Jerk

My mom is a jerk. I'm so pissed at her. Most days, I can't live w/o her, and others, such as today, I want to kick her.

I have my niece today. Her mom is in the hospital b/c she just had a baby. K(my niece) was desperate to go see her mommy, and her new sister. I had mentioned to my mom that I was going to take my 3 kids, and K up to the hospital to see RB (K's mom) and the new baby.My mom went on about how that's so much work w/ all of them, why not drop your kids off here? My step-dad would be more than happy to hang out w/ the kids while K and I went. I didn't take her up on it yesterday, so I called tonight. Talked to s.d. he said he'd check w/ mom and get back to me. 45 min go by, and she finally calls. She says ' what's up?' I asked if she got my message. Which was " I could really use your help tonight. Could you watch my kids for an hour while I take K to see RB, or could you take K to see RB?" She says " yeah, I got it. I told S.D. that I didn't feel like it." ummm. Oh. Uhhh. Don't. Feel. Like. It. This is a little different. Generally when a favor is asked, if you can't for some reason, or you're sick, ok. But- you don't fucking feel like it? Then I continue on about how K really wants to see RB, and how it would be very helpful if she could watch my kids for an hour. And she continues with "Its not MY responsibility. Why would you bring her up there tonight?! That baby is not our family. Doesn't RB have friends, or what about her bf's family, can't they pick up K?" She irritates me to NO end. My bro has had K for the last few days, he had something going on tonight, my hubs is gone, K is very sad and wanting to see her mom. I am not doing RB a favor by bringing K up. I'm taking care of K's needs. I don't enjoy RB that much, but K is my family, and RB is her mom. I don't decide what I will or will not do based on my feelings about RB. My mom continued on some other rant, but basically, b/c RB's new baby is not one of ours, so to speak, there is no reason we should be going up to the hospital. Not even for K. When I asked her that directly, she said "THAT'S NOT WHAT I SAID." and went on some more. So I changed my view point. "Ok mom. I'm not asking you to do RB a favor, its for me. It would make my life much easier if you agreed to watch my kids for an hour." and she again said "NO! I DON"T FEEL LIKE IT" ok, bye mom. WHY would she offer this and then take it back? WTF is wrong w/my mom. I stewed on this a bit longer. Now I no longer wanted her help, but I wanted her to know that it pissed me off, and I thought she was being shitty. I really do know better. You never call Mick back when she's in the midst of a rage. I called. All I was able to get out was "mom, I just want you to know that I'm really upset, and I" and she goes "WHY IN THE HELL ARE YOU PUTTING THIS CRAP ON ME? I DON'T NEED TO FEEL GUILTY. I DO PLENTY. BLAHBLAHBLAHBLAHBLAH and then " PARDON ME, I HAVE TO WORK FOR A LIVING" What in the hell is that? Was she taking a jab at me being a SAHM? That really put me over the edge. But I was never able to say so b/c she didn't take a breath as she moved on to some other nonsense. I didn't even know what she was talking about anymore. Some completely unrelated bullshit. I ended the conversation in tears, and hung up on her. She can be such a bitch sometimes. I was not rude to her, or disrespectful, though I wanted to be. I don't ask her for favors often. Hardly ever. The last time I asked her, was on my anniversary, and she didn't do it. She watches my kids once every 2 weeks for 2 1/2 hrs while we bowl. And not b/c I asked her to, she offered, and she bitches about it every time. I need to find a new bowling sitter, b/c Heaven forbid that I take her graciousness for granted. I will never again ask her for help w/ anything, EVER, even if she was the only other person on the planet. I'm done.

