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I'm at work...again.. Seems like i've been here alot lately. It's hard getting used to it. I've basically been out of the work force for nearly 8 years. I like working, but I'm missing being at home today. I want to get caught up on stuff, and play w/ my babies :) The weekend has been boring for the most part. I was going to go play cards on Friday night, but it didn't pan out. Hubs decided to try and fix the van. It wasn't as easy as he thought it would be, and we ended up not being able to use the car at all friday night, so at home I sat. I stayed up late to watch "the blue lagoon". Do you remember that movie? I LOVED that movie when I was younger, but I haven't watched it in 20 years or so. I was all excited to see it, and geez, that movie is cheesy! hehe. Funny how your perspective on things change as you get older. I did end up going to play poker on saturday, but it sucked. Not a winner. It was nice to be out and about though. I fell asleep early last night, but I kept waking up! Each time I woke up, it was one of those spasm-jerky wake ups. You know, where your arms and legs shoot out all tensed up? I must have been having creepy dreams or something. Today we went to church, came home and made lunch, then came to work. Pretty not-exciting. Kids go back to school tomorrow. I'm a bit sad about it. I'm not ready for them to go back. I'm not ready to get back to the waking up early thing, and homework fight each night. Ugh, and cub scouts. boo! It just wasn't long enough.. How many weeks until spring break?? Too many, I'm sure. I'm not looking forward to this week...

Skeleton in my closet..

When I was younger, I was sort of wild... I did lots of things I shouldn't have. Parties, drinks, drugs, rock n roll, and of course, sex. I've had an interesting life thus far. I wish I wouldn't have made some of the choices I did, but on the other hand, at least I'll never die thinking "man, I wish I would have". At this place in my life, I'm embarrassed of my history. It's not something you gab about w/ other mom's on playdates you know. My long time friends and hubs are aware of all the places I've been, before I became mom. It's not a secret, it's just there. Sitting in the dark, in the back of the closet. I met up w/ a gf last night for a few drinks and some karaoke :) If you're wondering, I sang Otis Redding, and Ella Fitzgerald :) Anyway, there's this dude across the bar, and he looks familiar.. I couldn't place it though, but there was that "feeling". You know, the one that makes you want to duck and hide your face, 'just in case'. Okay, I suppose that doesn't happen to everyone, but you get what I mean. As soon as I heard his name, I remembered. Clearly. EWwwwwwwwwww! I completely had a super steamy one night stand w/ that guy, 12 years ago! AH! Gross! Yeah, that sucked. He had no idea who I was, nor was I going to go out of my way to make my presence known. That creeps me out! I don't like being faced w/ the skeletons in my closet! Boooo. I would be perfectly content if those dirty little secrets stayed put, never again to jump out at me like that, completely unexpected like. The rest of the night was pretty uneventful, but a good time all around. Oh, my van's acting up! The heat isn't working right, and it keeps getting into the hot zone on the overheating gage thingy.. Whatever it is, I just hope it isn't expensive. Hubs is going to bring it in sat to get it checked out. Until then, I'm homebound. woo! I'm glad to be home bound for a bit. Enough of this running around shit!

Work, again. ugh.

I'm back at work today. As if my 12 1/2 hours wasn't enough yesterday. gag. I'm still s l e e p y. At least I can read in peace here, w/o kids jumping all over me. I was hoping today I could hang out at home all day, and catch up on laundry and cleaning.. Not so much. My kids were going a bit stir crazy. I'm feeling a bit guilty for not spending too much time w/ them lately. So I took them out for lunch today, and to the mall. I didn't bring J's stroller today. First time ever going to the mall w/o a stroller. eekksss! She stayed by me, she didn't run off or anything. She just walked so effing s l o w! I think that makes me just as crazy as if she were to run all over the place. Man! I've got things to do! Who has time to just putt... along...... like.......a......snail....when......there....are.....places.....to....go...and.....people......to.....s..e...e........ bleak! boo! hehe. It's ok. I made it through. And I only turned red a little bit :) Enjoy your day all!

Where's my Trophy??

Where’s my trophy??

I'm cool. Like super cool. Guess what happened this fantastic morning??????? I fell asleep on the couch last night, and never made it to bed. My hubs didn't think to wake me up this morning when he left for work either, which means, I OVERSLEPT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! AHH!! I woke up to Avery yelling out the window "no, were not going to school yet. My mom forgot to wake up" Effing perfect! EEEEEKKKKKKKKKKKSSSSSSSSSS! oops. shit. She was yelling that to the carpool lady, the mom that's perfect. You know, always together, always has make-up on, and I bet she never raises her voice, or has a messy house. boo. oops. I suck. So really, where's my mom of the year trophy???? I can't figure out where the sonofabitch is..... :)

Happy Birthday my Avery.

