Happy Holidays!!

My goodness! It HAS been awhile. Much too much happening in the blue house. I switched to the 'new' blogger today, and it took f o r e v e r! So now, I'm out of time. I'm so impressed w/ my crafty self, I took of picture of my Christmas cookie creation. Love it! I know you do. I'll be back, when I have some more time!!

xoxox

blue

go figure.

We had a really great weekend w/ hubs family. J wouldn't sleep on Friday night though, at all. That was terrible. I was ready to go home around 4 am. Hubs talked me into to staying though, and I'm glad I did. When she was up and running around, she was in the best mood ever, go figure. Weird baby. She didn't want to take a nap on Saturday either, so we let her play. She fell asleep, old man style. Sitting straight up, in a big chair. She was doing that head drop to the side thing. I had to yell out for hubs to catch her, before she fell on her head. She slept for about 10 minutes then. I put her in the car that night around 730, and drove around till she fell asleep. She slept all night long. Thank Goodness!
We left the hotel at noon on sunday, ran home and put the kids down for a 2 hr nap. Got them up, dropped them off at my gf's house, and went bowling. I bowled terrible! Seems like I'm getting worse every week now, instead of better. booooooo. From bowling, we picked up the kids, brought them home, got ready, and took off again, leaving the kids w/ a sitter. We went to our friend's christmas party. They were having a casino night for their party, so I was the horse race wheel spinner, and hubs was a card dealer. That was fun! We had a good time.
I was soooo tired when we got home last night, I couldn't wait to crawl into my own bed. I never sleep well other places. I didn't want to get up this morning, for anything. It was wicked hard dragging my ass out of bed and getting my kids up and ready for school. Ugh. I was feeding J a bowl of cerel, and I'm not at all sure what I did, like I said, I was dog tired-anyway, whatever I did, caused the bowl of COLD cerel I was holding, to completely flip over, and land ALL OVER ME! Including my face and head. WTF? The bowl of cerel wasn't even that big! That got me up and moving for sure. I hardly had time to jump in the shower before running out the door.
The rest of this week is going to be busy as ever. The week before Christmas, Ave's bday, christmas parties. Tonight we have a bday party to go to, tomorrow is ave's actual bday, wed is my work Christmas party (12-5pm btw, wtf? who does that), Thursday is the kids last day of school, Friday out w/ friends, restful saturday, annul christmas eve party w/ friends and kids on sunday, and MONDAY is christmas! My word, its going to be insane. Have I mentioned that my family (all of them) are coming for christmas day? Pssshhhh. You know what that means. In the midst of all this insanity, I have to keep my house in order, wrap a million presents, and cook an ass load of food. Ahhh!! I'm going to need a very long break when this week is over.
And here is my biggest go figure moment. Remember I lost my damn camera? And my very thoughtful hubby JUST gave me a new one, what, 4 days ago?? Yep, found it today. I was cleaning out cupboards, ones I've already checked for the stupid camera. And there it was. Ha! That's just the way life goes, isn't it? Go out of the house looking awful, run into your first love, or the boyfriend that jilted you the worst, or perhaps, buy something new to replace something broken or lost, the old thing will be fixed or found. lol. Funny funny.
Tomorrow my girl will be 5. Snif snif. Time is slipping away from me. My babies are growing, and becoming so independent. Happy and sad, all at the same time :) Oh, and some pictures for you, from my NEW camera!! woot woot!

C R A B B Y

Here are a few pictures of me and my fantastic girlfriends being very silly. We were having a heck of a good time the other night :) I'm hoping those pics will inspire me today. I'm super-duper effin crabby! Geesh. I wish my period would just get here already, so my moods will level out. I went to Target this morning to pick up some things, and J screamed through the whole dog gone store. I wanted to throw her. I have lots of things to do today. I have 2 loads of laundry to fold, find a mysterious odor that's floating in my house, bake 4 doz cookies, 2 doz cupcakes, and my normal everyday cleaning crap. Bah! I must also get to the grocery store, and wrap a few more presents. We have our hotel weekend this weekend, w/ hubs family for christmas. I'm looking forward to going, but not forward to all the stuff I need to take care of before I get there. booooooo. hisssss. I'm hoping my crabby-ness will disappear as I start accomplishing all that needs to be done. I certainly hope so. I don't even like hanging out w/ myself when I feel this way. Ick.

I'm still here...

Here's a picture of me and my son at the fabulous Bounce Party. He refuses to get a hair cut at the moment. He wants to grow it out. I'm sure it'll be great when it gets long, but for now, ick. This picture was taken this past Sunday. SPEAKING of pictures!! Guess What!! My fantastic hubby bought me a new camera! I'm still learning how to use it, but as soon as I figure it all out, I'll be posting MILLIONS of pictures. I'm so excited!! The camera is actually a Chrismas present, but he thought I'd like it early w/ all of the parties and what not we have coming up. Yay! Its very nice.
Not much new is happening over here. Kids are good. I'm good. Hubs is good. hm. I suppose I could tell you about lots of stuff, but I'm just not in the mood for it. Just a picture for you today :)

Adventures and Potty Training

It's been an interesting week around here. Friday night I went to a spa party deal w/ my friend Carmen. My feet are super soft now. Yay! After the spa, we played Bunko for the first time. Have you ever heard of Bunko? Its a silly mindless dice game, that seems to be a stay at home mom thing to play. I wasn't sure if I'd like it or not, but it was fun! I did indeed enjoy myself. As did Carmen, she won! Loser :) We didn't get done playing Bunko till nearly 11, and became inspired to go pick up our other friend, hootie, and go get a beer. We went to our normal place, bummed into some friends, good times all around. There is a guy that we've been talking to for a while now, and somehow, we started talking about bowling- being that its one of my great loves these days. He is also a bowler, not only that, but he owns the bowling alley across from our watering whole. He said anytime I wanted to practice, or get some tips, to come on over. By this time, its at least 130am. I thought that bowling right then, would be perfect. We went bowling! At 2 am! woohoo! Thankfully, my ball was in my car, grabbed it and wandered over w/ 6 friends. The midnight game was just finshing up when we came in. Geesh, that guy looks familiar. HOLY CRAP! It's my buddy Dillion!! I haven't seen him in 2 years or more. Yay! He's just moved back home from CO. We were friends in high school, but not great friends until after we graduated. Loser didn't come to the reunion. We used to hang out all the time. Daily, up until I started dating hubs. You know what's funny, here's how little I paid attention in high school. I was Dillion's house one night, checking out his room. There was a team picture of our football team. I was like 'oh, I didn't know you played football.' The very next picture plaque on his wall says 'Dillion capt of the football team' blah blah years something or other. Ha!! How funny! Shows what I know. te he he. Anyhow, it was GREAT to see him. What are the odds of that? Bowling at 2 am and running into your long lost friend. Psssssshhha. I didn't think to call hubby when we decided to go bowling, I just figured he was sleeping or something. Oops. My phone rang at 315- he wanted to know what I was doing. 'uh, funny story babe, i'm uh, you know, bowling.' hehehe. He wasn't upset. I was super tired when I got home, and of course, no sleeping in for me. That'll teach me to bowl all damn night.

I'm a bit sad this week. I've started the process of potty-training Jade. I don't want to do it. I don't mind diapers, and its the last little bit of baby in her. She's ready. She no longer wants to keep her diaper on. As soon as she wets, she takes it off. Her choice, not mine. boooo. Ave was the same way, and actually a month younger when we started training (18 months). She was done by 21 months or something like that. It's been awhile. I can't remember what I'm suppose to do. We pulled out the little potty, bought training pants and m&m's. For now, I'm sitting her on the potty every hour and a 1/2 or so, and give her an m&m to keep her there. She wearing little panties and training pants. She looks so cute in little elmo panties :) She went pee pee on the potty yesterday, only a little bit though, like she did it on accident. I still made a big woohoooo to do about it. That was the only time though. I don't know if it'll happen or not. I'm not in a hurry, and just watching her for clues. How do you get them to relize the sensation before it happens, and give them the words to let you know? She doesn't say wet, or poo poo yet, but she for sure knows when she goes. I'm going to let her watch me and avery for the next few days, and see what happens. I'm just so sad about it. She is my very last baby. I don't want her to grow up yet. Its been too fast, too quick. I don't feel like I've enjoyed it as much, or taken as much time to savor it as I should have. So very sad. I'm crying about it now. I miss nursing, and bottles, those things have been gone for a long time now, only this little last thing remains. I feel like once she's out of diapers, she on her way to being a big kid, an all out toddler. No more my little baby. In the last 3 weeks, she's gotten out of the house, out of the crib, and now she wants out of her diapers. I'm not ready! Wait for me baby, take your time a little bit. My heart is just breaking over this. I know it prly sounds silly. I can't help it though. There are exciting things in store for our family, things we wouldn't be able to do before, or more freedom. I have such a raging need to keep this baby stage going, or have another. I LOVE being a mommy, I love to nurture them, teach them things, see them learn, nurse them, rock them..... Many of those things continue, but its just something about babies. It would not be in the best intrest for me, or my family to have another, and I won't, but it hurts. Deep inside, it hurts. Knowing I have the ability to make life, give life, and giving it up freely is painful for me. I'm so young still. I could have babies for another 15 years if I wanted. I know that I will not have more. Financially, space, time- those things are important, and we're kind of maxed out in those areas. But that urge, that overwhelming need, is hard to get rid of, or let go. I know I'll be filled w/ great joy, to see her grow, and change, and learn, become her own person, as I have w/ my other kids. I still cry on thier birthdays too. Not b/c I don't want them to age or grow, but for another year past. My baby days are ending... and I'm broken hearted about it.

Morning

Yesterday was a good day. No kid issues, for once. Everyone stayed where they were suppose to, and we had no injuries. I need to start one of those saftey chart things, like they have at factories. You know, no accidents or injuries for so many days, and if you make it, you can have a quartly pizza party. Maybe that would intice my children not to do silly things like escape the house, crib, shut fingers in doors, try to be superman.