Pretty City

I love this section of downtown. The pictures are kind of crappy. I was driving, and my car windows need to be washed. The building w/ the pillars around it used to be some sort of 5 star fantastic hotel way back in the day. The ceiling in the lobby is awesome. It's covered w/ cherub angels and other pretty things. I've never seen anything like it. Marilyn Monroe stayed there at one time. Now its a low income housing complex. The rooms are so tiny. Cheap living, but full of riff raff. I don't know what the maroon building is, I just thought it was pretty :) The street view one used to be a pedestrian walk only. The made it into a road a few years back. Straight ahead is the vets memorial park, the children's museum, and the city police buildings. On the other end of the street (behind me) is Rosa parks circle. In the summer there are concerts/blues festival thing, and right now, its an ice skating rink. Our little city has grown a ton in the last 5-10 years, and it keeps growing. I love living here. I daydream about moving somewhere warmer, but I couldn't imagine living anywhere else.

Finally.

I'm better :) I finally feel better. I was able to eat some soup last night, and that really helped. I haven't attempted anything yet today, food still doesn't sound good. My doc called in some medicine for me for the strep, and I can already tell that its working. Lets just hope the antibiotic doesn't give me a yeast infection. Gross. Sorry, too much info?? The kids are doing great too! Other than they are fighting w/ each other a lot. All the time home they had this week must be affecting them. Or is effecting? I can never remember which.
I don't have any big plans for the weekend. I'd like some though. I'm not one to be cooped up. I need to be out and about. I know hubs is having his poker game tonight, but I'm so NOT playing. One of my girlfriend invited the kids and I over to play disney scene it. I think I might do that. That might be fun. Saturday, hubs is going to another poker game (grr), so I don't have anything for tomorrow either. It seems like I haven't been out in a while. I need a good-let-loose girls night. Some drinks, and some dancing maybe?? I haven't been out dancing in a few years. All the clubs we have around here are full of just-turned-21 hoodrats. The girls walk around 1/2 naked, and the guys try to creep up on you. Eww. That kind of atmosphere isn't very appealing to someone such as myself, but I really would like to go bust a move w/ some girlfriends. Maybe I should open a new club. You have to be fully dressed, not get tanked, and if you're a boy, you need to dance in your own space :) That sounds like fun. Am I turning into a prude in my old age?? I just might be.
I have nothing interesting to talk about. My lack of getting out has left me no entertaining stories to tell. I should make one up. Or, maybe a past story? I'll save that for this weekend. I'll come up w/ a good one! Have a good weekend all, and stay healthy!

Oh- and go check out Chicken's blog today, her post is fantastic :)

PUKE

I have to make this quick. Jade had a stomach bug on Sunday, she threw up twice before noon, and was back to normal again by dinner time. Last night, hubs started puking. I must say that having a sick husband, is worse than sick kids! He doesn't handle being sick well, so the whole time its 'ugh. moan. i feel so terrible. moan. ugh' I have a hard time being sympathetic, because I can never tell how bad it is, whatever he has is always the worst ever. Then this morning, Max woke up and puked in his bed. Bunk bed. Do you know how fucking hard it is to change bedding on a bunk bed? Terrible. Not to mention wiping the damn thing down w/ bleach water. Shortly after Ave got up its 'mommy, my tummy hurts' Fuck. I suppose she will have it this afternoon. This is the worst part about being a mom. Taking care of puking kids/hubs. Wiping ass', cleaning up puke, meeting demands of all sorts from ' more sprite please' 'please lay w/ me' to 'MOM I just shit my pants' or 'MOOOMM I just puked on the carpet'. And then ofcourse, Hubs too. I'm going to lose my damn mind today! I see my plans for slipping away crashed and burning. I need to make it through today w/o getting sick myself. Can you imagine if I did get sick today? THAT would be awful. Moms can't get sick. Ever. But even if we do, we still manage to hold on and take care of everyone else. I need an attitude adjustment today. I need to be considerate of my family. I'm being kind and patient w/ them, but I'm not feeln' it. At all. I want to piss and moan and run away for the day. GEEZ. When it rains, so they say. Strep throat last week... What's next?? I hope this is the last bout of sickness for us. I HATE this time of year. All sorts of nasty floating around, and for some reason, my kids are getting it all. Sonofabitch. This sucks.

EDIT- it only took Avery a 1/2 hour after I posted this to start puking. Fabulous. Fucking Fabulous.

