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I'm a happily married mom of 3! I recently rejoined the work force after 8 years of being a SAHM. Now I'm REALLY trying to figure it out. Finding my balance w/ my family, my job, housework, school stuff, extra stuff, and maintain some sort of social life.. Nearly impossible.

Friday, September 30, 2005

Ta- Da!





Here it is! I spent 8 hrs sowing this together yesterday. Its a baby quilt for my friend- her shower is next week. I wanted to get it all done, and its not yet. This isn't a very good picture, you can't really see the patterns very well, or the colors, but you get the idea anyway. My back is sore from being hunched over. I didn't have a pattern, or directions. I've made a few before, but I always had directions, or my mother in law to hook me up. I'm surprised how well it turned out for winging it. I still have to finish the back, but whaever. I'll get that done tomorrow or something. My mother in law in the master, she can make anything. I'm just learning from her. My hubs bought me a sowing machine for Christmas the first year we were married, and I was like "What do you think I'm going to do w/ this thing?" I'm not sure I had ever even seen one before. Nobody does that sort of thing in my family, and I'm certainly not crafty. So it sat in my closet for 4 yrs. Finally my m-i-l guilted me into taking it out. Its not so bad. I was cursing a blue streak last night, and the seam ripper was my best friend, and I wanted to throw it out and quit right then, but the almost finished product made it worth it. I don't know when I'll want to put myself through that again. We shall see who gets knocked up next, if they're special enough to make me want to suffer for sentimental reasons.
So, I've got nothin' else.. Here's some pics of my girls. Been awhile since I posted any pics. Have a good weekend! Shit. I wanted to put the girls here, but so what. Never puts them where I want em'. Anyway- later..

Thursday, September 29, 2005

First time mom

I didn't know what to post today. I wrote a letter to a new friend about my first time mom experience,she wanted to know if I had a hard time. Figured I could use it as a post.. Here you go

Oh Friend!!! You are SOOOO normal, and not at all alone! I had a terrible time when my first child was born. Before you have kids, you hear about how fabulous it is, and even more fantastic if you're a stay home mom. I thought it would be for me too- but it wasn't. Not even close. I was a mess, all the time. I was constantly worried that I was doing everything wrong, my hubs was working 13 hr days, and was completely useless when he got home (b/c of his long hours), not to mention that he didn't know what to do for me. I cried a lot. I can remember rocking my son at 3am, holding on to him for dear life, but devastated at the same time, because I didn't know what to do w/ this beautiful little guy. I had post-partum (sp?) depression. It wasn't the type where I ever thought about hurting myself or my child, but I was a wreck. No one tells you the truth about how they really feel,or how it could be. It isn't all fantastic and magical, yes there are moments, but its hard! Suddenly the world rests on your shoulders, its a huge change. Being a stay home mom sucks. At least until you get used to it, figure it out, and find some support. You're not a bad mother at all for wanting to get away. You need to get away every now and then. I know that when I get out for a while, I can be a better mom when I get home, b/c my patience (sp?) is renewed. You lose so much of yourself when you become a parent. Everything about you changes. What's important, what you like, where you go, how late you stay out. Any hobbies you had pre-baby, settle on the back burner. And for some reason, that's not always true for our other halves- I don't understand that, but that's the way it is, and that can make you feel bad too- knowing that you have sacrificed so much of yourself for your family, when hubs/boyfriend doesn't have to, or didn't as much. I'll never understand that, but the majority of parenting/baby care taking falls on mothers. Your not alone at all, and you sound like a fantastic mommy- you just need to remember to take care of you too. This mom business, ain't no joke. Its hard babe. Don't be so hard on yourself, and don't feel guilty! I felt like you did until I found a moms group, it can really change things for you. I want to encourage you to find one. If you find one that you don't feel like you really click in, look for another. There are moms like you and I all over, trying to find girlfriends. You'll be ok, hon. Please keep in touch!