Jade is talking so much. I absolutely LOVE this stage. Well, beside the escaping and getting into everything. It seems that every time I look at her, I can see her brain working, figuring things out, and how to express them. Its the best! We've been out of juice for a few days, so I stopped to pick some up this morning. I filled up her sippy cup, and she was sooo excited. She drank it all down, and then came running to me, saying "myyyy myyyy myyyyyyyyy". I said "do you mean MORE?" She said "yesth. yay!!!!" and clapped her hands. It was the cutest stinking thing I've ever seen. Aww. Big Girl. When I got her up, and walked into her room, she said "hi dade" w/ a huge smile. Dade would be how she says her own name. Funny that she would greet me w/ what I say to her every morning. Logical. Cute as a friggn' button I tell you. Adorable. Good reminder why I love them so desperately after a horrible week :)

I went out last night. Good Monday fun. Did a bit of kareoke. I sang 'family tradition' by Hank Williams Jr, and The Doors "touch me". woohoo! I'm a horrid singer, but that's what makes kareoke fantastic. I didn't have to drive last night, so I was able to have a few drinks. Or more than a few. Ooops. Good times all around. I have the best time w/ my gf's. I think we'd have a riot in a cardboard box even :D

My step dad is having back surgery today. Right now, actually. I hope everything goes as planned, and they do not find anything unexpected in there. He's been in terrible pain forever now, and put this off much longer than he should have. I'm not exactly sure what he's having done, something to do w/ a herniated disk, and removing a bone or something? They were unsure if there was anything else going on in there. He'll be in the hospital a few days, and then recovery is 6-8 weeks. He's a get up and go kinda guy, so its going to be tough for him to lay back for long. I feel like a douche bag for not being up there while its being done though :( When someone in our family is having surgery, generally a bunch of us show up. I should be there. Kids, naps, whatnots, just couldn't make it happen today. I'm waiting by the phone for my mom to call and let me know how things went, and hubs and I and kids will head up to the hospital to see him tonight.

Today is my first day babysitting my new little nefew!! Chicken is dropping him off in a 1/2 hour or so. I can't wait to play w/ him. He's started cooing and smiling. I'm looking forward to it.

Just another random thought. I want another tattoo. Something to include my hubs, and maybe my faith. Hubs won't let me get a tattoo w/ his name in any form. He says that just asking for trouble. I guess for some reason, when you tattoo your spouse's name anywhere on your being, you brake up, or so he thinks. I wasn't thinking anything big and tacky, maybe just smallish, and on my back somewhere. Maybe I could get something to do w/ my kids too. It has to be cute though, and smaller. B/c he won't let me use his name in any form, I'm kind of liking that bible verse " i am my beloveds, and my beloved is mine" But I don't think I'd want it written out like that. Anyone any kind of artist? Ideas??

Great Weekend!

Thanksgiving was lovely. Lots of delicious food, and family. J broke my one of my grandma's knick-knack thingy's, and cut her fingers :( Weird how that happens w/ 3 adult males in the room. Hmmmmm. She was ok though.
Friday morning, I woke up around 4am, to brave the traffic and the crowds for the best deals. MAN, did I get some good ass deals! We are trying to save $$ this Christmas, and that really helped! I'm nearly completey done shopping now. I hope to get the rest of it finished this next week. I even wrapped them already! Now If we could get our tree up.....
Saturday night was my high school reunion. It was fun! Well, not at first. At first it was lame. Interesting to see so many classmates. Most of them look exactly the same. Except the guys. Geesh. Facial hair, balding, bellies... hehe. We played some trivia games, like who won what for our senior mock elections, and what was the top selling album and movies of 1996, that sort of thing. Dinner was good. The class that graduated behind us also had their reunion that night. When the place closed down, we all went to a bar w/ the other class, and that's when the fun began. I think we should have just gone to the bar to begin with. Much less formal and stuffy. WAY more fun. I had some friends that I had lost touch with, and kind of forgotten until seeing them again. I must add that it was flippn' fantastic going w/ my new shape. I got lots of compliments, and it felt really really good. My hubs got more compliments about me than I did, which was cool as well. woohoo! I dressed up, did my hair, put make up on. I don't do that nearly often enough. Great fun!
OH, I nearly forgot to tell you of my baby girl's latest escape. Yes, she escaped again, but not out of the house this time, but her crib. I went to get her up from her nap, and she wasn't in her crib. She was sitting on Max's top bunk! Ahhh! Hard to keep her safe when I don't know she's in danger. I think I need to hire an armed securtiy gaurd to watch her while she's suppose to be sleeping. That baby is going to make my hair fall out. And, Ave shut her pinky (jade's pinky) in the door this weekend. I thought it was broken. My goodness! i was pissed! Do you remember the cat incident?? Avery knows better than to slam doors, and this time she got jade's fiinger. Grr! Thankfully, all is well. Her finger is still swollen, but I don't think broken. She's not protective of it, and she's using it.
My gosh. My children are friggn' NUTS.

Happy Thanksgiving Bitches!

You've seen this picture before, but I just felt like a little baby smile today. It's too cute not to see again :) She's such a doll baby. Escape artist.

Today has been good. Busy as always. I went to the grocery store today, MAN, what a zoo! Millions of people, lines. Ugh. I should have known better. I had to get stuff to make for my side dishes tomorrow. Mmmmm. We're going to grandma's. I'm looking forward to it. I like hanging out w/ my family. Ave wanted to bring a game for us all to play. Guess what she picked? Twister. LOL! Sweet! I can't wait to see all of the grandma and grandpa's try to play that. hahaha. I'll make Chicken take pictures to post.

We're having a big poker game tonight. We haven't had one here in forever, and I'm looking forward to it. I'm betting it'll be lots of fun. Even if I lose. I'm in such a fab mood today, I don't think anything could bring me down. Woohoo.

My friend Carmen has joined blog world. Go say hello to her. I'm sure you'll grow to love her as much as I do :) She's the best!

Enjoy your holiday! Talk to you soon bloggies :)

I went and had my hair done this morning. Ah. Much better. I was going to post this morning, but now I'm glad I didn't. I was pissed earlier! My mood lifted greatly, along w/my hair color :) Nothing went right this morning. Oh, but the good news first. Yay! My period has arrived. Woohoo! It has been consistently 5 days early for the last 3 months, up until this one, where it was 3 days late. Yikes. Glad that it's here!!!!

I had to work last night, and after work, I met up w/ some friends for a drink. When I arrived home, every light in the damn house was on. Pet peeve of mine. I hate that! Besides every light being on, including all of the lights in the basement(grrrrr), the house was t r a s h e d! The dinner I had so thoughtfully perpared ahead of time for my family, was still sitting in the crock pot, untouched. Frozen pizza box on the counter. Grr again. Hubs was sleeping on the living room floor, amongst the chaos, and the baby was crying. NOT pleasant to come home to. At. All. Both of the older kids were asleep in MY bed, also a pet peeve. I was ticked! Moved the older kids, turned off all the stupid lights, and took care of the baby, finally getting to bed myself, 45 minutes later. When hubs woke me up this morning, I let him know, in a very clam even voice might I add, that I was unhappy w/ how things were when I came home, and letting the dinner I made go to waste. He got mad at me! Yelled at me about how my dinner smelled, and how he didn't like it. FIRST of all, he didn't even try it, AND, he's had it before and liked it just fine. I of course said none of this. After he YELLED at me about my lacking culinary skills, in a normal voice, he said "have a good day." I did not respond, I was mad! So then he says 'are you going to talk to me' all pissy like, and I just said 'no', so then he stomped out of the house. Not a good way to start the morning. When he left, I got the kids up and ready for school. My son was cranky, and bitching about e v e r y t h i n g. Poking at his sisters, just being a snot. After I dropped him off at school, I ran to Target. J was fussy the whole time, and Ave asked me sooooo many rediculous questions, that I lost track. I don't think she took a breath for an hour, non stop "mom, can I have this? what are we doing later? are you going to do this? do you know what santa said? can I get this? what's that for?" and on and on and on and on and on. Finally, leaving the store, I was pulling one of those big carts, the kind that have the bench/seat thing on the front of it for older kids, and carrying Jade w/ me. The cart got stuck on the way out to the parking lot, in the last door. This very helpful lady gave the cart a push for me, but I didn't know the push was coming, and the cart hit the back of my leg, right above my heel, and peeled all my friggin' skin off! OUCH! I had to bite my lip to keep from swearing or crying. OUCH OUCH OUCH, along w/ a colorful blue streak of curses went through my head. Phew. Get the girls in the car, sit down to drive home, and OH MY GOODNESS!! I have to poop! Like right now. Oh no!! I only live 5 minutes away from the store, and there was NO WAY in HELL I wanted to venture back into that store w/ my crabby baby and never-shut-up daughter. I was really trying to concentrate on driving, quickly. Ave was getting more retarded and insistent w/ her never ending questions. I was starting to sweat. I just wanted to yell 'can you please shut up! I'm on the verge of shitting my pants here! Damn, can't a momma get a minute of peace?!?!" Praise the lord, I made it home w/o an sort of unfortuante or nasty incident. Awful. From that point on, the day got better. Good thing. I'm looking forward to getting a bunch of housework done this afternoon...

Just a side note. When I was out last night, one of my gf's was giving me a hard time, being silly. She asked for my license and registration in her best cop voice, duh, I'm sober, no worries, I'm fine. Then this old creepy guy next to her thought he'd get in on the joke, and asked me if I'd like to do a blow right now. He was referring to a blow test, but doing it in a really creepy, old man gross kind of way. Yuck! I replied 'better watch out old man before I knock out what's left of your teeth." Some people. nasty.

Also side note. My 4 yr old told my 6 yr old to shut his pie hole. Isn't that nice? Such cute children I have.

Tooth Fairy

I got to play tooth fairy for the very first time this weekend! Max lost his first tooth. Aww. He's getting so old..... It was fun trying to sneak in his room w/o waking him or Jade up. He was thrilled when he found a dollar under his pillow the next morning. He wanted 5. what? I think I only got a quater. He asked me if the tooth fairy would leave him 5 bucks. How about no. He's home from school today w/ an upset stomach. I think he's full of it! You never know though, so i let him stay home, telling him that he must lay down and rest all day. See if he wants to pull that stunt again!