The strep throat has cleared up, or at least he's feeling better. He was feeling better by Friday afternoon. Our weekend wasn't very exciting. Poker on Friday night. Which was fun, but I think I'm sick of it. I've had enough. We've been having poker games every friday for almost a year now. Hubs works all week long, and when he gets home on Friday, he's busy getting ready for the game, setting up the garage and what not. Hubs is usually up late, playing side games, cleaning up, waiting for everyone to leave. So on Saturday mornings, he sleeps in. Saturday is really the only day of the week where we don't have to do anything. The day where we can spend family time together, or get things done around the house. We have some 1/2 projects they need to be finished, and few more waiting to start. But now his saturdays, are spent sleeping in, and by the time he's up and ready to go, more than 1/2 the day is gone. Its getting to be too much work to have them. Too much for him, and too much for me. I don't have as much to do w/ the game, but thats more time I spend taking care of kids w/o his help. As this last game was the last straw for me. There has been a disturbing trend recently. Play cards all flippn' night. 3 times now, I've gotten up in the morning, and they are still playing in the garage! THEN my hubs has to sleep forever, and the whole day is gone. This weekend, hubs came to bed, and left guys out in the garage. He left our good buddy in charge, so that was alright, but damn. I got up at 8, and there they were. They didn't leave until 930am. I just can't have that. This is my home, not a casino. Yes, they play in the garage, but still. It bothers me, and its been bothering me for awhile, the constant friday night games, and now, i've just kind of had it. We have about 30 people a week that come to play. I don't want them here anymore. I know there is one on this Friday, but I HOPE that's it. And I'm not going to play anymore, at least not at my house. My hubs will never think I'm serious if I keep playing. Other than that.. Not a lot happened. The baby got a stomach bug yesterday, but it didn't last long. She threw up twice before noon, and that was it. She was back to normal, and eating just fine by 5. If we have to get the flu, I prefer it like that! I'm waiting to see who's next in line... And, not that anyone cares, but I had some absolutely FANTASTIC sex this weekend. So there. :) Have a good day!

Here we go again....

Max woke up in the middle of the night burning up! He was so hot. He was complaining of a sore throat. Jade's well baby check was this morning, so I decided to bring him along, just in case. Our ped. is great like that. He'll check out our other kids when it isn't there turn. Sure enough, Max has strep throat. Sonofabitch. I'm glad we caught it early, but shit. It's not going to take long for Ave to get it. Maybe we'll get lucky, and it will pass by w/o anyone else getting it.

Jade's appt went well. She is in the 50% for everything. She weighs 19.12 pds, and is 27 1/4 inches long. Growing girl! She's doing everything that she is suppose to be doing. I love the well baby check ups. Its fun to see how they change every few months :)

My friend that pissed me off called this morning to say sorry. She said that she felt bad, she was only trying to make a joke. I'm glad she called, it made me feel better.

I stopped at the store and stocked up on popsicles and sprite. I'm going to spend the afternoon snuggling w/ my kids, watching movies. I hope Max feels better soon, and that the other 2 don't get it! We're going to lay low for a few days. Have a good day!

Bah

I'm a bit blah tonight. It was just one of those nights that doesn't go so great. Hubs and I had a bit of something tonight. We just were not getting along. Made me feel sad. I called a girlfriend for moral support, as we women tend to do. And she so didn't help. Made me feel worse. I told her that we just didn't get along, but it wasn't an argument, although I did say something kind of bitchy. And she says, in this very sickly-sweet-sarcastic voice "noooot yoouuuuu". What the hell? Was she insinuating that I'm a bitch? That wasn't at all what I needed at the moment. She knew she pissed me off. I told her that it wasn't nice (can you tell I hang out w/ kids all day?). She kind of giggled and said she didn't mean it like that at all. I'm probably overthinking this, and I am hormonal this week. Even still, it bothered me. I'm still bothered about it. It isn't often that I reach out to friends when I'm having a bad day. Most of the time, it seems silly to share them, or that I'm over reacting. So I don't say anything about it, just carry on like I'm fine, or I shrug it off. Like, yeah, its not a great day, but it isn't that bad, could be worse. Then I change subjects. But tonight, I needed some support. A friendly "aww. It will be better soon" or "That happens to me sometimes too." I'm always around for my friends, most certainly this one. Can't I just get a hug, a beer maybe? Makes me sad, and want a pity party. But, you can bet I won't be calling anyone else for a lift this week. Don't want to be burned again. Not to say that my other g.f's would do that, I'm sure they wouldn't, but it makes me want to close off.