Hope today is the best!
Misty

Wednesday, September 28, 2005

Funny Kid

Max was playing w/ some neighborhood kids last night. These kids are all older by at least 5 yrs. I'm not sure what they were playing, but it was something like dodge ball. He played for a little bit, and then came back over by me. I could tell he was sad, his eyes were red-rimmed and shiny, and his bottom lip was quivering- even though he was trying to suck it up, he was on the verge of tears. When I asked what was wrong, he said that he kept losing, he's not good enough to play that game, he can't get anyone out. Broke my heart, poor baby. He was crushed, and I don't know if those little fuckers were making him feel bad or not, but I could have kicked their asses. My protective mommy instinct kicked in. I just said that he needed to practice more, and he would get better at the game, and reminded him that these kids were all older, and therefore faster. But, when you get older, I bet you could take em' all out. He says "I'd rather take their teeth out" LOLOLOLOL. I try NOT to encourage bad behavior, but I couldn't help but laugh. He was so broken, and then just pissed. He's a funny boy.After I was able to get my giggles under wrap, I told him that dad and I would give him a hand practicing the game, and maybe sooner than later, he'd be able to get em all out, but spare their teeth... He's the best 5 yr old ever.

Monday, September 26, 2005

Ballet and a celebrity sighting :)

I had a great weekend. I didn't win any damn poker though, still fun to play. The Ballet was interesting. I think I liked it. Watching them dance was awesome, but the music was TERRIBLE. Reminded me of thrashy elevator music in the uptempo sets. The rest of it was dark, spoon clanking, flat notes, 6 different cars honking at the same time kind of noise. I was on the verge of needing a prozac, made me panic-ish. Those men, ballarino's if you will, WOW. Very muscular, and the costumes were painted on. Some scenes I could hardly watch, I was so distracted by all their business sticking out. Just watching them move made my legs cramp. I was almost turned on by these men, but they were jumping around the stage like little fairy's, and I lost it. Nope, not attracted to ballerino's. I am impressed w/ how strong they are. My little girl is in ballet, but I don't think I want her to do it as a grown up, the costumes are too much- a second skin. One of the sets they did was a couple, and the dance was very obvious a dance b/w lovers, they way they moved together. It was beautiful, and I was sucked in, but I couldn't imagine my daughter doing that, or me watching. It was a very intimate dance. Overall, I loved it, but that music HAS to go!
For my celebrity sighting, we went to McDonald's to grab lunch today, and we were waiting by the counter. In the door walks Ronald McDonald. LOL. My kids about shit. First they were terrified and hid behind my legs, but Ronnie got them talking. Then they wouldn't shut up. My son was all excited. He says" MOM, he's FAMOUS. I see him on TV all the time" Cracked me up. It was fun. See how exciting my fabulous life is?? You wish you were me, don't you?? :o) Have a good day!

Friday, September 23, 2005

That was Fast

I can't believe its friday already! This week went by so quickly. Prly b/c it was so full of stuff. I'm looking fwd to forgetting my stresses and enjoying myself this weekend. We're playing poker tonight, which is always fun. I get to see some friends, and hopefully win some money :) Tomarrow night I'm going to the Ballet. Not my daughters class, but a real one. I've never been, and I'm excited about it! I don't get all dressed up very often at all, but I like to, and this is a perfect time for that! I'm going w/a few girlfriends. I don't think I could make my hubs go to one of those for anything, unless of course his little girl was involved. It will be a nice get away time. I can't wait for the weekend to begin!!! Hope y'all have a good one too!!!

Thursday, September 22, 2005

Its HNT

I have not done a HNT pic in awhile- and I'm still not going to today, I promise you one next week. I'm too tired to figure out what to do today :) My son is getting out of school right now, and I am SO going to be late. But I'm going to be late on purpose. There is no bus his school, so all the parents come at once to pick up kids, the traffic is nonsense. So today,I am going to be 10 minutes late so I won't have to wait as long to get my boy. And on top of that, the baby is still napping, and its gross and rainy outside! We shall see how this 'late on purpose' thing works out for me. I hope he's not the last kid waiting for his mom. That sucks. Kind of like being picked last to be on a sports team... Now I'm getting freaked out about my plan, so I'll go now.. Have a good evening!