Hubs is home. YAY! I missed him very much. I don't sleep well without him beside me. He didn't get a deer though, so for the next 3 weekends, off he goes :(

The weekend was good. I went to a comedy club w/ some gf's Friday night, and laughed my fool head off. Those comedians were F U N N Y! It was great to do something different than our normal. Saturday I was in bed by 10- pooped out. Yesterday went to church, then a family get together, then bowling leauge. I bowled terrible last night! I couldn't do anything right. Argh. Better luck next time.

My period is now 3 days late. Son of a bitch. I do not for any reason wish to be pregnant at this time, or ever again really. Hubs and I are careful, we use protection. We haven't had any mishaps that I can recall... I hope its just screwed up still, not that I'm pregnant. Keep your fingers crossed for me. If I am by chance, then its meant to be, but dammit, I don't wanna. I would get used to the idea, and eventually be ok w/ it. But if I had my way, I wouldn't be pregnant at all. poop. I'm going to wait until the weekend before I take a test. Hopefully before then, it will come.

Off to change a diaper, and catch up on laundry. Hope your day is as exciting as mine!

Where's My Trophy?

I called this blog mom of the year, b/c I'm soooo not. I have my best mom ever moments when I completely screw up, or lose it, which happens all the time. I'm not new at this mom thing, you'd think I'd have it figured out by now. But I don't. I'm still trying to feel my way, and figure things out. I make mistakes, all the time. I know I'm not the only one. All mom's have their moments, proud or not. Thankfully, I'm not a celebrity, so all of my mis-steps are not caught on camera for the world to see. It helps to talk about them. I had such a moment yesterday. Loser mom. At least now I know. SO- my hubs has been gone all week. Generally, when I need a shower, I'll do it before the kids wake up, or after they go to bed. Unfortunately, I wasn't able to do that yesterday. I needed a damn shower! My son was gone, but both girls were here, and awake. I've gotten it down pat, where I can be in and out of the shower in 8 minutes flat. I closed all the doors to the bedrooms and basement, and told Ave that I was going to take a quick shower, make sure you leave the doors all closed, and holler if you need me. The marathon shower began, 8 minutes or less, I was out of there. I walked into the living room, ofcourse still in my towel, dripping wet, to check the status of my girls. Just Avery. "Avery, where is your sister?" I'm not alarmed yet. She said she didn't know, but maybe she was down stairs. What? How did she get down stairs?!? That door was closed! I run to the steps, Jade isn't down there, it's pitch dark. I turn around, and notice that the door leading out to the garage is open. Oh shit!!! I run into the garage, and see that the door leading out to the driveway/front yard is open. OH MY GOD! My panic attack hits at this point, tears are flowing, heart is beating so fast. I fly out into the front yard, panting and crying, and see my little baby, IN THE ROAD! AHHHHHHHAHHH! One of my neighboors, another mom, had seen her and jumped out of her car to pick her up. Thank God! I run to the street and take my baby from the lady, crying, saying thanks, dripping wet, and only covered by a not-quite-large-enough towel. Geez. What that woman must think! I cannot believe that that happened. It took me some time to calm down after that. She could have been run over, or lost, or stolen. All in just a few minutes. Ave refused to fess up that she opened the doors. I needed to know for sure. If Jade can open doors already, we need to get some stuff, door knob protectors, or a hook latch thingy placed up high. She admitted that she did do it, eventually, but why she did it is still a mystery. I don't know if she wanted to get something out of the garage, and just forgot to shut the door, or if she did it on purpose. Who knows. It was my mistake. I should have known better. Trial and error. Mis-steps and mistakes. I wonder if I'll ever get it down pat, and be the mom that never screws up. Whom always has a clean house, and make up on. Whose kids never disobey, or display temper tantrums. Now where is my mom of the year trophy?

Lots of Stuff

Nothing is new w/ my sister/cousin situation. We've called different labs and dna places to figure out how it all works. I think my dad is going to pay for the testing, which, might I add, is the LEAST he can do. Rotten. I think finding out is going to have to wait till after the holidays are over....

My hubs is gone :( He's off hunting. He left on Tuesday, and isn't suppose to be home until Sunday. I don't like it when he's gone- I get lonely. My gf is staying w/ me for a few nights though. Her hubs is hunting as well, so she's bunking here. Having someone here is great, not too mention the x-tra hands w/ my kids.

I had a major meltdown the other day. I don't think I've cried like that in years! I must have been stock piling or something. I worked really hard that day, busted my ass cleaning, I really went above and beyond my normal stuff. I was running all day. It was the day that hubs was leaving to go up north. Also, his birthday. I ran clear across town to pick up his favorite cake, and also his favorite meal from the grocery store. Jade was super crabby that day, constantly whining, wanting to be held. Max and Ave were picking at each other and bickering, so I was getting irritated. I wanted everything to be perfect for hubs. I had dinner on the table and ready when he came in from work, had his cake set up w/ his card, and favorite candy. The kids were hiding when he came in, and they jumped up to yell 'surprise daddy!' He was on the phone, and didn't really notice. Boooo. He sat down to eat, still on the phone. He wasn't being completely rude, at least not on purpose, but his brain was already at deer camp. Max had a program that night also, and I was a little bitter that hubs was leaving for deer camp before it, when he very well could have stayed until after. Opening day wasn't until the next morning. So what if its dark. He was excited though- blah. I didn't want to ruin it for him, so I was going w/ the flow. He was rushing around trying to get all of his shit together, meanwhile, all the kids are bitching, I need a shower, everyone is crying, and he isn't helping. I nearly cried then, but I held it back. Hubs finally made a comment about the house looking nice, and dinner being good, and thank you for the cake. He really wasn't doing anything wrong at all, it just wasn't what I had imagined happening. Anyway, I jumped in the shower quickly, then hurried to dress myself. Ofcourse, kids still crabby, hubs leaves, and I'm running late. When I get to the place for the program, I relize that I gave both my parents, and my grandma the wrong directions. They were suppose to turn the other way. S H I T. Right about then, my cell rings, its my step dad. I explained the mishap, and he didn't get it. Explain again. I'm getting Pissed! Finally, just let me talk to mom. Cell beeps. It's grandma, in her very stern, disappointed tone "NOW WHERE IN THE WORLD IS THIS PLACE!!!" I say 'sorry grandma, my mistake, you have to turn the other way" She yells over me talking "NOW YOU TOLD ME- IT WAS RIGHT BLAH BLAH"- Now I'm flippn angry and very near tears, mind you, baby is crying/screaming this whole time. So I say"I KNOW WHAT I TOLD YOU MY MISTAKE! GO THE OTHER DAMN WAY! I'M A BIT STRESSED RIGHT NOW AND CAN'T HANDLE THIS CRAP!" and click. Hung up w/o waiting for her reply, meanwhile, mom's still on the other line. Mom says"Where are you sitting, did you save us seats?!" I still in the fucking car w/ my screaming kid. UGH. Finally get to the place, find the auditorim, see my inlaws, and sit. Parents come in, flag them down, and sit again. Fucking cell phone is ringing, 3 calls in a row, grandma. I ignore it. Max has been really excited about this program for the last 3 weeks, talking about it everyday, he wouldn't even tell me what songs he was singing, he wanted it to be a surprise. Aww. It was important to him. K, lights go down, program starts, and Jade starts screaming. You've got to be kidding! Fuck me. I take Jade in the hallway to walk around a bit, max wouldn't be on till later. After 10 minutes of walking around, I pick her up to go back to the room, and wouldn't you know it, poop explosion. Poop everywhere. Dammit. Find a place to change her, which isn't easy in a ginormus high school. Girls locker room floor. I'm changing her, and the entire time, she's kicking, crying, throwing her head around. Terrible. 15 minutes later, I head back to the room. I walk up to my seat, and see my mom and grandma exchange looks and nods, like "yep, she's being a bitch" Grr. Can't I have a bad day? Don't they have days where just everything goes wrong?!?! I was very close to falling over the edge. I ask if Max is up now, and I get "You just missed him. He just walked off the stage" OH NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO! This was so important to him! I missed it! Ahhh! I lost it. Asked my parents to drop off max and avery off after it was over, and hustled out of there. I was bawling before I got to the car. Sobbing. Like the kind where you can't breathe, and you get the hiccups. I couldn't stop. It was awful. All of the disappointment of hubs departure, busting my ass, kids crabby, running late, bitchy grandma, exciting program, poop mess, crabby baby, all of it, and I miss it. I had body-rocking sobs for at least 35 minutes. I was soooo sad. I can't remember the last time I was that upset. All of the stuff that happened that day were small, but it was one right after the other, and I couldn't take it. After my fit was over, I felt much better. I hope that doesn't happen again anytime soon. Phew, that was rough. Since then, I've been great, and kids have been much much better.

What else?? Physco Judy girl was at the bar again this last monday. Ewwww. I did my very best to be unfriendly, w/o being flat out rude, and she finally took off. Thank Goodness. I hope to never see her again. She creeps me out. If you don't know who i'm talking about, check out my post from last tuesday- yikes.

Went out for hubs bday last weekend and had a blast! We went out for apps and a few cocktails, then headed down to the bowling alley w/ 20 of our friends. So much fun!!! We have such great friends, I'm so glad that they could be there, and help us celebrate. Hubs felt really special :)

I still haven't told you about our weekend away. I'll get to that later this week. I must go get some stuff done. My baby is STILL sleeping. That's nuts. She never ever ever sleeps this late. Its 945!! Being that my friend is here, I didn't have to get her up to take Max to school today. woot woot! Makes me paranoid still. I need to go poke my head in there. Have a good day all!

Whose Your Daddy?

