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I'm a happily married mom of 3! I recently rejoined the work force after 8 years of being a SAHM. Now I'm REALLY trying to figure it out. Finding my balance w/ my family, my job, housework, school stuff, extra stuff, and maintain some sort of social life.. Nearly impossible.

Monday, August 29, 2005

How about those VMA's?? I thought that it was a pretty good show. I'm not really into hip hop/rap, but I loved Kanye West/Jamie Foxx performance. I like that song. And when did Jamie Foxx get hot? I must have missed that somewhere. Yum. Alicia Keys has gross lookin' boobies. Maybe its just that style of 70's halter top thing/no bra that make them look nasty. Anyway. We had a good weekend. We went to an "end of summer" party and had a great time. Played some poker, I lost, AGAIN. We went to a panio bar w/ some friends on Friday night.
That place is awesome, we had a really good time. And yesterday, our baby was baptised. We had all of our friends and family over afterwards for a cookout. The weather was perfect, and it was really nice to spend time w/ the people we love. But w/ all of the activity we had going on, it was crazy busy around here. I was pooped last night. Then Hubs and I got into it. Yuck. I can't stand it when we have issues. And the thing is, is they are all small issues, but b/c they are not dealt with, those small things get bigger. It just sucks. I'm getting sick of being ignored. He says that he wants to make things better and talk about it, but when I say this is what's wrong, he tells me that that's not how it went, or thats not what happened, or he has every reason in the world that how he acted/responded/or whatever was completely appropriate. And he's sincere, its not like he's being a jerk, he just CAN'T see it from my point of view. So I drop it. Then somehting happens again, and I say this is what's bothering me, and he just basically says i'm wrong, or this is the reason, and that's suppose to make me feel better. So then I get pissed and say " each time I try and tell you what's bothering me, you immeadiatly shoot me down. You always tell me i'm wrong" And right away he says " I do not." So there you have it. He just did it AGAIN. Maybe I'm being a bitch, but I need to feel validated, and listening to him make excuses is not doing it for me. Just b/c I'm not throwing a fit does not mean that I'm not still upset about it. It sucks. I don't khnow what to do about it. I'm beginning to think that its time for a meadiator of some sort. We'll see what happens now. :(

Wednesday, August 24, 2005

Kindergarten




Here they are. They didn't post them in the order I wanted, but there they are anyway. Proud boy pictue, one last squeeze from mama, and off in the line he goes. :( I cried my eyes out, but he didn't see. I'm excited for him. School is great, and he's such a sponge when it comes to learning. I think he'll love it, and I know I will too......eventually. My daughter starts preschool next week. One down, one to go.

If you look closely at Max's right eye, you'll notice a shiner. Guess where he got that??? From me! :( No, I didn't clock him!!! He and the baby were lying on the floor. I leaned over and picked the baby up, and while I was still in a 1/2 squat, trying to take a step, I tripped over Max. One knee hit the ground, and the other knee, got him right in the eye! OH NO! That was terrible! Poor guy. He was alright though, and thankfully, I didn't drop the baby. :D

I have some other things i was going to post, but I'm tired. And my pool has been neglected. It needs to be cleaned. We are having a party on Sunday, and I can't have any alge, or cloudy water! I'll save the rest for tomarrow!!

Today is the Day

Its finally here. My baby's first day of school. I have to bring him in 10 minutes or so... I should be having some sort of pep talk w/ him, but I'm afraid I'll cry. And besides, he's fine. He's so excited. He's got on his new cool shoes, and his batman backpack. I'll do another post later w/ pictures, after I pick up my sad mommy pieces. As long as I don't cry in front of him. Here I go... Wish me luck :`(

Monday, August 22, 2005

Love those babies....