Wednesday, September 21, 2005

Boring

Yesterday was a bad day- I don't think I want to talk about it anymore, and I almost want to delete the post, b/c it makes me feel yucky to see it. But I'll leave it, for now. I have lots of everyday boring normal stuff to blog about, but I'm just not feelin' it today. Hope all of you have a great and safe day today!

Thursday, September 15, 2005

Misc. Stuff

Somehow my daughter pushed some buttons, and now everything is HUGE. Any ideas on how to fix that? Its causing some dizziness for me, and occasional blurred vision. I have to sit as far back as possible to write this and check email without falling out of my chair and nailing my chin on the desk. Fuck.
Last night I took the kids to the library to pick out some new books and a few for me. I haven't read a book for the pure pleasure of it since I was in the hospital having Jade- 5 months ago. I love to read. I'd rather read than do almost anything, but I've been too busy for it. So at the library, I told them they could play by the kid stuff while I picked out books and checked out. I grabbed the kids and started off for the door. My son says VERY loudly in the QUIET library " MOM- you didn't pay for these yet. We can't leave!" Me "SSHHHHHH, yes I already checked out, lets go" I was just a tad embarrassed at that point. I'm pulling them along, and he's dragging his feet, people are looking.. Max " MOM!(in his best stern voice) I DON'T THINK YOU ARE MAKING A WISE CHOICE RIGHT NOW!" Geez! I nearly had to show my 5 yr old the check out slip so he shush! Gotta love it when they try to put you in line. Goof ball- he's a good boy. At least now I know who I can't bring along on a car theft spree..
Today was a rather nice, boring, cold, lazy day. Perfect for laundry and reading. And magically, my children let me be for most of it. I love it when that happens. I'm looking fwd to tomorrow, my hubs is taking the day off to do nothing w/ me. I can't wait. It's been awhile since we've had a carefree-no-schedule-day. Those are the best!
Because I have nothing interesting to write about, I'll leave you w/ another ghetto neighbor story. Mr. Nasty has 2 roommates to help take care of his 4 children. The roommates are just as ghetto fabulous as he is. The male roommate spends all of his day drunk and muttering to himself and occasionally, smoking pot on the front porch~whaever. The other is a gal who talks WAY TOO MUCH, and is constantly trying to convince how much fun it would be to be her friend and take a walk w/ her... Pass. But anyway, Mr. Nasty likes to come over and talk to my hubs. My hubs is a really nice guy, and easy (target) to talk to. Hubs doesn't care for the guy either, but he doesn't walk away after a polite hello, he always gets suckered in to a conversation w/ Mr. Nasty. Hubs asked him about the roommates and what the deal was w/ them. The guy is a friend there to help out w/ paying the bills and the kids when Mr. N is at work. Nice choice of child care I might add.. But then he goes on to tell my hubs that the girl is an old friend, and he just lets her stay there for the occasional blow job. Uh... WTF? Why would you ever, ever say that out loud to another person, and one you don't know well enough to call friend either? This guy is wacky as hell. Gross. Oh, and he of course had to go into more detail about that as well. Classy...

Wednesday, September 14, 2005

Ghetto Neighbor

I have a ghetto neighbor. He burns all his trash, has too many cars, roomates, and he yells at his kids. Drives me crazy. I could go on for days about this guy- he irritates the shit out of me. Here's a story for you.
My kids like to play w/ his kids. His kids are older, they're 10, 11, 11, & 12. I don't mind if they play, but the rules are they have to stay outside where I can see them. The other day Max came in from playing and said that the youngest gave him a test, cause that's what friends do. I was suspicious right away. When I asked what the test was, he said that the boy wanted to know what bad words Max knew, and then he gave him some bad words. Nice.... So my hubs went next door to speak to Mr. Nasty dad. I was surprised when 10 min later, the boy was knocking on our front door w/ his dad to apologize to us. How nice. Mr. Nasty does care about his kids. So after his apology, Mr. Nasty says yeah, sorry about that. He needs to learn to watch his fucking mouth. Fabulous. I wonder where they get it.....