Yesterday, my life suddenly became a Jerry Springer episode. My dad is Tom, who has a fraternal twin, Tim. My mom's best friend had a baby, 25 years ago, Dweller, by Tim. Which makes Dweller my cousin. Tim has always refused to have anything at all to do wither her. A blood test was done to determine paternity 15 years ago, saying that Tim was 90% something dwellers dad. Even still, he's refused to have anything to do with her. We never knew why until yesterday. He firmly, whole heartedly believes that Tom (my dad), Not him, fathered dweller. Being that they are twins, even though not identical, there is a possiblity that it could be true. It may just be, that the gal I've always loved and known as my cousin, is in fact, my sister. This came from my Uncle Tim. Dweller and I made phone calls to our moms yesterday, and other family members to try to get a better idea of a time line, and whom was where when she was concieved. The time line also agrees that Tom should be her dad. BUT, being as they are not identical, it is only a small possibilty. We went to my dad's last night to ask him about it. Awkward. I just came right out with it. "Dad, is it possible that YOU, not Uncle Tim, is Dwellers dad?" He looked surprised, but his answer was more surprising. "Yeah, it's possible." Hmmm. He agreed to have a DNA test done, to find out once and for all if it is Tim, or Tom. Now we have to go about figuring out how to get one done, and how to come up with the money for it. They run from 500-800$. I always wondered why my dad and his twin hated each other. ding ding ding. That's why. My goodness. I wonder what will happen next. Dweller's ok w/ the new information. She's always known my dad, and loved him. I think it makes her feel better, b/c my dad has been around her all of her life. Tim's ignored her from the get go. She's never seen him in person, ever. I wonder though, if it turns out that it isn't my dad, but def. Tim, if he'd change his heart. If he would finally accept her. I would hope so. My guess is that it will still be Tim. Trying to pry family history, and information from our parents from 25 years ago is like pulling teeth. Sounds like they were a crazy bunch, and all interdating. Twins, bestfriends. Geez. Who cares? I certainly do not. I feel like we're missing pieces, that there are things they are holding back from us, b/c of certain situations. I'm not going to judge them, and neither would Dweller, it's just time to know the truth.

I was going to tell you about all about my fantastic weekend, but I can't think of anything other than this sister/cousin issue. I want to get it resolved as quickly as possible. I'll keep you updated, if and when things start to move.

So Long Jack

We found a new home for Jack. I was so in love with him, I thought I could make the time a little lab puppy needed. Whatever! I didn't have the time, and poor Jack was lonely. Sure, we fed him, played w/ him, and loved him, but not nearly as much as he wanted, or needed. We went to live w/ some friends of ours. They have older kids, and a less hectic scheduel, so I think he'll do well there. And we can still see him.

I'm bringing Mike (the cat) to be put down today :( Very sad indeed. He's developed some issues that cannot be fixed. Hubs is all tore up about it. He was more attached to him than the rest of us. We'll still have Mike's brother, Boo. I wonder how Boo will do w/o Mike here. I hope he'll be alright. He spends half his time outside anyway. I don't want to get any more pets, ever! I'm all done w/ that. No thank you.

We went bowling last night for a friends birthday. We had soooo much fun. I bowled my best ever! My established average on my leauge is 87, but my weekly average is 100. Last night I bowled a 140, and a 161!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! woohooo! I'm a bowling goddess :) The games hubs and I bowled last night will count for our leauge this week- sweet!!!

I'm taking off tomorrow at noon. Yeehaw! I'm driving up w/ my gf, and our hubs will follow us a few hours later. We're playing in a battle of the sexes poker tournement. Ladies play Friday night, Men play Saturday morning, and the best of both play against each other Saturday night. I'm not planning on doing real well in the game, but very much looking forward to an entire 48 hours without my kids. I cannot wait to sleep in! I want to sleep till noon! Isn't that gay? Away from kids for the weekend, and I'm most excited about sleeping. What an adventourous gal I am. I'm looking forward to black jack, shopping, and a massage as well. Not too mention hours of alone time in a hotel room w/ my hubs. Yay! Vacation sex! It's also our anniversery weekend. I can't believe how fast time has flown by. We've been married 7 years now. I believe that I love him more today, than I did when I married him. We recently had a rough patch, but came through it better than ever. We've been fortunate to enjoy a very happy marriage. I can't wait for the rest of our lives together. It helps of course, that he's such a sexy bitch :D

This is a very busy month for us. Away this weekend, hubs birthday next weekend, friends are coming in from MN for a visit, high school reunion, Thanksgiving. Geesh. Once the holidays get here, it gets so super busy. I'm tempted to turn off my phone on the holidays and hide from the family. I love spending time w/ them, but it gets so hectic running here and there, cooking, baking, classroom parites. Work Christmas party's. Eh. Would be nice to snuggle w/ hubs and the kids under fluffy blankets watching old movies instead of running all over the damn place. Oh, and deer hunting as well. I'll be solo every weekend through Nov. I start babysitting my little Lex if a few weeks as well. Chicken has to go back to work. Booooo. Very busy indeed!

Halloween, physco's, and breasts

Trick or Treat!!!!! We had a blast last night w/ the kids. Max was a power ranger, Ave was a witch, and J was a duck. Ave was running from house to house, worried that someone else dare beat her to the door. Max was right on her heels. J was content to hang out in the stroller, under a quilt w/ a sucker. It was FREEZING last night. There were so many kids out last night. We started following a group w/ at least 15-20 kids in it, running to every door. Maybe we just went out at exactly the right time, but I don't remember ever seeing so many kids at once. We were walking through a development w/ the million other kids, and this car came schreeching around a corner- WAY too fast. Even fast for broad daylight w/o any children hopping around. Hubs was supa pissed and wanted to chase him down. Thankfully, our lovely community cop was sitting around the corner, and went on to get the asshole. I hope he got a huge ticket. Idiot.

I went to play cards on Monday, as usual, followed by drinks and kareoke (sp?). There was this girl there that I had never seen before hanging out. I was content visiting w/ my friends, so i didn't say hello. Anyway, she came up to me and said that she thought I was very beautiful. Oh, well thanks. I'm blue, I say and we shake hands. She sits down closer to me and my friends to join in our conversation. This girl, Judy, we'll call her, anyway she was drinking beer after beer, and getting louder, more annoying, and more inappropriate by the second. My word! I don't have time to go in to detail about some of the shit that came out of her mouth, but it was bad. All the way from insulting my gf's, saying stupid shit about me, to talking nonsense about her own life, how marriage doesn't matter, she's been married and divorced twice before 30. Nice. Sweet thing to brag about. Stupid. She was obsessed w/ how I look. The dumbest thing ever. I look ok, normal, average or whatever, but I'm not special, not complaining or whining about it, just fact. I'm ok w/ that. Its fine to get compliments, a quick thanks will do, but this girl was retarded, and way over the top. I can't figure out what she was trying to accomplish by it. Trying to get me to like her? Maybe she was a lesbian??? Maybe she really thought all the shit she said, but come on, NOBODY talks like that. I was more than a little uncomfortable. We couldn't get rid of the bitch. She kept getting louder and louder. She sounded like that comedian lady w/ the accordian, Judy something or other, w/ Fran Dresher's laugh. Gag. I started thinking about it, and realized that i'm a magnet for crazy women. The weirdest most screwed up people ever will seek me out for friendship. Why is that? I really need to start being rude or something. It was an interesting evening overall.

So now, onto the breasts. My mom has fake boobs. Giant fake boobs. Like they sit right under her neck kind of giant. She likes to show them off. Whatever. I was over there the other day to go tanning, and my mom saw me topless. No big deal, she's my mom. BUT then, she says, 'wow babe. your boobs look like those etheopian women. a little saggy." WHAT!!!! Rotten rotten mean mama. Who says that? And, just for the record, THEY DO NOT LOOK LIKE THAT! They're just normal. Sure, not as perky as my teen years. But come on, I've had and nursed 3 babies, and they aren't plastic. I most certainly do not have natty boobies. Isn't my mom fab??

Another week gone by

The concert the other night was great! I've never seen so many older wasted people w/ mullets in all my life! We had a blast. Journey didn't do as well as I thought they would, but at least they sounded good. They seemed to be lacking enthusiasm. Def Leppard on the other hand, kicked some serious ass! They were terrific live, and I would see them again. They still look good in leather pants even. :) Before the concert, we went to dinner at the Black Rose. It's an irish pub next to the arena. Awesome fooooood. So good. If you are any where near Grand Rapids, go check that place out. Super delicious, and I love the atmosphere.

The rest of this week has been uneventful. I kept both of my kids home from school today. Jade doesn't seem quite right yet either. Max has had a cold all week, nothing terrible, but he's been dragging, and complaining about being tired. My kids go to bed at 7:45! Should be getting more than enough sleep. I don't get them up till 6:45. Anyway, I figured that his cold was getting to him, and that he should hang out at home today and get to sleep in. Avery is pretty much fine, but being as Max was hanging out here today, thought she could too. Basically, I'm letting her play hookey. I thought we could laze the morning away together, watch a few movies, and if they are feeling better later, possibley getting out for awhile this afternoon. Jade's weird mystery illness is still hanging on. She came down w/ another fever on Tuesday. No other symptoms, again. She is messing w/ her mouth alot, so I think its another tooth, maybe a 2 yr molar? She's constantly playing in her mouth, either w/ her tounge, or her whole hand. She hasn't eaten much at all, all week. I just wish everyone would get better.

I myself haven't been feeling all that well either. Mine is girly stuff though. I really need to get back into see my doctor about straighting my cycle out. If you're a boy, you can just tune out here. My cycle has been running every 21 days lately. For like the last 5? or more months. It doesn't last a normal length of time either. 3 days or so, then disappears, only to reapper in peek-a-boo form a week later. I'll spot for another week. I saw my doctor in the beginning of August to have my regular check up and talk about this issue. He thought that it was related to my weight loss, and that it should straighten itself out in a few months. This is my 3rd or 4th cycle since then- still NOT normal. I'm suppose to call him if it didn't work. Then he wants to do an ultra sound to make sure I don't have any cysts (sp?) or any other issue. If all is well, then he would put me on some sort of birth control to regulate. I've had this problem before. I think its why I had such a hard time concieving my third baby. Maybe this not normal issue, is just what's normal for me, although it doesn't seem right. I'm done having babies now, I should just get the shit ripped out. Either way, its not fun. Well kids, my coffee cup is empty, and I can hear my troops getting rowdy upstairs. Y'all have a nice day.

hello

Ick. I just finished cleaning the bathroom and inhaled too much bleach. I'm feeling a little gross now. So much has happened this week. It's been busy, as ususal. Even though much has gone on this week, most of it isn't blog worthy. A bunch of nonsense I'm sure no one is interested in reading.
Jade woke up w/ a fever this morning. I'm tired of this. I have no idea what's wrong w/ her. No cold symptoms, any obvious issues. Teeth maybe? Who knows. I wish my kids would get healthy and stay that way! I had my moms group yesterday morning, which I was looking forward to. Wouldn't you know it, that as soon as I showed up, I got a call from Max's school, saying he wasn't feeling well. I had to leave before the meeting even began, and when I picked him up from school, the little turd was faking it. Not sick. Today I had a babysitter planned for the girls, so I could go to a going away/surprise baby shower for a few girls at work. Also looking forward to that, but now, can't go. How come when I have plans, I get a sick kid??? Tonight is the concert, but I'm still going to that. My grandma is going to come here and sit w/ the kids, so I feel ok about going. It just sucks. We haven't even had a fall here in MI. It pretty much went from hot-as-hell, to winter, w/ no transition. MI winters are the worst. It gets dark super early, tons of snow, freezing temps, and lasts f o r e v e r. Very depressing time of year. Kids get sick, we stay cooped up, and I can't seem to come up w/ enough ideas to keep them occupied.