Our weekend was really great! We had a good time, and I was able to spend lots of time w/ my hubs. I needed that. My hubs isn't a very emotional kind of guy. Or I should say he doesn't show emotion. I am the exact opposite. If I'm angry, smoke comes out of my ears, if I'm happy, you can hear me singing a mile away. And when I meet someone, its obvious if I like or dislike you right away. So it was weird when my Hubs got all emotional last night. We watched some movie that got him thinking about his relationship w/ the kids. Our son starts kindergarten this week, and it got to him. He was kind of sad thinking that our oldest child is starting school, and maybe he hasn't spent the last 5 yrs w/ him as best he could. Maybe he isn't a "good enough" dad. Awww. Of course he is, but we can both improve, as always. I was just very touched listening to him talk about them, and how much he loves them, and how badly he wants to shape them, and make sure above all that they know they are loved, and we've done our best w/ them and for them. It was sweet :) When I was preggos this last time(for our 3rd), we decided that that was it. I've had a really hard time w/ that. Yes, 3 is great, they are all healthy, we have a boy and 2 girls...... but it's been hard for me to get used to the idea that this is it. During our little heart to heart last night, hubs said he wants another kid. WOOHOOOOOO! My baby making days might not be over :D That's awesome. I don't want any more soon, but in a few years, sure... We will see.
My run-away-friend is suppose to be in town today. She said she wants to come by and talk... I wonder if she'll finally tell me what in the world is going on w/ her. I can hardly stand it!

Saturday, August 20, 2005

Good Morning!

I love Saturdays. Its the only day of the week that we are able to be at home w/o any obligations. I've gotten alot done this morning, which is also nice. My hubs took the kids away for a few hours this morning so I could get some things done ALL BY MYSELF! That's the best. It more than rare for me to be in my house completely alone. My favorite. I can't believe I ever bitched about being alone when I was single :) I didn't know how good I had it! lol :D
I haven't heard from my run away friend yet. Its still bothering me, but I don't want to call her. If I did the only thing I'd want to talk about is why she left, and she can't tell me yet. So I'll wait for her to call when she's free to talk.
My daughter had a NASTY temper tantrum last night. I'm always impressed and awed w/ wonder when she has one of this fits of rage. She's 3 1/2. Where does that come from? Yesterday was one of those days that I had to tell her no like a thousand times before she'd get it. Nothing irritates me more than arguing w/ a child about "no". However, if I fail to repeat myself and ignore her, she just gets louder and louDER, and LOUDER. At home I can just put her in her room, but in public places, whole 'nother story. So yeah, it was one of those days. All day. By 7-8 at night, I'd had it. So when she blatanly disobeyed me the 2nd time, she had to go to bed. She throw a fit to be had for an hour and 1/2 in her room! She kept coming out, slamming her door, screaming for hubs or I to come and talk to her. Hubs tried a few times to talk to her, then a spanking, and she STILL kept going. Unreal. We then just let her go until she got bored and gave up, and finally sleep. Phew. Sweet sleep....until.....4 fucking AM. She woke up and picked up her fit right where she left off. How in the hell can that happen. This was a first for her. Thankfully, she went back to bed w/o too much fuss. However, she was up and down a few hundred times from then until 6, when I finally just got up and turned on cartoons. I hoping today will go smoothly, and then an early bed time for her. So far so good.
I hope your weekend goes well too. Oh, and don't forget to check out the moon tonight. It is suppose to be the fullest that it will ever be in our life times.. I love the moon. Bye all

Misty

Thursday, August 18, 2005

Shady...

Man, this day has turned out to be absolute shit. For some silly reason, I've been really emotional/depressed today... Thought going out w/ hubs would make me feel better, but the baby sitter thing didn't pan out. As the day progressed, I've started to feel like ass. Damn colds. And then I watched some tv show which caused me to cry for no reason. So I thought I'd call my girlfried and feel better. SHE MOVED! WTF? And not to another neighborhood, but all they way- across-the-state. What makes this more bizarre, I talk to her every day. She and her husband have been getting thier house ready to sell, so I knew that they were planning on moving, but I thought next month. When I talked to her yesterday, she said that in inlaws were driving over to see them, to talk. The inlaws also live across the state. Noticing that that was odd, I asked her about it and she said that she couldn't talk about it yet. Ok, thats fine. Told her I would call her to check on her the next day. So today I call, she's gone. So she says she still can't talk about it, so there isn't any sort of explanation. Now I'm sad. Here moves my good friend, w/ no goodbye, and no explanation. Not only am I sad, I'm worried! I'm paranoid by nature, and I have a wild imagination. Its going to KILL me to just let my mind wander. B/c of my already emotional state, I've been crying on and off for too long now. I know I'm dumb, but ever have it where once you get on a roll, you just can't seem to quit? I have that w/ giggles to. Especially at really inapporpriate times. I'll keep you updated on that whole situation. I hope she doens't leave me in the dark too long.