Tuesday, September 13, 2005

Tuesday

MAN, it has been crazy around here. I can't seem to grasp this whole schedule thing. I am not that kind of gal. I prefer sleep when your tired, and eat when your hungry. I'm sure all of this will get easier each week, but damn. My hair is going to fall out. Avery had her first 'all by herself' day at school today, and she loved it. She couldn't wait to go. I didn't have to ask her more than once to do anything this morning! I'm so glad hubs and I decided to send her, I think we made a good decision.
Max's carpool started today. Now there is a lady that will pick him up for school everyday, which makes things SO much easier for me and the baby can nap. He cried his eyes out about it though. Poor guy. He's such a mama's boy. He didn't understand why I didn't want to bring him to school- like I didn't want to be w/ him. Awww, so sad. Then he got more sad about just having to school, b/c he doesn't want to be w/o me. He's not always like that. I wonder if its now starting to catch up to him or something. Maybe this is a delayed reaction to starting school. Can that happen??

Monday, September 12, 2005

Pictures!

Church: It was simple, but very pretty. I should have gotten it w/ the candles lit.
Me andChicken. I look high or something, but I can assure, I was not. Completely sober. Just look funny.

Here are some pictures for you! Here's a pic of my daughter. Her ballet class started today. She makes an adorable ballerina. I was worried about her acting up, but she didn't, at all. She followed directions very well. Parents are not allowed into the class, but in the lobby, we can watch on tv. She did perfect. Maybe its only for me and at church when she acts up... weird. But it does make me feel better about preschool.

Today was a crazy morning. My poor baby is just now taking her first nap. And I have to wake her up in an hour :( This should be the only day of complete madness. I hope. My mom's group met for the first time of this school year this morning at 830am- 1115am. Max had to be to school at 12, and dance was at 12:15. Too much running!! Thankfully this is the only monday it will be like this.

The whole weeked was fun, mostly w/ wedding stuff, but we did manage to play poker last night. I finally won some money!! Its been awhile. I was on a losing streak. Hopefully this was the start of a winning streak. Have a good day! Time for laundry, yuck.

Sunday, September 11, 2005

It was great

The wedding was awesome! Mrs. Newly Married looked so beautiful, and the wedding went off w/ no real problems. Some of the candles (the long taper kind) in the candle-abra(sp?) were junk. They were crackling and spitting and melting WAY too fast, huge chunks of wax on the floor. It looked bad, but it didn't matter. Mrs. N.M. was fantastic by the way. She was so relaxed and non freak-out-ish. I was very surprised. She's not a bitch by any means, but she's ocd~ so I thought that this would be crazy for her, but not at all. She hardly got nervous- just once the night before, and then for a few minutes before we walked dn the isle. It turned out so good. I'll put up some pics when I get my camara back. I left it somewhere! We had a big phat limo waiting for us at the church. It was a navigator. It was suppose to be a 24 person-whatever. We only put 17 in it and that was MORE than tight. And it was hot, really hot. The air didn't work very well. We drove around to a few different bars in between, and had some drinks in the limo, like 5 cases of beer. lol. It was fun. The reception was a blast as well! Awesome food, free beer, and a good DJ. We were all having a fabulous time, but there was this one girl.... She was skanky. Really skanky. I couldn't believe it. My first clue that this gal might be a little off, was her dress. It barely covered her ass. She bent over on the dance floor, and you could see her biscuits w/ thong. That sort of outfit is fine(not for me ever) for clubs, or if you're going for the hooker look, but NOT, I repeat NOT ok for proper wedding attire. Somehow, she got a chair on the dance floor. Yes folks, it gets worse. She put a boy in the chair, and gave him a lap dance. Oh, AND during her little show, made sure to open his shirt, and put her hand down his pants. OMG. Did she really just give a lap/dance at your wedding Mrs. NM?? Nu-huh. As soon as her little show started, the dance floor emptied, but not b/c they wanted to eagerly watch this natty do her thing, but b/c we were uncomfortable. It was gross. And she didn't have too much of a drunk ass to blame it on either- dirty girl. That sort of behavior is fine when you are at a club, or more like a strip club, but NEVER at someone's wedding. Someone had to have a chat w/ her about this being a PG event. Mrs. N.M. didn't know her, she was a date of one of Mr. N.M. friends. S L U T. Anyway.. so I had pretty wedding hair. I have alot of hair. When I took it out last night, which took forever, i found 72 bobby pins, a pony tail, and some small braid of sorts. And no, when it was up, you couldn't see any of those things. Amazing. How do they do that?? I'll try to put up some pictures later.
Oh, and it is Sep. 11. I can't believe that its been 4 yrs already- and I don't really have anything to say about it, other than I'm thinking of it, and those that were lost. If you lost someone, I'm sorry for your loss, and thinking of you/praying for you today.