Enough bitching :) Hubs and I are doing great. Things are back to where they should be, and seem more solid than ever. I suppose that's why we have rough patches, they bring us closer when we get through them. We're fortunate to not have many rough patches. I wonder if you ever completely figure it out, or if being happily married is constantly a work in progress? I'd bet it is.

I had a weird dream about my high school reunion the other night. I showed up to it in sweat pants, a holy tee-shirt, and heeled boots! Ah! The horror of it. Except in my dream, I wasn't at all alarmed by my apperance, not at least until after I got there and looked around. Noticed that every0ne else was dressed up. It was not a good dream! Of course, that would never happen, but good grief. This whole reunion seems to be making me nervous. That's so silly. I've never been one to be nervous, or to be worried what others think of me. Seems to be changing as I get older. Why does that happen? Just part of being a grown up, or am I turning into a prudish old lady??? Heaven save me. :)

Speaking of Heaven, I used to have this OB, w/ my first two pregnancy's. He was the best doctor ever, or at least I thougt so at the time. He knew all about me, my family, hubs. He would always ask about them, always remembering details. He was a christian, and made it known. He was always praying w/ his patients and their family's, preaching the good news all the time. He also told me that he choose to work at this particular hospital, b/c it was the only hospital in our city that did not proform abortions, and that was something he felt very strongly about. I never asked him his opinion of these issues, he just freely gave it whenever he could slid it in to conversation. I'm not pro-choice, so I was thrilled to hear a doctor talk about it. Anyway, I did this thing called a Life Walk. It's a family friendly, peaceful protest. Basically you just walk through the city w/ your family, and stop to pray at specific sites. Anyway, you raise money for one of the pregnancy resource places. They offer pregnancy testing, ultrasounds for abortion minded women, adoption resources, and cribs, clothing, any sort of baby needs at all to make it easier for moms to keep thier babies. So when I signed up that particular year, I called my doctor to see if he would like to donate. SURE! he said. And he gave me a HUGE donation. After my second baby was born, some things seemed kind of off at his office, so I choose to find a new doctor. I was playing on the internet yesterday, and I came across an article about him. He has SEVERAL abortion clinics open all over the flippn' state. He's been protestor's fav target for years. WTF??? How can you walk around spouting off your 'faith' speaking your strong opinions about abortion, all the while, being a monster yourself? I was sooooooooooooo upset yesterday. You know, if that was his thing, fine. I don't agree, but fine. Don't walk around talking about what an abomination abortion is then! Lies. I can't believe it. This was not just a doctor to me. He was someone I cared about, TRUSTED, and respected, more of a friend or long lost realitive sort of thing. I almost couldn't believe it. I called his office and asked the receptionist if they did abortions at that office, she said no, so I asked her if she could refer me to someone who did. She then went on to say, that the doctor there would do one for me about an hour away from here. I now know the meaning of a wolf in sheep's clothing. I've never been so throughly decieved in my life. There is nothing that can be done about it. I could write a letter, but what's the point. I could protest, but how about no. I just can't believe it's ok to lie to people like that. And lie for no reason. No one is asking him his opinions on it, he just talks about it. I imagine it would hurt his business here in the bible belt if that little tid bit got out. This part of West MI is extremely conservitive. Christians like that make me want to change my religion.

No Gloves??

Baby J had her 18 month check up yesterday. She's doing great! Her ear infections have completely healed up now. She's in the 30% for her weight (23.8 pds), 40% for hieght, and 48% for her head. She's such a penut. I can't remember the proper term for it, but she was born w/ her inner-labia fused together, so she doesn't have a vaginal opening. It doesn't go all the way up, b/c she can go potty w/o any trouble. Anyway, the doc said that when she started walking, it would come undone. When she was not walking yet, every time I changed her, I'd have to spread it a little bit, to try and help loosen it up. Since she's been walking, I haven't done it. The doctor checked it yesterday, and it's still grown together, it looks like its grown together a bit further, so I have to do the spread thing. Poor baby, nothing like being violated. Ick. Anyway, what was most distrubing about that, is when the doc checked her hootie, he didn't have gloves on! eewwwww. Is that normal? Do other peds wear gloves when they check out kids' business's? Anyone? I can't imagine going to my gyno and having him take a peek in my stuff w/o the gloves on. Gross. For some reason the gloves give me a not-so-intimate feeling. Not that it's great either way, but shoot, the gloves seem to me to be a barrier of sorts, for several different reasons. And Chicken also asked, in case you were thinking the same thing, yes, he washed his hands when he entered the room, and again before he left it. What does your ped. do when they check your kids stuff??

Hubs and I were talking about my upcoming reunion. He can't go with me! booooo! I'm a bit disappointed by that. He'll be deer hunting. I must admit, it bothers me that he won't come home early to go with me. I suppose I kind of understand. He only hunts once a year, but reunions don't happen all that often. I'm not looking forward to being the single one, and giving excuses as to why he isn't with me. Bah. Oh well.

I went out last night, and ran into an old friend. MAN, he looks awful. He has a serious drug problem, and its very evident. How sad. 10 years ago, he was outgoing, attractive (hot actually), hard working, and fun to be around. Now he's introverted, jobless, and an all around loser. He's stick thin, w/ sunken in cheecks, scragly hair, and I don't think he's bathed in at least a month by the looks of him. He has sores on his face. I believe that herione, cocain and meth are his drugs of choice. That's really terrible. Why waste your life? There are so many things to see, and to do, oppurtunitys to make a difference. Why do that to yourself. We are only here such a short time as it is, why hurry it along, distroying your mind and body in the process. Self distruction makes me sick, and very sad. Unfortunately, when someone is that far gone, it doesn't seem that there is anything that you could say, or do to help them. He'd rather be lost in his self-pity, drugs and depression. Bad.

Seems like I had more to say, but I can't remember what it was. Ave was picked up by her papa (grandpa) for the afternoon (yay!), so I believe I'll read a book, and then hurry to clean up the house before hubs gets home, so it looks like I actually did something today. Muhahaha! I'm such a clever girl. Oh, I need a vote. I can't figure out what to make for dinner tonight. Pork chops w/ veggies, or chili???

Morning

Last night I snuck out w/ my girlfriend to go see a movie. It was so nice! We didn't go until after 10, so our kids would be sleeping. Both of our hubs had to work early this morning. We saw Man of the World, w/ Robin Williams. It was funny. I can't remember the last time I saw a movie. Too long ago.

The sun is out today. Seems like a first all week. Max has a soccer game today. The last 2 were cancelled due to rain. Hubs is working today though, which makes going to the game rough for me. It hard to pay attention to what M is doing, all the while trying to keep J in my sights. She's so busy, and can't stand to hold still. Where he plays soccer, its like a huge football field, only they've seperated it into a million mini-soccer fields. There's only about 10ft in between games, which means she can't go far w/o walking into another game. Last time I brought them by myself, she ran into the next field and got her head stuck in the goal net. Play had to stop so I could untangle my little darlings head. Ugh. When hubs goes, one of us can stay on top of J, and the other can play complete attention to what Max is doing. Makes it a heck of a lot easier. I really should bring him, but at the same time, I really don't want to deal w/ wet babies and heads in nets. The field has pretty much been a giant puddle for the last 2-3 weeks. So not fun

Guess what?? Hubs and I got tickets to go see Def Leppard and Journey! woohooo! Y'all jelous now, aren't you?? yep, that's right bitches, I'm going to rock out w/ all the other 80's dirt heads, and I can't wait. Friggn' Journey! woot woot! Who doesn't love Journey? Even if you say you don't, I'm sure you can sing all the words to most of thier top hits, and prlly do so, in the privacy of your car at top volume :) I'm gonna! Def Leppard was a favorite of mine as well. I'm so excited! Chicken is completely jelous. She insists I must buy her an old school Def Leppard concert tee. Maybe I can find one for the baby too. Its going to be a good time. They'll be here in Grand Rapids, at the VanAndle Arena Oct. 24. Sweeeeet.

No plans for the rest of the weekend. I'm going to do laundry all night tonight, and read a book. Laze around in giant sweats, and a holy tee-shirt. MMMMMMMM. Nice. I got the invite for my high school reunion. That's sometime next month- I'm looking forward to that too. It'll be interesting to see who ended up where. I don't keep in touch w/ most of my classmates. I run into one occasionally, but that's all really. I still have my 3 good gf's from school, that I talk to regularly. I'm so thankful for that, I'm glad we have. The class I graduated with was small. I think we only had 100 or so, and most of us were together from elementary on up. High School was so much fun. I had an all out riot every single day. I would do it over again in a heart beat. I wasn't the best student, but I'm pretty sure Chicken and I had the most fun ever. We were constantly in the vice principles office our junior year. For some reason, our first hour teacher thought we were bad news, that we did drugs(right), and perhaps drank underage(right again), and we were late every single morning. At least 3 times a week that year, when we'd get to second hour, the v.p. would call down to the class and have us sent to the office. Chicken generally beat me there, I'd wink at her, and take my seat, wait the for the lecture to begin. Same one every day. "I wasn't born yesterday girls. Don't think that I don't know what your up to. Keep on this path and it will lead you no where. You can be whatever you want in life, just put your mind to it. Your better than that, blah blah blah- generally followed by I'll catch you at some point, believe me i will" See, they never had any proof, so instead of getting detension, or saturday detension, we'd get lectures. It was great fun. We also spent alot of time fueling the rumor mill, just for fun. We start rumors about ourselves just to see how far they went, and how they changed. Never confirming or denying them, letting people believe what they will. Cracked us up. Anyway, it was good times all around. Wow, I got sidetracked w/ a long winded nonsense story. Enjoy your weekend!