Motivate Me


So its HNT... And I'm lame, so there it is.. Ta Da! My hand, and cat. Check out the bling.. I need some motivation. My house is a bit of a mess at the moment. And as much as it bugs me, I just can't seem to motivate. I thought that if maybe I could make plans for later, that that would do it. Now I'm on a mission to find a baby sitter. Hubs and I haven't had a date night in a while. I want to hang out w/ him. I miss him. We haven't spent much time together this week.
But b/c I don't have any concrete plans, I still can't seem to get it together. Maybe its b/c I'm out of Diet Coke. That stuff is like crack. Gotta have it.
I woke up feeling kind of yucky today. Stuffy head. My son seems to be feeling a little worse today too. Poor baby. I don't have anything interesting to post today, but perhaps if I'm able to locate a babysitter, I'll have lots of interesting things to post tomarrow >)

Wednesday, August 17, 2005

Much Better :)


Awwwww. She makes me sooo happy. Such a good, wonderful, beautiful baby. There so great, until they hit the toddler years :) There are alot of really great things about the toddler years too. It just continues to get cooler as they get older, but there is definately something special about a baby.

So I'm much better today. I'm feeling better, and so are the kids. It's almost lunch time and they haven't gotten on my nerves at all :) They've been very good. I love those days.

Yesterday hubs and I were talking about money. We have alot of expense's right now, so all of the xtra things can't be done. Kids need new clothes, my hair is too long, so we've been putting things off. Nothing extra. You can only do so much. But that gets frustrating, and things are really really tight. We were both upset about the added stress of all of it. Last night his parents called and asked if we wanted to come by for ice cream. Weird, but ok. So when we get there, they give us a card. In it it says "It's been a long time since you guys have stood in (our son's) place- he's starting kindergarten. Many year later (my hubs) you helped us out, paying a big chunk of your high school tuition- which we needed, and appreciated! Today, we're giving it back to you." Love, mom and dad!
Holy shit! They gave us a check for all the tuition money my hubs paid. Every year of h.s., my hubs had to pay 1/2 of his tuition. I cried. Here we were just a few hours ealier talking about how are we going to take care of all this, and now we have a check that not only will cover all our bills, and our daughters tuition for school, but we have some left to get my hair done, and new clothes for our lil' punkins. SWEET! It was a really great night.
And today, I'm off to shop :) Hope all of you are having a great day too.

misty

Tuesday, August 16, 2005

What a Day

Both of my older kids and I all have colds. Thankfully, my baby does not. I hope it stays that way! We are not suppose to get colds in the summer! What is that all about?! Because the kids have colds, they're being jerks. Of course it doesn't matter that mommy doesn't feel well, please don't yell. My daughter took something away from my son and he started yelling at the TOP of his lungs. Not words, just noise, which I find MOST annoying b/c he's 5, not 1. Which then woke up the peacefully sleeping baby. Grrrrrrrrrrr. I came down to the dungeon for some quiet, and my daughter is yelling that she needs me. I run up the stairs to the bathroom. Guess what was wrong? She's afraid to flush the toliet. Why? Sometime last week she tried to kill a bug w/ T.P. and then flush it. She put WAY too much TP in the toliet which caused it to over flow. So now, she's always afraid that the toliet is going to "throw up" on her. Kind of funny, but now I'm over it. We've gone in the bathroom w/ her, flushed it to show her it's not going to throw up. But now she's scarred for life. My kids have been getting in to everything today! You'd think that b/c they are not feeling well, they'd be sleepy or something. I've found puddles of water in 3 different places today. Not sure what that's all about, and no one did it. Doggone I didn't do it ghost. I was putting some dishes away, and a wine glass fell from the sky and shattered all over the place, throwing glass up all over my legs! No injurys. But I nearly injured one of my kids when they kept coming in the kitchen when I was trying to clean it up. For some reason the threat of possibly cutting thier foot wide open was too much of a temptation to stay away. So my mean mommy voice came out. "DON'T COME IN HERE AGAIN OR I AM GOING TO BEAT YOU!!" Yes, I actually said that. I can't believe it either. My poor kids. I wonder when they'll pull that one back out. Church or maybe school. "My mommy said she was going to beat me." Mom of the Year moment right there. *sigh*
In other news, Hubs and I started reading a really great book together. Its called Sheet Music by Dr. Kevin Leman. It's really good. Oh crap. Now that I turned on the bold, I can't turn it off. Whatever. Anyway, its about uncovering the secrets on intamacy in marriage. It covers all sorts of things that I was unaware of. Its not just a "how too" manual, but so much than that. It goes into baggage, and how to make sex more of an all day afair. When I have more time, i'll put up some interesting stuff that I've found in this book up.
My nasty children are screaming again. Time to go for now!

