It's Friday!

Good morning all... So its finally Friday. This week took F O R E V E R!! We are going camping for the weekend w/ all of my hubs brother & sister & kids, and his parents. There are 29 of us. Its always fun, and we look fwd to it every year. We've been camping one weekend every summer together for the last 6 yrs. The kids have a blast hanging out w/ all of thier cuzns for the weekend. I should have some good pictures to put up on Monday :) So today I have to bust my ass getting everything packed (including hubs stuff, he never packs for himself), and I have to clean the house. I cannot stand going away for a vacation, or a weekend and coming home to a messy house! That's the worst. So I'm hoping all of my lovely's will be good today!
Hubs and I had a fight last night. I'm still pissed. This is where marriage gets hard. When the 2 of you do not agree at all, how do you just get past it and move on, without bitterness or resentment? I have a hard time doing that. I should tell you something about Hubs first, I haven't talked about him at all yet. We've been married for nearly 6 yrs now. We have a great relationship. He's one of those guys, that's just decent, and always honest. He works very hard, and is an awesome daddy. That being said... UGH! I used to be a smoker, as did he. About a year and 1/2 ago, hubs said it thought that we needed to quit. They're expensive, health reasons, and if the parents smoke, kids are 95% more likely to light up as well. Which i should add, we never smoked in our house, and I never smoked while preggos or nursing. Anyway, I didn't really want to. I for one enjoyed a fabulous smoke w/ a good cup of coffee.. mmmmm.. I knew though that he couldn't do it on his own. So we did it. Quit. It was terrible!! I suffered and cried for 2 weeks b/c I wanted one soooo bad. But I made it. A few months later, I found out I was pregnant! Woohoo! We were so excited b/c we had desperately wanted a 3rd child and had a terribly difficult time conceiving, so then it was easy for me not to light up again. And then hubs started again. I was pissed. He said he would quit again, by the time our baby was born. Whatever. So, baby is born, he's still smoking.. I wasn't nagging him, but I was begining to boil under the surface. I waited patiently, and he did it! He quit again. YES! So I've been really good about praising him, supporting him, and encouraging him. Low and behold, after 2 months, he started up AGAIN! We had this talk and he was saying how hard it was to not smoke, how it thought about it everyday, blah blah blah. I do too. Even after a year and ahalf, I still crave it, but I choose not too. It would be nice if I could give in to something when I had an urge also, but that's not how things get done. I thought telling him that if he was going to smoke, so was I would make him not want to. Wrong! He went and bought a pack of my favorite brand and gave them too me! WHAT? I was really tempted. I wondered if that was how Adam had felt in the Garden? Anyway, fast fwd to last night. It has been a week since the pack of smokes incident. I want him to quit. NOW already. I haven't been hounding him, or nagging him, but I've been upset about it. He says that he's going to try and quit. But how is smoking 1/2 pack a day trying? I don't get it. If your going to quit, then stop picking them up! We do not at all agree on this subject, and I don't know how to get past it, and just be fine w/ him as a smoker. I don't know how to accept that, and not at all be bitter. I really just want to be pissed until he quits. In marriage, how do you decide who wins?