Friday, September 09, 2005

Wedding Shemdding

Oh blah! The madness begins, or at least should have an hour ago. We were suppose to meet at the chuch at 9 to decorate, but the bride has too many errands to run this morning so she changed it till 10:45. Which if I didn't have children that needed naps and to go to school, would not be a problem. My baby naps at that time. Dammit. I would like to allow my baby one full nap. If you have kids, or babies, you can understand how this sucks. Toddlers are a bit more flexible when it comes to naps- but not babies. And my baby is particular about where she sleeps- it has to be in her bed, and quiet. Curse and Swear. I'd like to be availible for this stuff, but STOP changing scheduels. Baby sitters, and babies are finicky about timing. So, I'll be playing it by ear, and if I can make it, awesome, and if not, hope you don't mind, but if you do, fuck off.
Woohooo, by the way. I found my camara!!!! I will be taking lots of fab wedding shots for you. I'm excited about tomarrow, I think it will be fun. I've gotten most of the nursing detail worked out, so there is no more stress about that, and has long as bridezilla doesn't change anything else last second, it'll be great! I'm looking fwd to the day my life will not be run by school, naps, nursing and bed time. Isn't it interesting how parenting changes EVERYTHING? One of my girlfriends and I were talking awhile back about politics, and how excited we were to recieve throw pillows and new towels for holidays. Then it hit us. WTF? When did we start caring about this stuff? When did we really become grown up? lol. Silly. Anyway- enjoy your weekend all!!!!!!!

blue

Thursday, September 08, 2005

Preschool

Today was Avery's first day of preschool, kinda anyway. Parents got to stay with them and visit the preschool room. She was really excited to go. You could see it in the way she walked, all bouncy and proud of herself for being able to join the ranks of "big kids". So her first offical all alone day, will be next Tuesday, and I better find my damn camara before then!!!! I hope she is a good girl at school, I'm worried about it. She has a knack for escaping unnoticed. She does it all the flippn' time at sunday school, so much so that I don't really put her in there anymore. I don't want to have to worry about my kid getting lost, or running out the side door somewhere. Freaks me out. I have this control thing w/ my kids. It KILLS me to not no where they are, or what they're doing, and give someone else charge of them. I do it, but its hard. Yeah, I'm one of those moms. I've gotten much better. I worry so much about being able to protect them, to keep the from ever hurting in anyway, like all parents, but I can get so upset about it that I almost have a panic attack. I know its crazy. There were situations that I was in when I was little, where I was NOT protected, and I think that's why I'm such a freak about it. They are still allowed to be kids, but it totally stresses me out. And I don't talk to anyone about it either, b/c I don't want anyone to think i'm nuts! lol! Anyway, I'm sure she'll be ok, but it still makes me nervous..
I am pretty sure I don't like my hair cut.... Its not that its bad really... I just haven't got used to it yet, yeah, maybe that's it.
I've also decided that the coffee incident was a fantastic fluke that I hope will happen again :) Now I'm off to search for the camara!

Wednesday, September 07, 2005

Guilty...

