in peek-a-boo form a week later. I'll spot for another week. I saw my doctor in the beginning of August to have my regular check up and talk about this issue. He thought that it was related to my weight loss, and that it should straighten itself out in a few months. This is my 3rd or 4th cycle since then- still NOT normal. I'm suppose to call him if it didn't work. Then he wants to do an ultra sound to make sure I don't have any cysts (sp?) or any other issue. If all is well, then he would put me on some sort of birth control to regulate. I've had this problem before. I think its why I had such a hard time concieving my third baby. Maybe this not normal issue, is just what's normal for me, although it doesn't seem right. I'm done having babies now, I should just get the shit ripped out. Either way, its not fun. Well kids, my coffee cup is empty, and I can hear my troops getting rowdy upstairs. Y'all have a nice day.

hello

Ick. I just finished cleaning the bathroom and inhaled too much bleach. I'm feeling a little gross now. So much has happened this week. It's been busy, as ususal. Even though much has gone on this week, most of it isn't blog worthy. A bunch of nonsense I'm sure no one is interested in reading.
Jade woke up w/ a fever this morning. I'm tired of this. I have no idea what's wrong w/ her. No cold symptoms, any obvious issues. Teeth maybe? Who knows. I wish my kids would get healthy and stay that way! I had my moms group yesterday morning, which I was looking forward to. Wouldn't you know it, that as soon as I showed up, I got a call from Max's school, saying he wasn't feeling well. I had to leave before the meeting even began, and when I picked him up from school, the little turd was faking it. Not sick. Today I had a babysitter planned for the girls, so I could go to a going away/surprise baby shower for a few girls at work. Also looking forward to that, but now, can't go. How come when I have plans, I get a sick kid??? Tonight is the concert, but I'm still going to that. My grandma is going to come here and sit w/ the kids, so I feel ok about going. It just sucks. We haven't even had a fall here in MI. It pretty much went from hot-as-hell, to winter, w/ no transition. MI winters are the worst. It gets dark super early, tons of snow, freezing temps, and lasts f o r e v e r. Very depressing time of year. Kids get sick, we stay cooped up, and I can't seem to come up w/ enough ideas to keep them occupied.

Enough bitching :) Hubs and I are doing great. Things are back to where they should be, and seem more solid than ever. I suppose that's why we have rough patches, they bring us closer when we get through them. We're fortunate to not have many rough patches. I wonder if you ever completely figure it out, or if being happily married is constantly a work in progress? I'd bet it is.

I had a weird dream about my high school reunion the other night. I showed up to it in sweat pants, a holy tee-shirt, and heeled boots! Ah! The horror of it. Except in my dream, I wasn't at all alarmed by my apperance, not at least until after I got there and looked around. Noticed that every0ne else was dressed up. It was not a good dream! Of course, that would never happen, but good grief. This whole reunion seems to be making me nervous. That's so silly. I've never been one to be nervous, or to be worried what others think of me. Seems to be changing as I get older. Why does that happen? Just part of being a grown up, or am I turning into a prudish old lady??? Heaven save me. :)

