The fog is lifting, or it least it seems to be. I'm still lacking in motivation, but my feelings are coming around. I don't feel so overwhelmed now. The animals have been better behaved, and the kids have been doing well too. I started taking an anti-depressiant. Usually the week before my period, I have a hard time w/ feeling insecure, paranoid, irritated, and overwhelmed, but after 5 days or so, I'm back to normal. I've talked to my doctor about b/c it was starting to worry me. I think really weird shit that week. It was freaking me out. My doctor didn't want to put me on anything at that time, b/c I'd have to take a pill everyday, for it to be able to help me for 5, and as long as I could keep it in check for those 5 days, shouldn't worry about it. It's been a month now that I've been feeling all weird. I thought that it was time to try something. I don't know if it's the medication that's making me feel better, or if it's just me feeling better. I haven't been taking it very long, and I've heard it can take up to a few weeks to make any changes. I'll let you know. It seems kind of odd to be taking medication. I'm anti meds in general. But, I couldn't pull out of it on my own, and maybe this can help. Life is much too precious to spend it grumpy or pissed about things that do not matter. I'll let you know what happens.
This is the week where I'm suppose to reach my weight loss goal. Booooooo. I'm not there yet. I have a pound and 1/2 to go. I'm going to try a boost thing to see if that will do it. I'm really looking forward to making it to my goal! I'm one of those people who rarely finishes what she starts. The weight no longer matters, i'm not stressed about the 1 1/2 pds, but I want to do what I said I could. Just for me. I'm pleased w/ the outcome. 42 1/2 pds in 4 months, dropping nearly 30 inches, cutting my clothing size in 1/2, and not being grossed out when I look in the mirror anymore. It's a good feeling!
It is hotter than blazes up here right now! With the heat index, it is going to get to 110 today. Ick. We've had heat advisory's for the last few days. The humidity is awful. When you first go outside, it seems like you can't breathe, b/c the air is so heavy and thick. Max has soccer camp all of this week, but I'm not sending him today, too hot! We'll spend the afternoon in the pool :) The laundry will wait for me tonight. Have a good day all!