Let it Snow!

We have our first snow here in MI. Just a dusting, but enough to have my kids nearly peeing thier pants w/ excitement! Yep, it's flippn cold- time to kick on the ol' furnance. I think its currently 33F this morning, w/ a high of 40 for the day. burrrrrrr. When I was little, it seemed like we always had a foot of snow for Halloween. We had to buy costumes that we could where over our winter stuff. Since I've had kids though, Halloween has been really mild, but usually raining. Weird how the weather changes. My kids were asking for chirstmas music when we got in the car to go to school today. My goodness- a bit early for that!

Yesterday I tore apart Ave's room. It was a giant mess. I don't know how she does it, but that girl is MESSY. I pulled everything out of her room to start w/ a blank canvas. It's beautiful now! I rearranged all of her furniture, seperated all her clothes (packed away too small and summer stuff), and made sure her toys found thier way back to the toy room. My bet is 2 weeks at the most before its back to disaster city. My mission is to do the same w/ M and J's room today.

I don't have much to post about, so I was going to give you a random list of mistyness. I've continued w/ my maitnance phase of my diet, and that's still going really well. The size 8's i've been wearing are becoming baggy- finally getting into some 6's. SWEET. Some of my must have daily eats- apples w/ reduced fat penut butter, string cheese, and salad. I eat those 3 things daily, pretty much anytime I'm hungry, I snack on those. I've upped my water intake from 2 liters to 3 as well. I still can't believe how much my body has changed, i'm really loving it. Here's a random nonsense kind-of-gross statement: I cannot for any reason at all, pee in the dark. It completely freaks me out. I have this outrageous fear that there's going to be a snake in there, or some other sort of critter, that's going to try to bite me. Since I drink so much water, you can imagine how often I get up at night. I'm trying to get over this silly nonsense, but I can't. I can't even go w/o the light off- I'm too nervous and tense. So there. Now you have it. I know you'll all sleep much better tonight knowing that little juicy tidbit about my bathroom habbits- feels good, doesn't it :)

What a weekend. J got really really sick :( She had a fever of 103.5 for 48 hours straight. Not even medicine would bring it down. And then, her mouth started bleeding! Completely freaked me out. Hubs brought her to the doctor to find out that she had a double ear infection, and something in her mouth similar to thrush, but not thrush- not sure what it is, but whatever it was became irritated and started bleeding. Yikes! That was a new one. My older kids never had an ear infection or that weird mouth thing. She's doing much better now. She still isn't eating much, but other than that, she's happy. My poor girl didn't even crack a smile for 2 days. Very unlike her.

I met up w/ my friend Harold on Friday. It was very uninteresting. I was disappointed. I was so excited and anxious to see him, and he was having a bad day- He wasn't all there. He didn't have much to say. I'm sorry I went out of my way to get together w/ him. Another friend of his came by too. I also knew this guy from back in the day, we used to hang out. I haven't seen him in at least 2 years- I was a bit surprised to say the least. Back in the day, he was funny, attractive, and pretty much an all out riot to hang out with. When he showed up, I didn't even recgonize him. He was 3x bigger than he used to be, and completely depressed. Lucky me got to sit in between non chatty Harold, and mr. sucidal tendencies. Crap! I was trying to engage Mr. S.T in conversation, you know the normal "how've you been? What have you been doing? Anything new? Where are you working now? Do you like it there?" And his responses were" yeah, i'm livin', just another day, i work here, and no i hate it. Makes me want to kill myself. Oh, I quit smoking- that's the only good thing I've done in the last 2 years. I hate this place. I hate people and crowds now too." and so on. Geesh. It was a lame evening. Very anti-climatic. Booooo.

Hubs is mad at me at the moment. Ugh. Seems misguided to me. He's in a funk. I hope that works itself out. I don't like this-

Lots of Things

Morning!

My girls are sick :( J has had a cold since last weekend, and its just gotten worse. She has an awful hackey cough and a runny nose. Avery woke up w/ a fever yesterday, complaining that her head and throat hurt. The fever carried threw to this morning, and now J has a fever too >( Poor babies. It's that time of year again.

My ghetto neighboor kids came knocking on my door at 730 yesterday morning- they missed the bus and needed a ride. Where in the hell are thier parents? I know that they work 3rd shift, does that mean that they leave them home all night long, alone? The oldest kid is 13, the other 3 are 11 and 12. That doesn't seem old enough to me. I don't like that. So I brought them to school. This morning, here they come knocking again. For crying out loud! I gave them a ride AGAIN today, but told them if it happens again, they'll be walking. It isn't my responsibility to make sure you get to school. Call your damn parents! I suppose they would, IF they had a phone. That just isn't right. When I drove them yesterday, they smelled. Weather it was them- or their clothes, I'm not sure. That proves that they need direction in the morning. I would NOT let my kids go to school dirty, or in dirty clothes. You know how mean other kids can be. I feel bad for my neighboor kids, thier parents need to be around for them. What should I do about it? Should I talk to thier parents?? AND, how do I talk to them about it w/o being a jerk? I just really think they should be home at night, and there when the kids get ready for school, and they should have a phone in case of emergency. Yes, they can use mine, and have many times, but I think it would be good for them to have thier own. I think they only do cell phones over there, isn't it inexpensive to add another line and leave it home? I don't mind helping them out on occasion, but I will not be doing it weekly- not my job. Shit happens sometimes, but twice a week- nope. That's just irresponsible. Maybe they can get a babysitter or relative to stay there at night and make sure everyone gets off to school ok, w/ proper hygene.

My friend Harold is home from China! He flew in last night, and I can't wait to see him! He's lived over there for the last 2 years. He's been home to visit 3 times or so, but he visits are generally short, and very full. He is here for good! Woot woot! I'm very much looking forward to seeing him. On his last visit, he didn't even get to see the kids or hubs. Come to think of it, I don't think he's ever seen the baby- I was able to see him last summer, but it was for no more than an hour or so. He spent the last month traveling all over different parts of china, I can't wait to hear all about it. We've been friends for 12 years, dated at the begining for quite awhile, that ended well and we stayed friends. When we got older, we were roomates for 2 years, up until I got married. He moved to California after I was married, and from there, off to China. We've kept in touch all this time. I'm glad he's home.

Seems like there was something else... Can't remember at the moment. It's time to go get some laundry done and check on the girls anyway. I think its going to be an early nap day. I could use on myself :) Have a good day!

Hello Blogland.

I'm alive- just haven't made time to update. It's been an interesting few weeks. Hubs and I were having some problems. Anytime things are off between us, I have a really hard time. I didn't want to blog about our issues, and I was very upset about them, so anyway. We went to see a marriage counselor. That was the very first time we've ever seen one. We've been married nearly 7 years (our ann is in a few weeks), and up until recently, it's been a smooth ride. We get along well, we're great friends, our sex life is freaking fantastic. We've had occasional bumbs, as we all do, but they are usually resloved very quickly. This time, we just couldn't work it out. I wasn't willing to back down, and neither was he. We were at a stand still. It was awful. I hate feeling that way! The gal we saw was really great, and made us comfortable. She gave us some really great suggestions, and some stuff we have to do weekly for each other. She fixed it :D yay! I'm very happy to report that things are all good once again. Hubs and I are back on track, and I think closer than we were before. He's so great, and I'm so fortunate to have him. I would be completely lost without him. I'm very much in love w/ my man.
Other than that, not much happening. Kids are good. Dog still sucks. My handsome little Lex is doing great. Speaking of Lex, CHICKEN has made it back to the world of blogging!! Go and check her out, she's got some awesome pictures up.

later bitches :)

baby pictures!

I meant to put these in different order, but it never works out that way. Here's my newest newfew! Isn't he beautiful! And how 'bout that chicken?? I had to post a pic of her w/ the tank :) The hospital sheet doesn't do it justice though. Enjoy your weekend!

He's HERE!

K, well he got her Wed afternoon, I've just been too busy to update. Chicken ended up having a c-section :( When they gave her the spinal block, it didn't work, so they had to put her completely under. Poor girl! It was a tramatic experience for them. BUT, my new little nefew is adorable. He has tons of darky, curly hair. He's a doll. He weighed 7 pds 14 oz, and was 20 inches long. His name is LEX!! How cute is that??!! Lex Perfect. He's either going to be a president, or a rockstar w/ a name like that. I currently do not have any pictures to post of him, but will have soon. Both mom and baby are doing great! Oh, and he took to nursing right away. No problem w/ that lil' guys latch :)

Things are busy as usual here, w/ a busy weekend ahead. Max has a carnival at school tonight, tomorrow an early soccer game, i'm out w/ a gf tomorrow night, and sunday we have a family get together. I was hoping to get all of our yard work done this weekend, but its going to rain all weekend. We're going to have a trailer yard for at least another week. Yuck.

happy weekend to all!

xoxo
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YES!

I'm here at the hospital right now!! Chicken is finally about to lay her egg!!!! On her own. The hospital has internet access in the waiting room. How sweet is that? She's doing ok for now, uncomfortable, contractions every 3-5 minutes. She's only dialated to 2, though. Poop. I hope she starts to dialate soon! I don't want her to end up w/ a c-section! I'll update again throughout the day! Pray for my girl, for a safe delivery, and a healthy baby!!!

xoxo

Soccer Star!

Ave had her first soccer game last night, first time every she played. I was so impressed!! She's a mini Beckham! Out of the 6 goals scored, she made 4 of them!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! She was so focused and intent on that ball, she was plowing little girls out of her way. I couldn't help but hoot and cheer for her! She did GREAT! She does however have an issue w/ sportsmanship. Not good. I'm not sure how to go about fixing that. She didn't want to share the ball w/ her teamates, and she cried when the other team scored a goal. She felt like she wasn't doing a good job if she didn't get a goal, or if the other team made one. Suggestions anyone? How do I fix that? Hubs had to miss the game last night, and was completely bummed :( I hope she is as enthustiastic next week as she was last night. I can't wait to watch her again!