Speaking of Heaven, I used to have this OB, w/ my first two pregnancy's. He was the best doctor ever, or at least I thougt so at the time. He knew all about me, my family, hubs. He would always ask about them, always remembering details. He was a christian, and made it known. He was always praying w/ his patients and their family's, preaching the good news all the time. He also told me that he choose to work at this particular hospital, b/c it was the only hospital in our city that did not proform abortions, and that was something he felt very strongly about. I never asked him his opinion of these issues, he just freely gave it whenever he could slid it in to conversation. I'm not pro-choice, so I was thrilled to hear a doctor talk about it. Anyway, I did this thing called a Life Walk. It's a family friendly, peaceful protest. Basically you just walk through the city w/ your family, and stop to pray at specific sites. Anyway, you raise money for one of the pregnancy resource places. They offer pregnancy testing, ultrasounds for abortion minded women, adoption resources, and cribs, clothing, any sort of baby needs at all to make it easier for moms to keep thier babies. So when I signed up that particular year, I called my doctor to see if he would like to donate. SURE! he said. And he gave me a HUGE donation. After my second baby was born, some things seemed kind of off at his office, so I choose to find a new doctor. I was playing on the internet yesterday, and I came across an article about him. He has SEVERAL abortion clinics open all over the flippn' state. He's been protestor's fav target for years. WTF??? How can you walk around spouting off your 'faith' speaking your strong opinions about abortion, all the while, being a monster yourself? I was sooooooooooooo upset yesterday. You know, if that was his thing, fine. I don't agree, but fine. Don't walk around talking about what an abomination abortion is then! Lies. I can't believe it. This was not just a doctor to me. He was someone I cared about, TRUSTED, and respected, more of a friend or long lost realitive sort of thing. I almost couldn't believe it. I called his office and asked the receptionist if they did abortions at that office, she said no, so I asked her if she could refer me to someone who did. She then went on to say, that the doctor there would do one for me about an hour away from here. I now know the meaning of a wolf in sheep's clothing. I've never been so throughly decieved in my life. There is nothing that can be done about it. I could write a letter, but what's the point. I could protest, but how about no. I just can't believe it's ok to lie to people like that. And lie for no reason. No one is asking him his opinions on it, he just talks about it. I imagine it would hurt his business here in the bible belt if that little tid bit got out. This part of West MI is extremely conservitive. Christians like that make me want to change my religion.

No Gloves??

Baby J had her 18 month check up yesterday. She's doing great! Her ear infections have completely healed up now. She's in the 30% for her weight (23.8 pds), 40% for hieght, and 48% for her head. She's such a penut. I can't remember the proper term for it, but she was born w/ her inner-labia fused together, so she doesn't have a vaginal opening. It doesn't go all the way up, b/c she can go potty w/o any trouble. Anyway, the doc said that when she started walking, it would come undone. When she was not walking yet, every time I changed her, I'd have to spread it a little bit, to try and help loosen it up. Since she's been walking, I haven't done it. The doctor checked it yesterday, and it's still grown together, it looks like its grown together a bit further, so I have to do the spread thing. Poor baby, nothing like being violated. Ick. Anyway, what was most distrubing about that, is when the doc checked her hootie, he didn't have gloves on! eewwwww. Is that normal? Do other peds wear gloves when they check out kids' business's? Anyone? I can't imagine going to my gyno and having him take a peek in my stuff w/o the gloves on. Gross. For some reason the gloves give me a not-so-intimate feeling. Not that it's great either way, but shoot, the gloves seem to me to be a barrier of sorts, for several different reasons. And Chicken also asked, in case you were thinking the same thing, yes, he washed his hands when he entered the room, and again before he left it. What does your ped. do when they check your kids stuff??

Hubs and I were talking about my upcoming reunion. He can't go with me! booooo! I'm a bit disappointed by that. He'll be deer hunting. I must admit, it bothers me that he won't come home early to go with me. I suppose I kind of understand. He only hunts once a year, but reunions don't happen all that often. I'm not looking forward to being the single one, and giving excuses as to why he isn't with me. Bah. Oh well.

I went out last night, and ran into an old friend. MAN, he looks awful. He has a serious drug problem, and its very evident. How sad. 10 years ago, he was outgoing, attractive (hot actually), hard working, and fun to be around. Now he's introverted, jobless, and an all around loser. He's stick thin, w/ sunken in cheecks, scragly hair, and I don't think he's bathed in at least a month by the looks of him. He has sores on his face. I believe that herione, cocain and meth are his drugs of choice. That's really terrible. Why waste your life? There are so many things to see, and to do, oppurtunitys to make a difference. Why do that to yourself. We are only here such a short time as it is, why hurry it along, distroying your mind and body in the process. Self distruction makes me sick, and very sad. Unfortunately, when someone is that far gone, it doesn't seem that there is anything that you could say, or do to help them. He'd rather be lost in his self-pity, drugs and depression. Bad.