My son is having a rough time as well. Last week, I was talking to another mom about night terrors. Max had a few of those when he was 2. They were scary! Max overheard it, and now he's terrified to go to sleep in his bed. I don't know what I can say to make him feel better. I've tried. He's so much like me in that way, w/ his fears. I had many of them when I was little, and I know what it felt like when my parents put me off, or thought that I was just trying to get out of bed. I don't want to do that to him! He starts thinking about it right before he brushes his teeth, and then by the time he gets to his bed, he's a mess of nerves, and shaking. Trying not to cry, but he can't help it. The last few nights, I let him sleep w/ us. Tonight I wanted him to go back to his bed, but he was so scared his knees were shaking. I said all the things moms are suppose to say "there is nothing to be afraid of! monsters are not real, but if they were, I'd chase them away from you. I'll leave the light on. I'm just in the next room, you are safe. I'm telling you the truth, honest to goodness, you have nothing to fear. Daddy is bigger than the boogie man!" I didn't know what else to say. I did my best to reassure him. I left him in his room for 1/2 hour or so. When I peeked in to check on him, he was still shaking, and crying quietly. I've been there! I can remember the fears that I had that were so very real to me. I took him out of bed, and laid down w/ him on the couch w/ the lights on. When my parents would ignore my fears, it made me feel alone, and all the more scared. I can't do that to my son, but I do want this matter to clear up. Suggestions???

The baby started saying "mama" this week! Melts me. I can't believe how big she is getting! Her top 2 teeth finally broke through as well. Her diaper rash has cleared up, and she is once again, sleeping all night. Yeah!

Ave's behavior has been much better too. I've started using some different methods with her, and they are really paying off. The day goes by better now. She still has her occasional tantrums, but even those have gotten better. She no longer slams doors, or screams till my ears bleed :)

I talked to R.A. friend last night, and she isn't coming tomorrow. Her icky hubs sentencing has been moved to Feb, so I will not see her till then. She went to see a lawyer today to find out what the laws are, and what her options would be. She has been leaning towards divorce, but she kept going back and forth. After talking to the lawyer, she made a definite decision to go thru w/ a divorce. I'm relieved! I think it is the best choice for her and her kids!

Tomorrow will be a better day. Tomorrow will be a better day. Tomorrow will be a better day. That's suppose to work, right?

Update on News Story

Here are a few of the emails that I've exchanged w/ the news lady.

> Hello Julie!

Thank you for sending the story. I also did some checking on my own, and I agree, it isn't a good thing. I would be willing to help you out. However,I don't understand why you want to interview me, when you could find just as many willing to interview, closer to you. I would like to know what youwill ask, how long it will take, and when it would happen, and where the interview would be shown. Thanks again. I'm looking foward to hearing back from you.

Misty



From :
Julie McCoy Sent : Tuesday, January 17, 2006 4:21 PM
To : "M blue"
Subject : Re: TV NEWS STORY






Hi Misty,
Thanks for getting back to me so quickly!
You are perfect for our story- that's why I want to interview you! Our
stories air all over the country and that's why we interview people all over
the country. If I interviewed everyone from Miami, it'd be way too boring.
Plus, I've already interviewed all my friends, family and friends of
friends- I'm all out of people! That's why I head online to find people
now.
Our stories run during the local news casts of stations all over the
country- so your 5pm or 6pm news. We will send a camera man to your home to
do the interview and then just to get some extra video of you too. The whole
thing will probably take about an hour. I haven't written the questions yet,
but I will ask you about how you protect your financial information, and
then what you think about banks employing people overseas who have access to
your personal information. I can send you more specific questions once I
actually write them!
Let me know if you're still interested, and we can set up a day and time!
Thanks,
Julie

So there it is. I still don't know what to think about it. We shall see what comes next!