misty

Monday, August 15, 2005

SAHM's

I was reading The Odd Wife's blog earlier, and for some reason, I can't comment on it which I find extremely annoying, so I decided just to post my comments here on my blog. Anyway, seems there have been some discussions of career moms vs. stay at home moms. TOW is a career mom and made a comment on another blog about how SAHM's have the dream life that she would like to have, and how we have it made. I do agree, we do have it made. I'm greatful and thankful that my hubs and I can live on one salary. Its hard sometimes, and we cut alot of corners but its worth it. Even if I did choose to work, I would only be working to have my 3 kids in daycare. Do you guys know what it costs to put 3 kids in daycare?? Its more than a mortgage payment. I think all moms have had this discussion. It can go either way. One of my career mom friend had said something to me along the lines of "What DO you do all day? Don't you sit around watching soaps all day?" I WISH. Not at all. This has become a crazy full time job for me. I have very little time to sit during a day. And even if I do sit, I generally have 3 kids hanging off of me. There is no alone time, or sick days, ever. Just before the birth of our first child, we decided that I would quit my job. It was a really hard decision for me. I loved my job! But I didn't want someone else to raise my baby. At first, to be honest, it SUCKED! I HATED IT. It was so hard. I was used to being w/ people all day, doing something important, getting pats on the back. And then I was alone w/ this little guy, I thought I was doing everything wrong, I was alone all the time, my hubs was working really long hours, and I completely forgot how to manage my time. I was also suffering from postpartum depression. But then I found a moms group, and it saved me. I began to really enjoy my baby. Then I had another, and another. And though there are some days that are really really hard, I know I'm fourtante, and wouldn't want to change it for the world. I thought that as my kids got older, that things would be less busy for me. Not true at all. I think the older they get, the busier it gets. They get more activites, and there are endless oppurtunitys for me to get involved with. Its a different world here. Hubs and I get into it on occasion b/c he thinks that he works harder than I do, which physically he does. But emtionally, and mentally I think my job is harder. The entire responsibility of the household rests on me. If I don't cook, no one eats. If I don't do the laundry, nothing is clean. If I don't give the kids a bath, they stay dirty. We moms have very difficult jobs as well, and a little appreciation goes along way. Still, I love staying at home w/ my kids, and I would not change it. I think all mothers, if they have the oppurtunity, should stay home. After you get used to it, there's nothing better.

Saturday, August 13, 2005

I'm soooooo tired!

I'm whooped today! Up too late last night, up too early today. The shower went really well today. I didn't get everything I wanted to do done, but it went great anyway. I made this apple enchalada(sp) stuff that was the bomb, and easy too! Nice. I'm going to bed super early tonight, and sleeping as late as I can tomarrow. We have a family get together tomarrow, but until that time, i'm doing as little as absolutely possible. My kids are going to be gone for a few hours tomarrow morning. My parents are picking them up to go see Charlie and the Chocolate Factory. I hope it doesn't scare them. Have you seen previews for that new silly animated Tim Burton movie? Or is it Wes Craven? Johnny Depp is in that as well. He marries a ghost or something? WTF is that? Enough all ready. I'm sure there be long ass lines waiting for that one to open up. Psych. lol. psych. I love that word. I'm trying to make it come back. lol. There you go folks, word of the week. Please implemente it asap :) I need spell check on this thing. The mosiquitos up here in the great lakes are TERRIBLE this year. I'm covered w/ them, and I haven't been outside w/o bug spray too much. I have one right between my boobs that's killin' me. And on my toe. And right by my armpit. Weird spots... maybe that's why there in those spots. I need to be more percise w/ the stinky spray stuff. till later...

blue

Friday, August 12, 2005

Yuck...