When I was out running errands ealier today, I stopped by Starbucks to get my very favorite once a week treat- Large White Chocolate Rasberry Iced Decaf Mocha-mmmmmm heaven. You need to try on of these if you haven't before, and don't forget the whip cream. They took my drink order, and I was helping Ave w/ something. I got my drink and was 1/2 out the door when I relized that I didn't pay for it! :0 And I kept on going. Now I feel guility- I should go back and pay for it, shouldn't I? I don't want to though. They gave it to me, right? Nope, I should go back. What would you do??
I got a haircut/highlight- so i'm feeling very pretty 110$ dollars later. Wow that stuff is expensive! I'm not sure about the haircut yet. It was just long and the same length. She put some layers in it and thinned it out so they all blend well w/o the bush effect. If you have thick hair, you'll know what I mean by that. I'll have to take a pic so you can tell me what you think. I'll take a pic when I find my camara that my little demons misplaced. How is it that they can get into anything, and only lose the things that cost the most money. I had it put up where I didn't think they'd get it, and now, all gone. I'm determined to find it! That sucks. Snots.

The wedding that I mentioned a few weeks ago is back on! I knew it would be. So this is the weeked. Starting tomarrow I will be having all sorts of endless, sometimes annoying wedding fun. My friend that's getting married is a high maintence type of girl, so I've been kind of stressed about this maid of honor business, I don't want to mess anything up for her. She can be very particular. And I'm still nursing, and that's bothering me. I don't know how to work it out so I can be availible for her, but still nurse my baby. The day of the wedding, we have to meet up at 10 am- the reception. I have not gone a whole day w/o nursing before. My baby will take bottles, but not so great. I want to figure it out so that I can still feed her w/o interupting the day, and make sure my baby has as few bottles as possible . I want to kind of play it by ear, but that's hard to do w/ little ones. I didn't realize when I agreed to this that it would be or could be a problem. I'm sure this is nonsense ya'll don't care about, but its bugging me- sorry about the booby talk in the not sexy way :) I think that I'll nurse first thing, and she goes down for her first nap around 10, the church is a mile from my house, so i can have hubs bring her there and feed her again, and hopefully one more time before the wedding starts.. Pictures are from 11-2 and wedding is at 3-4. I want to see if I can squeeze one more in after the wedding while bride and groom are dismissing rows. Its a good size wedding, so I might be able to. Then hubs can bring them home and get back in time to leave w/ bridal party in the limo. She can have bottles from that point on. I feel rude about have to nurse during that day. My friend doesn't say much about it so I don't really know if it bugs her.... UGH. Anyway, enough already. I'm glad we are only 2 minutes from the church- that helps.

There is some other drama going on w/in my family. Read chickens blog for the story. If you didn't know it, she is my best friend for the last 15? yrs, and is also dating/living with my brother. I was going to blog about this issue, but I am so emotional about it, I don't even know where to start- I have to let it sit for awhile till i can write it out. Its rough, all the way around.

Till later... blue

Monday, September 05, 2005

We had a great weekend camping! We went w/ Chicken( I'd insert her link here if I knew how, but being that I don't- you can click on her name on the side :) and my bro, my neice, ckn's parents, my parents, and another couple of friends. It was so much fun. The kids were great and had a fantastic time playing in the dirt. Camping is nice b/c you don't HAVE to do anything at all. It was nice to not do much.
Chicken got pretty drunk on Saturday night- fabulous entertainment. She had this 20 min histerical conversation w/ her parents on why it would be sweet to have a lesbian daughter. LOL- she said some other funny shit to her parents(the stuff you normally never ever would) w/o out even blushing! It was great fun. She cracks me up! Its no wonder i love her. We camped out on my brothers property which is 10 acres surronded by 180 acres of federal land, up in northern MI, its in the middle of NOWHERE. If you didn't know where you were going, you would never find it. So anyway, there is no electric or water yet. There is a very creepy outhouse, but I prefer the great outdoors- as does chicken. She announced that she had to pee, and off she went to find a spot. Hubs and I were just getting in to our sleeping bags, and we hear "ooowwwiieeeee! Ouch! FUCK! It burns! ouch. owie FUCK!" So I grab the flash light to go see what's wrong w/ my friend. And I see her bare ass jumping up and down, trying to pull up her pants and about tripping, along w/ more cursing. I'm trying my hardest at this point not to piss myself or fall down, b/c I think this is the funniest thing I have ever seen! Turns out she got stung 3 times!!! There are hornets up there that make thier burrows in the ground. In her infinite find a spot to pee wisdom, she pissed right in the hornets burrow. LOLLOLOLOL! How likely is that? Oh, and she was lucky w/ the stinging- one on her toe, one on her ring finger, and the other was on her thumb. And later in the evening still, she somehow fell on a concrete slab and just about broke her ass. She was in rough shape sunday morning, but the joke possibilities were endless. lol- I wish you could have seen her trying to sit down. So flippn' funny. So yeah, it was a good time. I don't get to see her as much as I would like to, so it was the best ever to spend almost a whole weekend hanging out.
Today is a sad day. Time to close the pool. That's always a bummer, b/c it means my least favorite season will be here soon. Friggn' winter. Winter in MI is even worse- I'm about an hour from Lake Michigan, so we get the fantastic "lake effect" snow. I wonder how bad it will be this year. It was freezing last winter, w/ tons of snow and ice. Its a bit early to be guessing about the damn snow, but that's what closing the pool makes me think of. Did you relize that there are only 3 months of 2005 left?? Unreal. It certainly goes too fast, especially the warm, relaxing, fun, and carefree days of summer :)