I can spill it!!!

The secret I've been holding on to, is actually Chicken's :)

If you haven't been reading my blog long, Chicken is my best friend, for the last 13 years. A year and 1/2 ago, she started dating my brother. It was kind of odd that they got together, but I was thrilled to see 2 people that I love so dearly, find happiness together.

They just found out that they are expecting a BABY!!!!!!!!!!!! I was so happy when they told me, that I jumped up and down and cried. I am beyond thrilled!!!! A baby?! Not only do I get the honor of being an Aunt a second time, but my very best friend is giving birth to him/her. A part of me, from her. I am so excited. I cannot WAIT to see the beautiful baby that was created in the purest kind of love.

Not only are they bringing a baby into the world, but I think that they are going to get married as well. Holy shit. Who would have thought it? I'm telling you, I never imagined this 13 yrs ago. Chicken always had a crush on my older brother. She drooled over him all the time. We joked about it often. I never in a million years believed that they would get together. And NOW? WOOOOOOHHHHHOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!

She is going to be the mother of my niece/nephew. And my sister, for real. I cannot get over it. Yay! In the last year and a 1/2, I've loved our family get togethers. My partner in crime gets to be there w/ me. Its awesome. You know how family functions can be boring, or just plain suck? Mine so don't anymore.

She's going to be an awesome mama. She lights up when she's around my kids. And my brother is an awesome dad. He has a child already, and has made me proud in the dad department. I just can't wait. September cannot come soon enough!!!

hmmmm

Hi Guys!
I got an interesting email today. Check it out.
Hi,

My name is Julie McCoy, and I am a TV journalist working on a story about banking.

I read your recent post that discussed your paranoid nature- I'm the same way- when it comes too all things, especially banking information.

The story I'm working on is about how banks are sending more of their customers' personal data overseas- to call centers in India. I need to interview someone who is concerned about this practice. I thought maybe you would fit bill.

If you are interested in speaking with me, please give me a call at the number below or email me a number where I can reach you.

Thanks,
Julie McCoyProducer, NewsProNet


I did call her, after checking out NPN on the internet. Seems for real. I asked her to send me some more information, and I'd get back to her. She said that she could do an on camera interview w/ me, and that their news shows are shown on many different stations through out the US. Weird. She didn't seem the least bit concerned that I live in MI, and she in FL. I don't really know what I think of it yet. I'll have to wait for more info. What do you think? Go figure, that me being overly paranoid would get me on TV. I'll update you when I know more.

I have a secret... I'm DYING to tell you. But, I can't. Yet. Hopefully I'll be able to soon!