Still no baby. Never having a baby. Ever. She has a doctor appt tomorrow. We'll see what they say. Hopefully its something like "holy cow! your already 8 cm, get to the hospital!" Doubtful, but I can dream. Chicken is discouraged, and emotional. She's still having a hard time :( I can't wait till she feels better. I'm excited about the baby as well, but for now, I'm just more concerned w/ my friend.

We are going out w/ some friends tonight w/ all of our kids. Our friends didn't tell us where we are going, or what we are doing, other than we aren't allowed to pay, and it'll be fun for all of us. Hmmm... Sounds interesting. Kind of like our whole family is being taken out on a blind date! I'm looking forward to it. I need to run. Time to clean bathrooms and finish the laundry. Yay!

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NO BABY STILL. She is now 8 days overdue, and completely miserable. Sad Chicken. She thought last night was it. She had contractions every 15 minutes for forever, then they just stopped. They have started over this morning, every 20 minutes, and not too painful. Maybe it will finally be today. If she doesn't have the baby by her dr. appt on Wed., she'll be induced.

The weekend was uneventful and quiet. We didn't do much. Family get together w/ hubs family on Friday, soccer game Saturday morning, mall saturday afternoon, and nothing yesterday. It was a relaxing weekend. I wasn't ready for Monday yet. My kids weren't either. I had a hard time getting them out of bed this morning. Today is one of those days where you want to snuggle under the covers all day. Gray, raining softly, and somewhere around 60 degress.. Good movie day.

Seems like there was something else worth mentioning... Can't recall. Oh, we watched United 93 last night. It was hard for me to watch some parts of it. What a terrible way to die. The people on that flight knew exactly what was going to happen to them, and they fought back. Good for them! But still scary. I can only imagine what they were feeling when thier plane went down. I don't want to know when I'm going. I want to be blissfully unaware that death awaits me just around the corner. Especially if its something terrible like a plane crash. I don't want time to think about all of the things that will be taking place in moments. I wonder what has changed since 9/11 when it comes to communication between all of the airlines and the military... I hope lots of things. It must of been terrible for the people who worked there, not knowing what was going to happen next, or how to fix it, or who to call, helpless. Awful.

Anyway, I'll let you know if and when Chicken gives birth. Enjoy your day

My dad is doing better! He was released from the hospital last night. They found 2 holes in the lining of his stomach, bleeding ulcers. He was in bad shape when he got there. He had to have 3 blood transfusions to get him back up to par. I was thrilled w/ the doctors there, they did a great job and looked at everything. Nothing else was wrong!! He is as healthy as you can be when you've been a smoker for 40 years.
Chicken is the same. Still flippn' pregnant. With NO sign of hatching at all. I'm giving up. Now I'm just going to plan on her staying pregnant for another 2 weeks. I can't handle the anxiety :)
We are suppose to have nice weather this weekend, finally! We need to close the pool, and do some yard work to get ready for fall. 80 and sunny tomorrow, perfect for yard work. Nothing else interesting to tell.. Happy Friday Bitches ;)

The funeral was nice, well, as nice as those type of things can be. It was held at this buliding/workshop/church for bikers. The service was in the workshop part, all the walls had different cool road signs on them, and there were Harley's in different states of fix-it along the walls. The pastor looked like Santa, only bigger and wearing leather instead of red. Very cool. It wasn't formal, a come as you are kind of deal, and it was very intimate, and cozy. The pastor read the normal verses, and even added a bit of humor. Those who wanted to share a story about my uncle just stood up where they were and did so. This was the first funeral that i've ever been too that didn't have that stuffy-really-creepy vibe. It was a wonderful way to remember him, and how I think he would have liked it. Awesome.
Next tragedy- My dad is in the hospital. He's been sick for a few weeks, he looks awful. His skin is gray and ashey, no energy, dizzy, faint, all of that. He didn't want to go, but my brother and I gave him little choice. He said he wanted to wait till after his brother's service was done, so I pulled up to his house around 8 this morning, and dragged him out of bed. Off to the hospital we went. The doctors haven't found much yet. He has been losing blood, and they don't know from where, so they are doing testing to figure that out. His blood count is low, his blood pressure is off, and pretty much everything else is out of whack. I hope they find something. Not that I want him to have 'something', but 'something' is easier to fix then a 'hmm, not so sure, good luck w/ that...' I hope we know more tomorrow when some of the tests come back. Chicken and I will be heading up to hang out w/ him soon. My dad is funny. He's at the hospital Chicken is going to have her baby in, so earlier he says ' Won't it be great if Chicken has her baby tonight??? I'm already here! We can have a party!' Goof ball, at least his sense of humor is perfectly in tact. YES, damn Chicken still HAS NOT laid her egg. No signs of any egg laying either. When she comes over tonight, I think I'll slip some castor oil in her drink ;) Or maybe not. Perhaps I can convince her to jog??? I'll keep you posted on all our happenings around here. Night all.

No Baby Yet.

My lovely Chicken is still very much pregnant this morning. Argh! I was really hoping it would be over the weekend, but no such luck. Nothing at all going on w/ her. Not even the slightest little twinge... I've come to the conclusion that she is going to be pregnant FOREVER. I'm just so anxious. I want to meet my nefew. I wonder if he'll look like Chicken, but have my brothers crazy hair, or maybe he'll look like my kids..... Seems like I'll never find out at this rate. I'll keep you posted.
So today is Sep. 11. I can't believe that it has been 5 years. Where were you when the towers fell? I was 6 months pregnant w/ Avery, and on my way to see my O.B. My mom was going with me. I heard about it on the radio, I'm my way to pick up mom. I didn't understand that it was a terriost attack, not at all. But when the second plane hit, I knew something was terribley wrong, but terriost still wasn't a thought I had. My mom and I were pretty shook up by the time we got to my doctors office. At the office, Rita, the nurse was in tears. Her husband flew for one of the airlines that crashed, and many times, flew that same route. He was off that day, thank God, but it was too close to home for her. For all of us. My doctor, rita, me and my mom formed a circle, and all prayed together that morning. I just wanted to be with my husband. I met a friend for lunch at this sports bar type place, I had yet to see the pictures till then. Even though the resturant was packed, it was completely slient, and no one was eating. What a day that was. This morning I'm thinking about all of those who lost their lives, and those who were left without them. I hope they have found some sort of peace.
Anyway, my Uncle's funeral is tonight. Perfect weather for a funeral. It's as dark as night right now, freezing, and rainy. I could use a little sunshine over here.

Let me Try This Again..

Hopefully blogger will not eat this one as well. I'm on a time crunch :)

My kids have started school!! I was really sad about first grade, it bothered me more than when he started kindergarten. It must be the whole day thing. And up until Tuesday, he was sad about going b/c "I won't get to eat lunch w/ you everday anymore mommy" But when school got here, all systems were go. I asked him if he wanted me to walk him into his class, and he says "Um, mama, I don't want to hurt your feelings or anything, but I'm kind of a big kid now" So he didn't want me to walk him in :( Yep, I cried, but not until he went into school. And just a few tears, not all out sobbing. My big boy. He loves his class and teacher, so all is well so far.
Soccer has also started for Max. He likes it, but uh.. I don't think he'll be a soccer star. lol. He's way to busy goofing off. I can't believe how silly he is. Hubs and I were watching him practice last night cracking up. I told hubs I sometimes wonder if my max is kind of a shortbus kid. hahaha. He was talking to his coach, and one of his teamates, and he says 'Wouldn't it be totally SWEET if I tripped over the ball and hit my neck on the goal post and broke my neck open and all my guts poured out!!!! THAT'D BE AWESOME!!!' He was so animated while telling this little tale, giggling all the while. Who's kid says crap like that? Mine. What a dork :)
Chicken is doing well too! We are all getting in baby mode. I've been sleeping w/ my phone by me just in case. She's had regular contractions for the last 3 or 4 days, but after 4 hours, they go away.. Her body is getting ready. My original guess is that she will have her baby the 10th, so that's what I'm hoping for! I also guessed that her baby would be 9pds 3 oz, and 21 1/2 inches long.... I wish I had a picture of her tank to put up here so y'all could see for yourselves. Her belly has def. dropped, and is rock hard. She's been getting really uncomfortable, and not able to sleep at night. I can't flippn' WAIT! I want it to happen NOW. My mom has been driving her crazy. lol. I'm glad she gets to experience my mom's nuttiness first hand. My mom calls her everyday now to see if she's lost her 'plug'. Completely gross's chicken out! lol. She feels that her 'plug' is much too intimate to discuss w/ my mother. ahhahaha. My mom has also started stopping by whenever w/o calling. Not that you always need to call, but come on now. She's only dropping by to see for herself that chicken's not in labor yet :) I really hope it's this weekend. I need to find my damn camera! I will be so sad if I can't find it to take pictures right away to post on here. Chicken's computer is still broken, which is why she hasn't posted in forever.. I'm going to see if I can get it fixed for her this week.
I have another funeral to go to this week. My uncle johnny passed away. He found out he had a tumor in his brain 3 or 4 months ago, and yes, it was cancerous. They were able to remove 90% of it during surgery, and he had an awesome prognosis. With chemo, they were sure he would recover. He was in the hospital last week, b/c the chemo made him sick. Then he started doing better was released from the hospital, and died in his sleep from a friggn' heart attack. What? Can you believe that? Unreal. My dad is all fucked up now. This is his 7th funeral, all for loved ones. I had the most disturbing morbid conversation w/ him last night. He was talking about how it's his turn next, and how he knows something is wrong w/ him, but he refuses to go to the doctor. Ugh. I couldn't handle it. I don't want to hear that! I know he's depressed and all, but goodness. Please don't tell your daughter about how you know you're dying and you refuse to do anything about it. I'm not sure when the funeral is yet.. I imagine it will be saturday or monday.
Jade puked on me this morning.. Not sure what's going on with her. She doesn't have a fever, but both yesterday morning, and this morning, she threw up. It was more like a mouthful of spit-up, but babies her age don't spit up. She hasn't had any trouble the rest of the day keeping anything down or whatnot. She has been a little fussy.. Any guesses as to what's wrong w/ her? I must be going.. Laundry and babies are crying for me. Have a good one :D

Stupid %^(*(&$#^*^&*^& blogger!