So its late late late Friday night.. I'm usually in bed hours before now. I decided it would be a great idea to play cards, and drink beer... Bad bad bad idea!! It was fun, for a little while. Cards were fun, but I lost. I did not lose out on the bud light. I haven't had more than a beer or 2 at once in 1 yr and 1/2, at least. What did I do, you may ask?? I drank 6 beers! BAD IDEA. So here I sit w/ a stomach ache and hiccups.. Trying to pump out the toxic milk. I'm still nursing and all, so now I have to go thru the hassel of pumping and dumping. I don't think I'll go on this sort of binge again for quite some time. I did giggle much more than usual, but really. 6? Not so good for me :) Hope your weekends are shaping up nicely as well!!

misty

I think its fixed!



I think my computer is fixed.. I'm going to try and upload some pictures of my kids... we'll see if it works... Yay!! It did work. My daughter was being a stinker, she refused to look at me and smile. But as you see, my other 2 had no issues w/ smiling! Happy kids. My son LOVES his baby sister. In my post from earlier, I said something about odd looking people. lol. We were at the mall last week, leaving, and the guy that held the door open for us: Really tall, leather pants, leather trench coat w/ saftey pins in the middle holding it together, leather cowboy hat, black eye make-up in swirls around his eyes, and really long chains haning from his pants. LOL. You should have SEEN my kids faces! LOL. They stopped dead in thier tracks w/ their chins on the floor. My son thought that he was some bad guy super hero of sorts. It was a good teaching moment for me to tell them that just b/c someone looks different, doesn't mean that they're bad, or that something is wrong w/ them. But the look on thier faces was truely priceless. Anyway, enjoy your weekend!

blue

Its Friday!

Hi Friends,
I've missed you. My computer is still being a dick, but someone is suppose to come and look at it tomarrow! I'm playing poker tonight, and if I win, I'm so buying a new computer! I'm sick of this broken one.
I had to go to a funeral yesterday :( My very good friend's mother passed away. It was really beautiful, as far as funerals go. She will be missed. I have never been to a funeral that was not religious. If your not a religious person, what kind of funeral do you have??
I've been busting my ass cooking today. I really would like to take a nap. None for me. I'll be glad when this shower is over. I'll be glad when all of this wedding business is over too.
So there's this guy that I used to hang out w/ before I was married, and he's been emailing me recently. He knows that I'm happily married, and all about my kids. He is a single guy w/ kids. He wants to get together w/ our kids sometime and catch up. hmmmm. I don't about that. And when I say hang out, we didn't really... We were never friends or anything.. We just new each other, um, at night kinda. lol. Whatever, you know what I mean. (blush blush). Anyhow, it seems weird to me. Do you think I'm just paranoid? I might be. I've become quite the basket case since I've had kids. I never used to have fears of anything. I lived in the middle of the ghetto, I loved talking to strangers, odd looking folks never bothered me, i never locked my doors... And since I've had kids, I've decided that world is full of bad people out to hurt each other or more specifically, me and my kids, and I'm a hypochrondriact(sp?) as well. What is it about kids that changed my views so much? Have any of you experienced this?
I have so more pictures to post, but my F*n computer freezes each time I try to up load them, so I hope on monday I can do that.

Hope your weekend is the best ever!

blue

Wednesday, August 10, 2005

Hello

What was I doing 10 years ago?
1995....I was just a juinior in H.S. I suppose I was having a fantastic time being care free, and drinking excessive amounts of beer

What was I doing 5 years ago?
2000...That’s easy, I became a mom for the first time in March of that year.