I'm having all these lovely day dreams about blowing off my responsibilities and sleeping ALL day. Today is the perfect day for staying in bed. Gray, kind of raining. I love sleeping when its raining. I always sleep so much more soundly, and deep. When I was in college, I remember the alarm going off one morning. I reached over to hit it, and I heard the rain. I hadn't even opened my eyes yet, I smiled, and rolled back over. I missed a big test that morning. Oops. Damn rain. Seems like I haven't gotten enough sleep this week, its been busy. I stay up late to clean up the day's damage, or read to unwind. I just read a huge book that took place in Ireland. I want to sleep listening to the rain, and dreaming of Ireland. Dreaming/sleeping was a favorite hobby of mine before the rugrats.
Speaking of rugrats, they have been very good! When I got home last night, all the kids were sleeping. I sat down w/ hubs to hang out, and Avery got up. She came over and crawled up in my lap. All she said was "mama" and quickly fell asleep on my shoulder. Aww. She can be hell on wheels most days, and then sweet angel girl on a rare few. I love those times. Makes being a mama all the more precious.
My run-away-friend is coming for a night next week w/o her kids. I'm looking fwd to seeing her. Its been a few months now. Her hubs is being sentenced then, so she's coming for that. She wants to know how long he's going away for. She keeps going back and fourth w/ divorce. For awhile, she was sure she was going to do that, now she doesn't know if she can/should/whatever. Everyone has an opinion on it, of course, which just confuses her all the more. I haven't given her mine, and I won't. She needs to make it by herself. But, I must say, if she doesn't decide to divorce him, and stay w/ him, I don't think I can stick around. I have very strong feelings about what he did. Being a child molester victim myself, I just can't get around that. I have little girls! I would never ever be able to welcome him into my home, EVER. It seems like a simple thing to me. But it's not my family, my husband, or situation. But if it was, I would get a divorce. Like right now. I don't think I'd need to think about it at all. Ok, so there wasn't any penetration, but he fondled an 11 yr old girl. SICK. Bastard. I don't want to ditch my friend, but man, I can't deal w/ that shit. I hope she makes a good decision.

Mark of the Beast?

I've discussed my paranoid nature on here before, so this post shouldn't really surprise you. I was listening to talk radio this morning, as I usually do. Its a local news radio station, where local stuff is discussed. I know they have it on the internet as well, so if you're ever interested in taking a listen, its woodradio.com. I'm not sure of the exact web address, but I think its that. Anyway, recently in Kent county, people have been having microchips in their dogs, incase their dogs are ever lost or whatever. Today, they were discussing microchips for people. The microchip is about the size of a grain of rice, and can be inserted into your hand. All of your personal information would be on this chip. Medical information, bank information, passwords, insurance, ssn, credit card info, criminal records.... You could also have it programmed to unlock your house, your car, and whatever else. Interesting. What do you guys think of this idea? All the local folks that called in today, at least the majority, said no way! They don't want the government tracking them. Or what if criminals were able to get some sort of receiver, so they could just walk next to you and get all your information. I think it would have many benefits, I'm not concerned about the government tracking me. They can already find out anything they want to about you. You can be found by your credit card transactions. Ofcourse, they don't have a gps system for us yet, so there is that. But whatever, I'm not concerned w/ that. Its a comforting thought to think that if your children were ever lost, hurt or kidnapped, it would be easy to find them w/ this chip. What I found creepy about this whole thing, is being marked. I imagine most people, religious or not, have heard about the mark of the beast. And how in the end times, if you do not have the mark, you will not be able to get food, water, or any other necessity to live. You will be an outlaw, or something similar. I don't have a lot of biblical knowledge on this subject, so pardon me if I'm screwing it up. Yikes! I know that it says that the mark will be 666. What on earth does that mean? Do you suppose that is literal, or a parable? I can't say. There are many parts of the bible that I don't grasp. I get lost easily. Even so, I believe that the bible is truth. No one brought up the mark of the beast on the radio. Just me, given my paranoid nature. One more thing for me to have nightmares about. No, I don't think that this microchip IS the mark, but I can see how it would be easy to make it that way. I can't imagine anyone in our society putting 666 on something and expecting it to fly. But the bible says it will happen, therefore, it must be. If not in a literal sense, then something else. What do you think? Y'all think I'm crazy now, huh? :) Have a great day, and beware of microchips! LOL.