I just finished a lovely, long and entertaining post, and fucking blogger ATE IT. And GUess what? I don't have time for another. DAMN IT. I'll get to it later. S t u p i d blogger!

Muhahahaha

This picture cracks me up! And its fitting for me b/c I am sooooooo flippn' crabby right now! I don't know exactly what set me off tonight, but I'm hating the world at the moment... I had to work tonight, and when I got home, house was messy, kids were screaming, dog was barking, I couldn't take it. Dog is still barking. Poor sad Jack needs a new home. I think I might just kill him if I have to listen to his stupid barking anymore! Thank goodness the kids are in bed now. I think my hubs is to. I escaped to the the dungeon as soon as I could. That'd be the basement for those who were wondering. Anyway, nothing really to blog about, just pissed. I'm sure it'll be better in the morning. Night all!

Hola

I've been busy. Sorry, haven't had anytime to update. Hmmm. Where to start. Well, last week the shower went well. Everything turned out great! My gf showed up early saturday morning, and really did a lot to help me out. How I love her :) The food turned out good too. We didn't have very many people show up though. I was disappointed about that. I invited my whole side of the family, aunts, cuzn's, great grandmas, and NONE of them showed. I couldn't believe it. What a way to welcome Chicken into the family. Chicken wasn't disappointed though. She's getting so big! It's getting so close to baby time. I can't wait! She and my bro have had a name picked for MONTHS now, but they won't tell anyone. It's been driving me crazy, but guess what? I figured it out!! woot woot! Of course, I can't tell y'all, that'll be up to her. Not only y'all, but I can't tell anyone else either. Wouldn't want to ruin the surprise. But I do enjoy listening to everyone else sepculate. Te he he. It's a great name, by the way, and one I've never heard of anyone else named before! Pretty sweet. So, what else... Hubs worked late all last week, and it seems like I had something going most every night, but I can't recall it at the moment. Friday we were suppose to leave to go camping w/ all of hubs family. I didn't want to go, at all. J is so busy lately, I wasn't looking fwd to chasing her around. Even though all of my inlaws were there (32 of us w/ brothers, sisters, kids, and his folks), they aren't very helpful when it comes to tracking babies. Hubs gets busy w/ his brothers, so its left to me to try and keep an eye on the older 2, and chase the baby all over the damn place. Camping at this age is so hard. They're big enough to walk around on their own, or run in her case, but they don't have a thread of common sense when it comes to fire, or water. Not too mention what they put in their mouths. Ick. I decided to hang out at home friday night, and drive up sometime saturday afternoon instead. Hubs called sat morning to ask about my plans for the day, and asked me to look for something for him. I had just filled my coffee cup, so I set it on the table and turned around to the counter to see if I could spot whatever it was that he needed. J grabbed my scalding hot coffee, and dumped it all over herself! I flew into a panic! I picked her up and ran to the bathtub, set her in it, and turned on the cold water, and pulled her onsie off. I was so scared! Her angushed cries were almost too much. It was so sad. After drowning her w/ cold water, I called the doctors office, and the nurse or whomever said to bring her in. Thankfully, she's ok. It wasn't nearly as bad of a burn as I though it was. I've never had that happen before. I was burned w/ hot oil when I was 10, and it was awful. My burn covered my entire left arm, from shoulder to wrist. My arm swelled to the size of a leg, and blistered and cracked. Jade's didn't brake any skin, nor does she have any blisters. Poor girl. I'm telling you, my hair is going to turn gray and fall out at an early age.
Other than that.... not too much else. I'm going to go play cards w/ a gf tonight, and maybe some bad karoke. Kids have school oreintation, and soccer oreintation this week, I'm working twice, and then off we go camping again for the next weekend. I can't believe school is starting in just one more week. I'm looking fwd to starting up the old routines, but NOT looking fwd to the early morning hours. I'm not so good in the morning. Besided being busy every night this week, I have to go school shopping for both kids. Both need new jeans, underware, socks, and lunch boxes. The backpacks from last year are still in good shape, they can use those again. Max's school supply list is HUGE. I'm going to drop a small fortune at staples. On top of all that, I've been in the process of rearranging the basemet. Cleanng out storage rooms, moving bedroom and toy rooms... getting rid of way to much shit. Where does it all come from?! Have a good day!!

Hola

I've been busy. Sorry, haven't had anytime to update. Hmmm. Where to start. Well, last week the shower went well. Everything turned out great! My gf showed up early saturday morning, and really did a lot to help me out. How I love her :) The food turned out good too. We didn't have very many people show up though. I was disappointed about that. I invited my whole side of the family, aunts, cuzn's, great grandmas, and NONE of them showed. I couldn't believe it. What a way to welcome Chicken into the family. Chicken wasn't disappointed though. She's getting so big! It's getting so close to baby time. I can't wait! She and my bro have had a name picked for MONTHS now, but they won't tell anyone. It's been driving me crazy, but guess what? I figured it out!! woot woot! Of course, I can't tell y'all, that'll be up to her. Not only y'all, but I can't tell anyone else either. Wouldn't want to ruin the surprise. But I do enjoy listening to everyone else sepculate. Te he he. It's a great name, by the way, and one I've never heard of anyone else named before! Pretty sweet. So, what else... Hubs worked late all last week, and it seems like I had something going most every night, but I can't recall it at the moment. Friday we were suppose to leave to go camping w/ all of hubs family. I didn't want to go, at all. J is so busy lately, I wasn't looking fwd to chasing her around. Even though all of my inlaws were there (32 of us w/ brothers, sisters, kids, and his folks), they aren't very helpful when it comes to tracking babies. Hubs gets busy w/ his brothers, so its left to me to try and keep an eye on the older 2, and chase the baby all over the damn place. Camping at this age is so hard. They're big enough to walk around on their own, or run in her case, but they don't have a thread of common sense when it comes to fire, or water. Not too mention what they put in their mouths. Ick. I decided to hang out at home friday night, and drive up sometime saturday afternoon instead. Hubs called sat morning to ask about my plans for the day, and asked me to look for something for him. I had just filled my coffee cup, so I set it on the table and turned around to the counter to see if I could spot whatever it was that he needed. J grabbed my scalding hot coffee, and dumped it all over herself! I flew into a panic! I picked her up and ran to the bathtub, set her in it, and turned on the cold water, and pulled her onsie off. I was so scared! Her angushed cries were almost too much. It was so sad. After drowning her w/ cold water, I called the doctors office, and the nurse or whomever said to bring her in. Thankfully, she's ok. It wasn't nearly as bad of a burn as I though it was. I've never had that happen before. I was burned w/ hot oil when I was 10, and it was awful. My burn covered my entire left arm, from shoulder to wrist. My arm swelled to the size of a leg, and blistered and cracked. Jade's didn't brake any skin, nor does she have any blisters. Poor girl. I'm telling you, my hair is going to turn gray and fall out at an early age.
Other than that.... not too much else. I'm going to go play cards w/ a gf tonight, and maybe some bad karoke. Kids have school oreintation, and soccer oreintation this week, I'm working twice, and then off we go camping again for the next weekend. I can't believe school is starting in just one more week. I'm looking fwd to starting up the old routines, but NOT looking fwd to the early morning hours. I'm not so good in the morning. Besided being busy every night this week, I have to go school shopping for both kids. Both need new jeans, underware, socks, and lunch boxes. The backpacks from last year are still in good shape, they can use those again. Max's school supply list is HUGE. I'm going to drop a small fortune at staples. On top of all that, I've been in the process of rearranging the basemet. Cleanng out storage rooms, moving bedroom and toy rooms... getting rid of way to much shit. Where does it all come from?! Have a good day!!

Uh-Oh

What a week it's been. Jade is going to make my hair turn gray. She is only 16 months old, and you'll never guess what she learned to do. Flip out of her crib! I woke up to a loud thud followed by terrified cries. Poor baby. Crafty baby. She has a hard wood floor in her room, and she fell right on her face. No real damage or blood. She has a bruise/bump on her forehead, but other than that, she's great. I think that was on Tuesday. Then on Wed., she figured out how to climb the dining room chairs and get on top of the table. AHHH! She's determined to brake her neck. Our table is pretty high up, and the floor is tile. I can't turn my back for a second and she's on that damn thing. Now what? Should I get rid of the chairs? Or just continue to set her down and tell her 'no', and pray that the next time I have to take a piss, she doesn't hurt herself? Silly baby. Oh, and she figured out how to empty dresser drawers. Naughty.
I've been trying to clean all week, and catch up on laundry, but it seems as soon as I finish one task, the monsters have destroyed another. I've been really frustrated this week w/ this stay home mom business. I need a maid. Or I'm just incompentent. I have worked the last 2 nights, but even still. Why can't I get on top of things around here? Oh, and Jade threw up this morning. Just what I needed. My poor said baby is sick, my laundry is piled up, house needs attention, and 30 women are showing up at my house tomorrow morning for a baby shower, that I have to cook for. Oh damn. I'm a bit overwhelemed. I was planning on setting up some tables on the deck, so we can eat and have the shower out there, but somehow, b/c the forces in the universe are against me, my pool has turned green. Fuck me. Now what? Ideas anyone? Want some kids? I'll keep the sick crafty baby. But I could donate the other 2. They've been naughty this week to. I know its b/c they want my attention. Being that I've been trying to get a whole bunch of stuff done, I haven't been spending as much time w/ them as I normally would, so they're acting up, trying to get my attention. I've been holding my temper in check, b/c I understand the reasons, but yesterday, I was on the verge of meltdown. Today my sense of humor is back, and I'm not at all upset about all the impossible tasks I have to accomplish yet today. They'll come together somehow. Somebody out there has to like me. Maybe all of that good karma I've been storing up will come in to play today. I certainly hope so folks, cause I need a miracle.

HNT! Family Album

Here is my family, minus my middle child. She wasn't in a picture sort of mood when we were on vacation. This is beautiful Lake Michigan... LOVE it here. I love that top picture of hubs and the baby in the water, the wave was just about ready to eat them. HHNT!