Happy Birthday my Avery :)


awww. My girl turned 6 today... I'm always a little sad when one of my kids turns another year older :( She's just that much closer to not needing me anymore. sigh...

Dear Avery,

Happy Birthday to my precious baby. I'm so proud of you, and all you've accomplished in your 6 years. You're such a kind, caring, helpful, funny, beautiful and considerate girl. I love how you LOVE to help me. Folding laundry, unloading the dishwasher, looking after Jade. I love how you're learning to read! You're soooo smart! You've enriched and blessed mommy and daddy's lives. You're an important part of our family. I love to watch you sleep. I love to watch you color. Your imagination is limitless, and I pray your life will be also. I thank God for you daily, and I pray that you will follow his path, all the days of your life. I love you w/ all of me. Happy Birthday tootie :)



Love,

Mommy

Sad Mama

sad mama

SO...... I dropped Max and Avery off at school this morning... I was ok w/ dropping off Max, you know, big second grader and all, but my little Avery.... booo hooooo hoooooo! Kindergarten! Oh my! This morning, I thought I'd be ok, I'm tough. Sort of sick of them fighting, school will be GREAT for them. I get there, drop Max off to his teacher w/ a kiss, and a have a great day! Oh, and mind your manners. Get Avery to her little line.. The kindergartener's line up outside w/ their teacher, and wait together until the whole class arrives. Then they file in, with their shiny new shoes and backpacks. Cute little buggers. My plan was to hang out until their line went in. I couldn't do it. I started to get all emotional, and tears started to form. I had to quick give her a hug and a kiss, and get out of there before I really started to bawl! She could see that I was starting to cry, and looked alarmed. I didn't want to upset her, or freak her out. I told her I was fine, very proud of her, love you, be good, and have a really great day! Then I had to run. I didn't get more than a few steps away before the tears really came. I was crying my face off! And wouldn't you know I ran into at least 10 folks I knew on the way out. Good Grief. I'm such a softie. I can't believe she's 5, and in kindergarten! It went tooooooo fast! Where'd my baby go?? I'm so sad this morning :( I'm excited for her, but MAN, it's tough to let her go. Big new school.... New teacher. Oh dear. I wonder how awful I'll feel when my youngest gets there?? I had a hard time when Max went too. She'll be fine, I know. It's going to be great, I know. She's going to make new friends, and learn to read and write, I know. But the mother's heart in me broke a bit more this morning.

Penetrate...

Penetrate...

Yep, that's right. That's what that says. Penetrate. So, last week, I'm sitting on the computer checking my email, and my kids are down here with me, watching shark week. You know, on the discovery channel?? They're really into that right now, planet earth, man vs. wild, they love it. So, I'm not really paying any attention, and all of a sudden, Max, my 7yr old, says "hey mom, what's penetrate mean?" I did one of those cough/choke/giggle things. Nervous giggle problem here. Anyway, trying not to give in to the panic I feel starting to swell, "Um, uh, well, how was the word used Max?" He says " one shark is pene-trating the other one" I glanced at the tv, and sure enough, the sharks are humping. Oh crap. I started to sweat. He's 7! What do I say! WHAT DO I SAY?!! I ran away. Stepped out to have a smoke. Broke out in hives. Giggled some more. Cripe! Called a girl friend for advice... My rule is that I always answer them honestly, as best as I can, at thier level... I don't lie. I try not to be shy about using proper terms, but geez! This is hard sometimes! I thought that maybe if I didn't answer him, he'd just forget. But then, it could and prlly would come out at a completely inappropriate time, like a family get together, a friends bday party, church... Better just to handle it. I'm so retarded folks. I hope I don't scar them for life. So, I came back downstairs, and brought it back up to Max, "uh, that word penetrate, it ummm.. well.. it's kind of weird. sort of like.. uh, planting a flower.... there's a boy shark, and a girl shark, and uh, the girl shark, has the flower, or the seed, let's say, and the boy shark, he has the water... so, he has to get together w/the girl shark, and water the flower, so that's what penetrate means, or what the sharks are doing." And he stares at me like I'm a flipping idiot. He just says "um.. ok mom, yeah, I get it, kind of" and I ran away again. I could have just given him the websters definition "to enter" but then he'd prlly ask what in the world one shark would enter another with and why, and it would have come out anyway..... ugh. terrible. The hives eventually subsided, but I still get the shivers when I think about it. Creeps me out. I don't like this getting older business... Silly little guy...