Seems like I had more to say, but I can't remember what it was. Ave was picked up by her papa (grandpa) for the afternoon (yay!), so I believe I'll read a book, and then hurry to clean up the house before hubs gets home, so it looks like I actually did something today. Muhahaha! I'm such a clever girl. Oh, I need a vote. I can't figure out what to make for dinner tonight. Pork chops w/ veggies, or chili???

Morning

Last night I snuck out w/ my girlfriend to go see a movie. It was so nice! We didn't go until after 10, so our kids would be sleeping. Both of our hubs had to work early this morning. We saw Man of the World, w/ Robin Williams. It was funny. I can't remember the last time I saw a movie. Too long ago.

The sun is out today. Seems like a first all week. Max has a soccer game today. The last 2 were cancelled due to rain. Hubs is working today though, which makes going to the game rough for me. It hard to pay attention to what M is doing, all the while trying to keep J in my sights. She's so busy, and can't stand to hold still. Where he plays soccer, its like a huge football field, only they've seperated it into a million mini-soccer fields. There's only about 10ft in between games, which means she can't go far w/o walking into another game. Last time I brought them by myself, she ran into the next field and got her head stuck in the goal net. Play had to stop so I could untangle my little darlings head. Ugh. When hubs goes, one of us can stay on top of J, and the other can play complete attention to what Max is doing. Makes it a heck of a lot easier. I really should bring him, but at the same time, I really don't want to deal w/ wet babies and heads in nets. The field has pretty much been a giant puddle for the last 2-3 weeks. So not fun

Guess what?? Hubs and I got tickets to go see Def Leppard and Journey! woohooo! Y'all jelous now, aren't you?? yep, that's right bitches, I'm going to rock out w/ all the other 80's dirt heads, and I can't wait. Friggn' Journey! woot woot! Who doesn't love Journey? Even if you say you don't, I'm sure you can sing all the words to most of thier top hits, and prlly do so, in the privacy of your car at top volume :) I'm gonna! Def Leppard was a favorite of mine as well. I'm so excited! Chicken is completely jelous. She insists I must buy her an old school Def Leppard concert tee. Maybe I can find one for the baby too. Its going to be a good time. They'll be here in Grand Rapids, at the VanAndle Arena Oct. 24. Sweeeeet.

No plans for the rest of the weekend. I'm going to do laundry all night tonight, and read a book. Laze around in giant sweats, and a holy tee-shirt. MMMMMMMM. Nice. I got the invite for my high school reunion. That's sometime next month- I'm looking forward to that too. It'll be interesting to see who ended up where. I don't keep in touch w/ most of my classmates. I run into one occasionally, but that's all really. I still have my 3 good gf's from school, that I talk to regularly. I'm so thankful for that, I'm glad we have. The class I graduated with was small. I think we only had 100 or so, and most of us were together from elementary on up. High School was so much fun. I had an all out riot every single day. I would do it over again in a heart beat. I wasn't the best student, but I'm pretty sure Chicken and I had the most fun ever. We were constantly in the vice principles office our junior year. For some reason, our first hour teacher thought we were bad news, that we did drugs(right), and perhaps drank underage(right again), and we were late every single morning. At least 3 times a week that year, when we'd get to second hour, the v.p. would call down to the class and have us sent to the office. Chicken generally beat me there, I'd wink at her, and take my seat, wait the for the lecture to begin. Same one every day. "I wasn't born yesterday girls. Don't think that I don't know what your up to. Keep on this path and it will lead you no where. You can be whatever you want in life, just put your mind to it. Your better than that, blah blah blah- generally followed by I'll catch you at some point, believe me i will" See, they never had any proof, so instead of getting detension, or saturday detension, we'd get lectures. It was great fun. We also spent alot of time fueling the rumor mill, just for fun. We start rumors about ourselves just to see how far they went, and how they changed. Never confirming or denying them, letting people believe what they will. Cracked us up. Anyway, it was good times all around. Wow, I got sidetracked w/ a long winded nonsense story. Enjoy your weekend!