Thursday, September 01, 2005

oh katrina

I have been reading and watching the reports all day. I feel sick now. All those people, right here, in our country, refugee's. Have you seen the news? The pictures of the lethargic babies- families that have been seperated, the people that are dying? Oh my gosh. What is going on down there? How come those people are still there? Why isn't our government getting them out? Some of them, thieving bastards. Not the folks that are stealing to survive, but those other crazy bastards. Who needs a new TV or DVD player now? What do those assholes plan on doing w/ their new TV? That just makes me sick. People being raped, beaten- that has NOTHING to do w/ survival. Those POS's can stay there and rot- but the rest, save them already! I can't sleep tonight b/c I keep seeing those images in my mind. Pray for those folks- donate if you can.

Extra Points for my Hubs :D

I think he finally gets it. Maybe he is finally HEARING me, not just watching my lips move. Last night, around 9 I said that I needed to run out and get milk, and gatoraid. He says "oh, i can go do that." Me "what? really? Wow, that'd be great. " NO WAY. He NEVER does stuff like that. Sweet, made my whole night better. Then today, I called him to ask about plans for tonight. One of my gf's called and wanted to know if I was availible for dinner later. He said that he was planning on staying up north to cut wood. I was upset, not b/c I couldn't go out, but because he never mentioned it to me that he wasn't coming home from work till 9 ish. But, ok, I wasn't going to make an issue out of it, other than to say that I wished he would have mentioned it earlier. We have plans to go camping this weekend, and he was going to see about taking tomarrow off of work. So I asked him about that while we were talking. He said he prly could, but that he didn't think that he wanted to, and I could just meet him up north when the kids and I get up there. That upset me, b/c that means that i would have to do all of the packing, not just clothes for all of us, but all the camping equipment as well, time it right so I can nurse the baby so she isn't fussy in the car, and then hang out in holiday weekend traffic on our tore up free ways for 3 hrs, by myself w/ screaming kids i'm sure. How about NO. I told him that I was hoping he could be home to help out w/ packing and kids- 4 days of camping w/ 2 little kids AND and infant= lots of shit! And its rustic- there is not electricity, or bathrooms- all about nature. So, if that's the case, I really have no desire to go. Anyway, phone call ended, and my mom brought home Avery(she kept her over night ) and she was a BRAT. You know how grandparents are, let them stay up all night, and eat sugar, then bring them home at thier worst. She actually for real gave her cookies for breakfast-you can imagine the state she was in. Add that to my mounting frustration w/ the overwhelming things that I need to accomplish today, including groceries, laundry, house work, naps, picking up Max and dropping him off at school, and no hubby till 9 at night- I was bummed. But then, a mircle came my way. My hubs called me back and said that he would be home earlier enough for me to go out w/ my friends, and he would take the day off tomarrow! What?! Who are you and what did you do w/ my hubs???? YES! Yeeehaw. He thought of me first. And not because he has his own agenda, but he heard me, and wanted to please me, and make me happy. I can assure you that he will be handsomely(sp?) rewarded for that :D It will be a fantastic evening in the blue household for sure :)