What was I doing 1 year ago?
Just found out I was preggos w/ my 3rd and final baby. We were so excited b/c we had been trying for almost 2 yrs.

What was I doing yesterday?
I had some girlfriends and their kids over to go swimming. Played in the pool all afternoon.

What am I doing today?
Cleaning my house! Playing w/ my kids, going to go grocery shopping, and then off to Target to get a new life jacket and diapers.

Five snacks I enjoy:
Popcorn, gornola bars, apples, graham crackers, grapes.

Five bands I like:
Creed, Pearl Jam, Nsync(i know, shut up), The Doors, The Wiggles... ( I don't really like them, but I listen to them the most often)

Five things I would do with a million dollars:
Pay off our house, buy a vacation home, pay for all 3 kids education, do what ever my lil' heart desires, pay off our parents homes

Five locations I would like to run away to:
France, Alaska, a cabin in the mountains, somewhere hot and sexy, vegas

Five bad habits:
eat when i'm bored, procrastanate, impatient, i cuss when i'm angry, and i don't make my bed until I'm ready to get in it. I can't stand twisted sheets!

Five things I like doing:
reading, camping, hanging out w/ friends, playing w/ my kids, rollerblading

Five TV shows I like:
I don't really watch tv, but I love american idol when it's on, and I watch that Nanny show on occasion.

Five famous people I would like to meet:
There isn't anyone I'd particularly like to meet for any reason... Just to throw out some names, and fill in the blank, I'll say, President Bush, John Travolta, Oprah,... I can't think of anyone else at the moment.. I'll add more later.

Biggest joys in my life at the moment:
My husband and kids. I'm still amazed each morning when I wake up that this is my life, and these beautiful people are my family.

Five favorite toys:
Dirt bikes, computer(when it isn't being a bastard), camara, cell phone, silver bullet. lol. shock value :)

Five people to tag: I don't really know 5 people on here yet that haven't been tagged, but I'll do my best.. Viper, Monkey, Chicken, Anti-wife, and Chuck.

There you have it folks.. So not interesting, but its finished! By the way, my hubs quit smoking again, w/o me nagging him.. Keep your fingers crossed!

blue

Tuesday, August 09, 2005

I don't like my computer!

I am having a hard time w/ this p.o.s computer! It kept freezing up so I dnld some updates that I needed, ran some anti-virus software... Now my computer is all ****** up! Oh what to do... No time for me to figure it out now. I think my kids need to be seperated for a while. Maybe they're just sick of each other. I'd say 85% of the time, they're best friends, and the other 15% worst enemy's. But the last few days, its been the other way around, which makes me a grumpy mommy. I'm not enjoying being around them right now. I don't like feeling like that. Do you ever have those days? Where you feel like your kids are the worst ever, and your doing nothing but repeating yourself all day? I'm sick of the sound of my voice. How many times in one day can you say"stop it. get down. don't hit your brother. time out. this is your last warning. no. don't. i SAID NO" blah. you think that they would get tired of it as well and behave themselves. I think its nap time. Or maybe mommy needs a time out :) or maybe mommy needs a few margarita's. Now we're talking.....
I'm having a wedding shower for one of my friends this weekend. I have so much to do! I'm the most unorganized person in the world. Why I voulenteer for this crap is beyond me! I have a ton of stuff to get ready. There are 50 women coming to my house! ahhhhhahhhahhaahhhh! I wanted to have it outside, so i'm hoping it won't rain. Why is it that I always feel obligated to make my house shiny clean when strangers are coming over? Or anyone really? Is that some weird thing my mother brainwashed me with? Not that my house is disgusting by any means, but whenever I have company coming, I go out of my way to clean really silly shit that no one would probably notice anyway. Its a normal thing to make sure the dishes are done and bathrooms are clean, but I get crazy about it. And then my family fears me. lol. When the house is clean, no one is allowed to touch ANYTHING. No, you can't play in your room, go outside. What do you mean, your taking a shower!? lol. It's not that bad, but you get my point.
You know what I really want to do??? Drink too much and play Texas Hold Em'. I haven't drank too much in years(i'm not kidding), and I haven't played poker in almost a month...
Anyway, I've been tagged, which i think means I have to fill out this thing and post it on my blog. I'll do that either tonight or tomarrow :) Until then lovelys, have a great day!

blue

Monday, August 08, 2005

UGH!