Let it Snow!

We have our first snow here in MI. Just a dusting, but enough to have my kids nearly peeing thier pants w/ excitement! Yep, it's flippn cold- time to kick on the ol' furnance. I think its currently 33F this morning, w/ a high of 40 for the day. burrrrrrr. When I was little, it seemed like we always had a foot of snow for Halloween. We had to buy costumes that we could where over our winter stuff. Since I've had kids though, Halloween has been really mild, but usually raining. Weird how the weather changes. My kids were asking for chirstmas music when we got in the car to go to school today. My goodness- a bit early for that!

Yesterday I tore apart Ave's room. It was a giant mess. I don't know how she does it, but that girl is MESSY. I pulled everything out of her room to start w/ a blank canvas. It's beautiful now! I rearranged all of her furniture, seperated all her clothes (packed away too small and summer stuff), and made sure her toys found thier way back to the toy room. My bet is 2 weeks at the most before its back to disaster city. My mission is to do the same w/ M and J's room today.

I don't have much to post about, so I was going to give you a random list of mistyness. I've continued w/ my maitnance phase of my diet, and that's still going really well. The size 8's i've been wearing are becoming baggy- finally getting into some 6's. SWEET. Some of my must have daily eats- apples w/ reduced fat penut butter, string cheese, and salad. I eat those 3 things daily, pretty much anytime I'm hungry, I snack on those. I've upped my water intake from 2 liters to 3 as well. I still can't believe how much my body has changed, i'm really loving it. Here's a random nonsense kind-of-gross statement: I cannot for any reason at all, pee in the dark. It completely freaks me out. I have this outrageous fear that there's going to be a snake in there, or some other sort of critter, that's going to try to bite me. Since I drink so much water, you can imagine how often I get up at night. I'm trying to get over this silly nonsense, but I can't. I can't even go w/o the light off- I'm too nervous and tense. So there. Now you have it. I know you'll all sleep much better tonight knowing that little juicy tidbit about my bathroom habbits- feels good, doesn't it :)

What a weekend. J got really really sick :( She had a fever of 103.5 for 48 hours straight. Not even medicine would bring it down. And then, her mouth started bleeding! Completely freaked me out. Hubs brought her to the doctor to find out that she had a double ear infection, and something in her mouth similar to thrush, but not thrush- not sure what it is, but whatever it was became irritated and started bleeding. Yikes! That was a new one. My older kids never had an ear infection or that weird mouth thing. She's doing much better now. She still isn't eating much, but other than that, she's happy. My poor girl didn't even crack a smile for 2 days. Very unlike her.

I met up w/ my friend Harold on Friday. It was very uninteresting. I was disappointed. I was so excited and anxious to see him, and he was having a bad day- He wasn't all there. He didn't have much to say. I'm sorry I went out of my way to get together w/ him. Another friend of his came by too. I also knew this guy from back in the day, we used to hang out. I haven't seen him in at least 2 years- I was a bit surprised to say the least. Back in the day, he was funny, attractive, and pretty much an all out riot to hang out with. When he showed up, I didn't even recgonize him. He was 3x bigger than he used to be, and completely depressed. Lucky me got to sit in between non chatty Harold, and mr. sucidal tendencies. Crap! I was trying to engage Mr. S.T in conversation, you know the normal "how've you been? What have you been doing? Anything new? Where are you working now? Do you like it there?" And his responses were" yeah, i'm livin', just another day, i work here, and no i hate it. Makes me want to kill myself. Oh, I quit smoking- that's the only good thing I've done in the last 2 years. I hate this place. I hate people and crowds now too." and so on. Geesh. It was a lame evening. Very anti-climatic. Booooo.

Hubs is mad at me at the moment. Ugh. Seems misguided to me. He's in a funk. I hope that works itself out. I don't like this-

Lots of Things

Morning!