A New Record

We finally saw the sun yesterday! We broke the record here in West Michigan for the most consecutive days in a row w/o any recorded sunshine. Not even a sliver. I think it was something like 17 days, but even before that, if we had any, it was only a slice for a few minutes. I was starting to worry that it would NEVER come back, and then all of these awful things would start to happen.... In 5th grade, we watched some video about how the sun was a star, and how eventually, all stars die. Then it went in to what would happen if we were left w/o sunlight. I had nightmares for months about the sun exploding, and then living in the dark. It was terrible! I was VERY happy to see the sun yesterday. I handled the gloom much better than I thought I would. Winter in W. Michigan is gross. Its pretty for the first little while, but then everything gets slushy, and gray. Kids are cooped up inside, and I get a bit depressed. But these last couple weeks, I did ok. I was starting to get bummed, but then it came back, in the nick of time. I need sunshine! Of course today, back to gray... I think I might need to go tanning. I imagine that would help.
I don't have anything else to gab about... Weekend was not very interesting. Hubs and I did go out to dinner w/o any kids, that was nice. We met another couple for dinner, and had a good time. I was hoping to be alone w/ my hubs, but it was ok anyhow. This week isn't looking bad, should not be too busy. Oh, and we caved. Back to cable we go. Its only been a few months, and we miss it. Rotten TV anyway! Enjoy your day!

Interesting...

I went out w/ my parents last night. I don't think I've talked much about them here. I'm very close to my mom, and my step-dad's cool too, but they live in a much different world than I do. Always makes for an interesting evening. We went to a polish hall last night. If you don't know what that is, its kind of like an American Legion, but instead of vets, its filled w/ polish people. Cheap beer, and good food. We are polish, but not that much, so I don't know how my parents got a membership or whatever you call it there. My parents both ride Harley's. They are not typical when it comes to parents, to say the least. lol. We met up w/ some of their biker gang friends. I sat next to a shady character by the name of 'gangster'. They are all nice people, but definitely your typical bikers when you think of stereotypes. Tattoos, leather and beer. Maybe a few other substances. My parents dog is named Cannabis. Weird. LOL. Anyway, it was fun. I would have liked to stay longer, but all the talk of chrome, and wheel size and light dropping was getting a bit blah for me. Oh, and my mom proudly displayed her nearly-front-row-seats for a kid rock show coming up. Yep, not typical grandma.
My hubs and I went out w/ them a while back to a very popular biker bar. When we first got there, it wasn't very full at all, so we were having a great time. Then the door opened, and 30-ish outlaws came in. Ever hear of the Outlaws? Yeah, they can be scary. My parents got all weird when they showed up, and made it known to us that we needed to be extra careful. Don't take pictures, stay out of their way, and everything should be fine. My step dad was going on about how he won't sit w/ his back towards an outlaw blah blah blah. Sounds silly, but it was enough to make us nervous. The men had on long sleeved tee-shirts w/ outlaw written on the the sleeves, and leather vests w/their nicknames on it. The women also had leather vests on, and instead of their name, it said "so and so's Bitch". Nice. Some of the younger guys had something along the lines of trainee on it, and when I asked about it, being the friendly girl I am, he just stared at me. YIKES. Ok, I guess they don't socialize. The bar was small, and narrow. To get to the bathroom, you had to squeeze next to the pool table, which was, covered w/ outlaws. I couldn't wait anymore to pee, so I very carefully made my way back. I'm trying to avoid eye contact, stepping lightly, w/ the polite excuse me's required. I start passing the HUGE MEAN looking guy, and when I get even w/ him, he stomped his food so hard on the floor, I nearly shit my pants! Scared the hell out of me. When I looked up at him w/ the fear clearly on my face, he started laughing, cracking up. Asshole. lol. He was nice, not a jack ass at all. He knew I was nervous and thought he'd shake things up a bit. So then we had a friend, kind of. The others were more apt to talk to us then. Later in the night, I went up to the bar to get a drink. Took forever. This really old outlaw was talking to me, keeping me company while I waited. He asked if I rode. "Do I look like a biker, in my conservative get up?" He laughed, said " I didn't think so." We went on talking about bikes and what not and introduced me to a younger outlaw. He was cute, for a scary biker. The old guy was going on about how "a cutie like yourself should be w/ a biker. They take care of you. This guy(talking about the young one) he's your age, single, you should go out w/ him." That made me giggle. The younger one said "yeah, how about it? Wanna get on my bike, go for ride, get out of here?" I said "Oh no, thank you, but I couldn't. I'm happily married. My husband is over there (I pointed to hubs)" Older and younger guy look over at Hubs, Hubs smiles wondering what in the hell I'm up to. Younger guy says "I don't give a shit about your HUSBAND. Wanna ride or what?" That freaked me out. lol. I repeated my earlier stance of "no, but thanks anyway" and hussled off to my hubs. I told him it was time for us to get going. I told him about the biker guys, and he was like "yeah, lets go" We said our goodbyes to my parents, and made our way to the door. The younger guy says "See you later blue" in a intimate sort of way- purposely done to try and irritate my hubs. We waved and got out to the car. We were laughing about it in the car, and hubs is like "I could take him." LOL. We both new that was bullshit. lol. It was funny. Then Hubs says "If he really wanted to fight w/ me, I'd have to let him take you." Nice :) It was a funny night, and I'm glad we made it out of there w/o any issues. We haven't been back since. I'm not sure that we will. But, oh, the fun we have w/ my parents.