Good Morning. I'm crabby this morning :( My kids are being so naughty!!!! We've only been up for an hour and a half, and they are already chasing me around, making mess', and fighting w/ each other! Grrrrr. AND, I wanted to put up some pictures this morning, but the camara is in my car... Not usually a big deal, just go and get it. I would BUT I can't find my damn keys! And of course none of my kids, or my hubby has touched them. Oh, did I mention that my dishwasher puked? Every now and then I get overwhelming urges to lock myself in the bathroom and swear. I'm sure that the afternoon will go better than the morning. It better, or I think my hair will fall out. Till later...

blue

Sunday, August 07, 2005

What fun was had :)

Hello! It is not yet 9 pm, and my whole famliy is sleeping.. ahhh.. do you hear it? Slience. That, I've found, is one of the best sounds in the world. We had a great time camping this weekend. All of my brother and sister in laws, my parent in laws, and all of our nieces and nefews were there. We do this wknd camping trip every summer, and we all look fwd to it. We stayed at this really nice campground. It had a million things to do for the kids, and lots for us grown ups too. Unfourtuantly, the owners were total assholes, so we won't go back. I don't know if we caught them on an off weekend or what, but they were so rude! Just an example, (one of many), one of our nefews rode his bike up to the b-room, and left his bike on the sidewalk. This security guy picked it up and chucked it in the gravel! My s-i-l saw this, and asked "why would you do that?" His reply "If you don't like it, don't come back!" Holy shit, can you believe that? So, if any of you are ever in MI, do NOT go to Snow Lake Kampground! If we were to have other options, we would have left, but we didn't, and some of us came from other states for this weekend :( Other than the nasty workers, we did manage to have a nice time. My proudest moment of the weekend??!!! My son learned to ride his bike w/o training wheels!! I'll dnld some pics tomarrow so you can check him out. So awesome! My hubs only ran behind him once! He just took off! He's so big. He has grown by leaps and bounds this summer. Just in time for kindergarten. . Three more weeks till he's off to school.
My baby's scheduel got all jacked up from camping. She started waking up in the middle of the night again. >( I was hoping we were passed that. or is it past? anyway. Lol. I've been retarted all day, must be from all of the sun. I was amazing hubs w/ my verbal skills and car dancing earlier. He's a good sport, just smiles and nods - even though i know i'm embarrising him. What's life w/o some good fun? Speaking of hubs, the smoking war is over, for now. I can't be mad forever. As much as I'd like to stay pissed, I like him too much :D He won't do it around me, and hopefully, will give it up soon all on his own.
Is there an easier way for me to respond to all of your comments? I've just been going back to others blogs and leaving a thx message. Is there another way?? Talk to you all soon again.

blue

Friday, August 05, 2005

WOOHOOOOO

All hail Monkey!!! Thanks again for all of your help! She helped me figure stuff out w/ this blogger thing that I would have never managed on my own! I was about ready to throw my friggin' computer out the window. Man, do I feel better now... Thanks there babes!

It's Friday!