My girls are sick :( J has had a cold since last weekend, and its just gotten worse. She has an awful hackey cough and a runny nose. Avery woke up w/ a fever yesterday, complaining that her head and throat hurt. The fever carried threw to this morning, and now J has a fever too >( Poor babies. It's that time of year again.

My ghetto neighboor kids came knocking on my door at 730 yesterday morning- they missed the bus and needed a ride. Where in the hell are thier parents? I know that they work 3rd shift, does that mean that they leave them home all night long, alone? The oldest kid is 13, the other 3 are 11 and 12. That doesn't seem old enough to me. I don't like that. So I brought them to school. This morning, here they come knocking again. For crying out loud! I gave them a ride AGAIN today, but told them if it happens again, they'll be walking. It isn't my responsibility to make sure you get to school. Call your damn parents! I suppose they would, IF they had a phone. That just isn't right. When I drove them yesterday, they smelled. Weather it was them- or their clothes, I'm not sure. That proves that they need direction in the morning. I would NOT let my kids go to school dirty, or in dirty clothes. You know how mean other kids can be. I feel bad for my neighboor kids, thier parents need to be around for them. What should I do about it? Should I talk to thier parents?? AND, how do I talk to them about it w/o being a jerk? I just really think they should be home at night, and there when the kids get ready for school, and they should have a phone in case of emergency. Yes, they can use mine, and have many times, but I think it would be good for them to have thier own. I think they only do cell phones over there, isn't it inexpensive to add another line and leave it home? I don't mind helping them out on occasion, but I will not be doing it weekly- not my job. Shit happens sometimes, but twice a week- nope. That's just irresponsible. Maybe they can get a babysitter or relative to stay there at night and make sure everyone gets off to school ok, w/ proper hygene.

My friend Harold is home from China! He flew in last night, and I can't wait to see him! He's lived over there for the last 2 years. He's been home to visit 3 times or so, but he visits are generally short, and very full. He is here for good! Woot woot! I'm very much looking forward to seeing him. On his last visit, he didn't even get to see the kids or hubs. Come to think of it, I don't think he's ever seen the baby- I was able to see him last summer, but it was for no more than an hour or so. He spent the last month traveling all over different parts of china, I can't wait to hear all about it. We've been friends for 12 years, dated at the begining for quite awhile, that ended well and we stayed friends. When we got older, we were roomates for 2 years, up until I got married. He moved to California after I was married, and from there, off to China. We've kept in touch all this time. I'm glad he's home.

Seems like there was something else... Can't remember at the moment. It's time to go get some laundry done and check on the girls anyway. I think its going to be an early nap day. I could use on myself :) Have a good day!

Hello Blogland.

I'm alive- just haven't made time to update. It's been an interesting few weeks. Hubs and I were having some problems. Anytime things are off between us, I have a really hard time. I didn't want to blog about our issues, and I was very upset about them, so anyway. We went to see a marriage counselor. That was the very first time we've ever seen one. We've been married nearly 7 years (our ann is in a few weeks), and up until recently, it's been a smooth ride. We get along well, we're great friends, our sex life is freaking fantastic. We've had occasional bumbs, as we all do, but they are usually resloved very quickly. This time, we just couldn't work it out. I wasn't willing to back down, and neither was he. We were at a stand still. It was awful. I hate feeling that way! The gal we saw was really great, and made us comfortable. She gave us some really great suggestions, and some stuff we have to do weekly for each other. She fixed it :D yay! I'm very happy to report that things are all good once again. Hubs and I are back on track, and I think closer than we were before. He's so great, and I'm so fortunate to have him. I would be completely lost without him. I'm very much in love w/ my man.
Other than that, not much happening. Kids are good. Dog still sucks. My handsome little Lex is doing great. Speaking of Lex, CHICKEN has made it back to the world of blogging!! Go and check her out, she's got some awesome pictures up.

later bitches :)