Gardening

Gardening
Current mood: aggravated

I am NOT a talented gardner. As a matter of fact, it is one of my least favorite activites. I like to plant flowers, but the rest of it, forget it. BUT, it's that time of year... yard clean up and what not. Time to bust out the weed whacker, mower, clipers, and pull the effing weeds. I've been working on that this week. Today I decided to start the little landscaped area in the back yard. We planted these bushes a few years ago- I have no idea what they're called. Anyway, this one bush has gotten completely out of control. Over grown, and weeds were growing up in the middle of the thing. I thought I should cut it back some so I could clean out the under growth, and get better acess to the the weeds... .EFFING BUSH. This bush has to be from the devil. Looks pretty but the stupid thing is COVERED w/ razor sharp thorns. Little ones, that you can't really see. Not just on the little braches and leaves, but ALL OVER. Gardening gloves are shit. Those things didn't protect my hands at all. Millions of finger pokes. Everywhere. Hurt like hell. I can't remember the last time I swore so much. And the thorns are tough- they don't break off. GRRRR. So, instead of just trimming the bush back, I cut the effer down. Oops. Little carried away in my pain and gumpy-ness. I'm betting the stupid-effing-devil-bush will regenerate overnight just to piss me off some more.

Funny!

Funny!
Current mood: amused

I was out shopping w/ my kids today. Max had to use the bathroom. I decided to let him go into the men's restroom, alone this time. No, not that I go in w/ him, but usually, we go to the family restroom, or he goes w/ hubs. He's too embarressed to go into the women's bathroom w/ me now. Anyway, so I'm waiting for him next to the door. He comes half way out, and says "hey mom? Can I have 3 quaters?" "Um, why do you need money max?" He continues "there's this machine in here, that sells stickers, and I want one." My wheels begin to turn. hmmmm. "uh, max? what does the machine say?" he says "its a con-da-min center. They look like stickers" OH MY GOODNESS!! It took all I had not to burst out into giggles. My SON wanted to buy condoms! hahahaha! He thought they were stickers! hahahahhahahahhahaha. Yep, I nearly died. You'd be proud though. I didn't let one little chuckle escape in his presence :) I told him we had stickers at home, we didn't really need any of 'those' kind of stickers. Te he he he he. Kids crack me up!

Hmmmmmm

Hmmmm
Current mood: shocked


My 5 yr old was being very sweet. She was asking me if I was sad when she started to not be a baby anymore. Of course I was, but you're a really fantastic big kid too, I tell her. Then she puts her hands on either side of my face, kind of snuggles up to me, and says "mama, I really love you, and it makes me very sad that you're going to be sooooooo old soon. It's too bad mom."

Wtf? ouch. My little girl thinks that I'm about to hit the old lady phaze. Like I've already got one foot in a nursing home or some such nonsense. boooo. I AM NOT that old.

Kids for sale!

Kids for Sale!!!

That's right friends, kids for sale indeed. Actually, how about FREE to a good home! 3 beautiful children, ages ranging from 1 1/2 to nearly 7. Don't let those adorable faces fool you though. 2 are potty trained, and all 3 come equipped w/ cute phrases such as "NO NO NO NO!", "I WANT A NEW MOMMY" and "I'M TELLING ON YOU!" All furniture, clothing, toys, and any other kid crap that is currently cluttering up my house is included! What a deal.... You know you want to.

UGH. Dammit. Ok, so I can't sell them or give them away. Let me tell you though, those little bastards are KILLING me today.

I may have to resort to drinking ;)

Happy New Year!

Happy Happy New Year friends!! We had a good time last night. We went to dinner w/ friends (Logan's, mmmmmm), and headed over to another friend's house for a laid-back get together. It was nice. I couldn't drink last night, being that I had to be to work bright and early this morning, for a flipping 12 hour shift! whoa! I'll be here for-eva! So that's new... I've started working again. I'm working part time for the fabulous hotel now. It's weird going from 8 years of once or twice a month, to 20 hours a week. I like it. I'm really happy to be contributing to the family income again! My family is GREAT. Like really GREAT! Hubs and I had our 8 year anniversery a few months ago (OMG!), and our kids are fantastic. The baby is now 2 1/2, potty trained, AND in a big girl bed. Awww. The bed is a bit tricky... She just realized this week that she can get in and out of it. boo. Nap time is pretty much non-exsistent this week. boo again. GOSH! I'm just not ready to let her give up her naps. Not yet. Please. I need them. My son is now in second grade, and doing fabulous. He can read like what! Ave is now in kindergarten, aww. She's learning to read!!!!!!!!!!!! She's not getting it as easliy as Max did, but she's coming along. I've been blogging else where. Eeks! hehe. So, I'm going to transfer my other blog on to this one, lots of catching up to do :) I was going to do some sort of recap of 2007, but I honestly can't recall what in the H happened this year, or where time went. The whole year was a blur! We were WAY busy, and continue to be so. I'm really looking forward to taking a break. Like soon. I'm going to veg out in my fat pants and lay on the couch all weekend. mmmmmmmmmmmm... sounds delightful!