Good morning all... So its finally Friday. This week took F O R E V E R!! We are going camping for the weekend w/ all of my hubs brother & sister & kids, and his parents. There are 29 of us. Its always fun, and we look fwd to it every year. We've been camping one weekend every summer together for the last 6 yrs. The kids have a blast hanging out w/ all of thier cuzns for the weekend. I should have some good pictures to put up on Monday :) So today I have to bust my ass getting everything packed (including hubs stuff, he never packs for himself), and I have to clean the house. I cannot stand going away for a vacation, or a weekend and coming home to a messy house! That's the worst. So I'm hoping all of my lovely's will be good today!
Hubs and I had a fight last night. I'm still pissed. This is where marriage gets hard. When the 2 of you do not agree at all, how do you just get past it and move on, without bitterness or resentment? I have a hard time doing that. I should tell you something about Hubs first, I haven't talked about him at all yet. We've been married for nearly 6 yrs now. We have a great relationship. He's one of those guys, that's just decent, and always honest. He works very hard, and is an awesome daddy. That being said... UGH! I used to be a smoker, as did he. About a year and 1/2 ago, hubs said it thought that we needed to quit. They're expensive, health reasons, and if the parents smoke, kids are 95% more likely to light up as well. Which i should add, we never smoked in our house, and I never smoked while preggos or nursing. Anyway, I didn't really want to. I for one enjoyed a fabulous smoke w/ a good cup of coffee.. mmmmm.. I knew though that he couldn't do it on his own. So we did it. Quit. It was terrible!! I suffered and cried for 2 weeks b/c I wanted one soooo bad. But I made it. A few months later, I found out I was pregnant! Woohoo! We were so excited b/c we had desperately wanted a 3rd child and had a terribly difficult time conceiving, so then it was easy for me not to light up again. And then hubs started again. I was pissed. He said he would quit again, by the time our baby was born. Whatever. So, baby is born, he's still smoking.. I wasn't nagging him, but I was begining to boil under the surface. I waited patiently, and he did it! He quit again. YES! So I've been really good about praising him, supporting him, and encouraging him. Low and behold, after 2 months, he started up AGAIN! We had this talk and he was saying how hard it was to not smoke, how it thought about it everyday, blah blah blah. I do too. Even after a year and ahalf, I still crave it, but I choose not too. It would be nice if I could give in to something when I had an urge also, but that's not how things get done. I thought telling him that if he was going to smoke, so was I would make him not want to. Wrong! He went and bought a pack of my favorite brand and gave them too me! WHAT? I was really tempted. I wondered if that was how Adam had felt in the Garden? Anyway, fast fwd to last night. It has been a week since the pack of smokes incident. I want him to quit. NOW already. I haven't been hounding him, or nagging him, but I've been upset about it. He says that he's going to try and quit. But how is smoking 1/2 pack a day trying? I don't get it. If your going to quit, then stop picking them up! We do not at all agree on this subject, and I don't know how to get past it, and just be fine w/ him as a smoker. I don't know how to accept that, and not at all be bitter. I really just want to be pissed until he quits. In marriage, how do you decide who wins?

Help Please!

How do I add links of other sites to my blog?? And it won't let me add pictures today! Curse and SWEAR. Damnit!

Thursday, August 04, 2005

Phew...


K, this isn't how I invisioned putting picture on here, but this will work.. This is my newest baby.. Isn't she cute? Well, right :D I'll put some up of my other kids as soon as I can take a picture of them together when they aren't pulling faces, or refusing to smile..

AHHHHHHH

HELP! How in the world do I add stuff? Like pictures, and links, and other what nots???

My First Post

So this is my very first ever post! I'm new to blogging, and addicted. So, my name is Blue. I'm happily married w/ 3 kids. I'm a stay at home mom, and need an outlet. My kids are 5, 3, and 3 months, and great as they might be, they drive me CRAZY! My mission w/ this blog is to get it all out. I need a place to bitch. Not only bitch, but talk about my kids, my family, and my daily short comings, as I try and figure it all. I've got issues, and am looking fwd to sloving them w/ the help of cyberspace. I'm not very computer saavy, and I can't spell to save my ass, so I might need a little assitance every now and again.
I titled this blog "mom of the year" b/c I'm so NOT. My mom of the year moments happen when I completely lose it, which I do on occasion. My biggest challange at the moment is my 3 1/2 yr old daughter. The dreaded "middle child". She's always been somewhat of a fire cracker, but since the birth of my 3rd child, also a girl, she has been OUT OF THIS WORLD naughty. Not w/ other people, but w/ me. Her favorite thing to say to me now is "NO", "I don't want to" and "Your a mean mommy!" It's rough. I'm sure its b/c of the new baby, and i've been trying to spend one on one time w/ her, praising her all the time..... it doesn't seem to help. Time outs are no longer working, spankings have never worked for her, taking things away only bothers her for a minute... Then what? How do you raise a child as strong willed as she is, to be an upstanding citizen? I thought people that had bratty kids were rotten parents who didn't discipline... K, that's not me. So now what? All for now.. I've got a PILE of laundry calling my name..

till later
blue