HNT! My Sexy Hubs!

My sexy sexy hubs :) And beautiful baby, of course. Jade was having a rough night last night. Her top front teeth are coming in, and she has a raging, terrible diaper rash. She woke up crying, and wanted NOTHING to do w/ me. Only daddy could make her feel better. They fell asleep together in the chair. I fall in love all over again w/ my hubs when I see him like this. He's a great dad. Seeing my man be a wonderful daddy to our children, melts me and gives me butterflies. Still, after all of these years, and 3 kids. HHNT!

My year in review

Happy New Year! We had a great New Year. We rang it in w/ champange and all some of our greatest friends. We had a wonderful time. What a year its been! It's been good/awesome overall. Here are some of my highlights:

My mother in law beat breast cancer this year! We found out in 04', and the cancer was already a stage 3. It was scary! I kept thinking what if she doesn't make it? What if this baby I'm carrying never gets to know her, or love her like I do? I also thought a lot about the why's. Why her? She's a faithful believer, healthy in all other aspects, never has told a lie, never smoked a smoke, drank a beer, lived the cleanest/healthiest life style- why isn't it me? It was rough for me, and where I stood in my faith. She started chemo right away, and then on Apr. 1, 2005, she had a double masectomy. When the results came back, after surgery, she was C L E A R! I cried for days. I couldn't believe it. We were so thankful. 6 wks after her surgery, she did radiation, 5 days a week, for 15 minutes a day, for a total of 8 weeks. She's doing great still!

I had my 3rd child on April 14. We were thrilled! We had tried to conceive for 2 yrs, and then finally, gave up. We just didn't think it was meant to be. Hubs just had to wink at me to get preggos for the other 2. It was a very sad time for us, and just when I really forgot about it, TA DA!! I was pregnant. Jade was born via C-section on Apr. 14. She was a little peanut! 7 pds 91/2 oz, and 20 1/2 inches long. She was and is beautiful.













My son started kindergarten this year! That was a big deal for us as well. He loves it, and is doing very well. Its hard to watch your kids march off to school.

Avery started preschool and dance this year. I wasn't sure about sending her to preschool (she was only 3), but I thought that it would be good for her. She had a hard time when Jade was born. I wanted her to know, and to feel that there were things special about her, that only she could do. I thought school and dance would be helpful w/ that. School is going great, and dance is too, when she feels like it. She changes her mind from week to week on weather or not she likes it.

We didn't take any huge trips this past year, but we did go camping a lot, and short weekend trip. I think we went camping 6 times, Toledo once, and we spent 3 days at The Great Wolf Lodge, which our kids thought was the coolest ever. If you've never been, and you have small kids, look it up and see if one is near you. Its awesome!

Hubs and I started having regular poker games here at home after the kids go to bed. We play in the garage, and its been fun. We get a chance to be social w/ others, do something fun together, and we never have to pay a sitter. We joined a bowling league too!

I can't think of anything else. I hope I didn't forget anything. This year I want to try to be a better mom. I need to work on being patient.. I'm NOT so great at that. I'm a work in progress. I want to be more organized as well. Not good at that either. I have a feeling that 2006, is going to be a great year!